Roll Call 33

Did you take your haldol?

not for a couple of days why

It's starting to show....why did you stop?

because it was giving me blurry vision

Oh sucks....why didn't you just go back to a lower dose? I mean I'm not your mom here but I know you have that contract with your T and all that you don't want to mess up....maybe you can go back on before you see her?

umm i dont feel good. physically. it came out of nowhere. my head hurts and i feel nauseous. i hope im not getting sick. cuz i have to work tomorrow. poo!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will. the clinic just informed me my therapist cant see me on monday. that shell call me when she can so this sucks.

I think I am starting to go back in to having delusional thoughts what should I do?They dont seem delusional on one hand but when I wrote them down then re read them they started to seem a little off the wall to my friends I shared them with maybe I shouldnt write them after this it makes me feel bad when they treat me weirdly after I tell them what is on my mind.but I need something to stand on some grounds that will let me be sure if I am talking madness or making perfect sense what do any of you usually do in a situation like this?

Thank you for telling me this. More evidence that my "imaginative thoughts" (quote from my mother) is indeed fact.

I am doing a project in school and the teacher said to be creative and imaginative when making it. So I am making it in code.

I had a therapist for this kind if thing but if I needed to know immediately like hmmm smells like fire I would ask....

I am sorry I need help I am just spiraling out of control with these racing thoughts that grip their claws into my mind once again.if only I had a therapist that lived nearby that I could hire. but the ones that do dont specialize with schizophrenia and the other one is a old man that I just wouldnt feel comfortable why cant there be more female therapists or ones who deal with schizophrenia is it that hard to help schizophrenic people?why do I keep turning up dead ends on this search.

Therapy for psychosis is rare outside the UK and Europe unless you are in a study unfortunately....

dog woke me up early barking. damn dog.

i was really hoping to see my therapist on monday. sucks. old hag.

i dont understand why people dont get up early and do something. i called my mom - no one answered. went to the neighbors - they asleep. called someone else - no one answered. geez. im an early bird!!!

People like to sleep in on weekends because they often don't get enough sleep on weekdays------if I have to get up at 6 then you can bet I'm sleeping in to make up for it on the weekends....

well i dont feel sick so idk what was going on last night. have to work 12 to 6 today. then off tomorrow. its overcast outside. i wish the sun was out.

Could it have just been because you were overwhelmed?

maybe. i thought abt that.

I'm an early bird, too. When I do sleep in, I end up feeling like **** when I wake up so I try to avoid doing that.

I was looking at my ER paperwork from when I thought I had a heart attack....they called it acute emotional crisis....apparently it can cause a lot of stuff....

My son woke me up at 5:39 with his daily "Good morning" text. No worries. I love hearing from him.

me too. i slept almost til 12 noon yesterday and i was a bit pissed. thats why im always like the night before "should i take my sleep meds or not?".

i wish i had someoen to do that to me.