Roll Call 33

yea its just lyrics to a song but i do have a gun on my nightstand. not an AK tho. its still relevant saying that.

thats why i cant let myself get out of control because i do have weaponry

Those comics just remind me so much of my teenage years, so many smiles were brought about reading JTHM, squee, I feel sick and watching Invader Zim. Good stuff

School was alright. Nothing much really happened. Other than me trying to resist every ounce of mind control they try to put on me. I've noticed how people who buy their lunch at the school seem to be more brainwashed than others. Maybe they put mind control drugs in the lunch?

So how is everyone doing?

they do. its called GMOs

Soo they make gmo's to mind control us... I didn't know that. All i knew about them was that they are linked to many diseases.

no voices but paranoia tonight

IDK how i gonna celebrate. i get 3 days off. i texted T that this is epic...he said yes and congratulations!!!!!!!i think he was worried though cuz he texted me while i was working asking how i was feeling. but i am doing ok!!!!

Well I went to the doctor today. They did blood work and I'll be getting an MRI sometime in the near future...

But until then? Apparently they can't do anything for me so I'll just be hanging out in hell until they can be bothered with figuring out what's wrong...

I couldn't sleep last night because I kept having muscle spasms and my neck and spine felt like they were on fire.

My vision keeps going blurry... and on occasion I'm seeing double.

I could list off my symptoms for awhile. Something very strange is happening to me and it's been going on for awhile now. Ugh...

that is concerning. i hope they figure it out soon. i hope its not serious.

But did you hear what JunkDNA said? She's taking depot. Maybe you could think about giving it another chance?

maybe...
i have been thinking about it...

Well I'm off to bed... Hopefully they don't come for me in my sleep.. If they do i have 2 knifes, a working bow with arrows, a 500 Fps airsoft gun, a very sharp stick, and a very heavy French Horn... Is this overkill? I just don't wanna take my chances. Once again goodnight

Don't know if this can trigger, but just to be safe i put the symbol there.

i took out my knives too

Wow that's intense....I'm sorry atypical....I hope they get it sorted soon...

sooooo i found out that if i have medicare and medicaid that medicaid wont pay for it if medicare covers it. so basically i cant pay T with insurance. lame. i hate thinking about this. wish that T took medicare

Awesome....I seem to vaguely remember something about a chocolate lounge unless I'm confusing with someone else....that sounds like a nice way to start....if not if you have any place that makes a Hagen daz banana split they are pretty special....I got one from room service once and another time at the Hagen daz store or you could always make your own but they are really something above and beyond the ordinary....there is also always Cheesecake Factory

But medicare doesn't cover it clearly....can you talk to a person about this to verify? If you did talk to a person is there a second opinion you could get?

You might also want to look into obamacare....a friend of mine is paying $95 a month for coverage so it might be cheaper for you to get insurance...although I think she has some bizarre plan that uses the same network as etna but isn't them for some reason....also includes dental....but still....there may be decent bc/BS options where you are....

I told my mom about the death force tonight. She wanted to know if there was anything for her to be concerned about. Her response? "Pray about it, and remember that you're not like that". It doesn't matter if I'm "like that" or not...a very evil, malevolent force in the universe wants me dead.

It tried to kill me today by making me really shaky before I had to go out driving. I think I was hypoglycemic, because I drank some soda and the shakiness got better. Anyway, I evaded the death force by asking my friend to come to my place, so I didn't have to drive when I was so shaky.

It's scary that it has moved beyond the suicidal thoughts in ways to kill me. And I still don't know why it is after me. I mean, I know there is something that I am destined to do, something important, if I stay alive, and that scares the death force shitless. But I have no clue as to what that special mission might be. Most of the time, I feel pretty insiginficant.

It's nice to have a place to talk about this stuff without seeming "crazy".

I'm seeing a new doctor on Thursday. Hopefully I can start getting off of zyprexa.

You know if your T is going to take Medicaid he probably know the rules...ask him first....

When was the last time you had your glucose tested? The reason I ask is some of the atypicals especially zyprexa can induce diabetes....it should really be monitored...

http://www.ncdhhs.gov/dma/mp/8C.pdf

Here you go you get 8 automatically but your doctor can write a letter stating more are medically necessary, if it gets approved you are good to go. Again medicare isn't covering it so no need to worry on that part.

https://www.bcbsnc.com/content/medic...pper/index.htm

Here is a special plan for people with medicare that need supplemental insurance for things not covered by Medicare...I don't know your info but you should be able to get a quote it might be less than all out of pocket and more secure than trying to get approval for more than 8 with Medicaid....I would look into it...

I think the last time I had my glucose tested was when I last had blood work done, a year ago. It was normal then. I hope to make an appointment with a non-psychiatric doctor soon for a physical; I think I'll ask them to test my glucose then. I really hope I'm not diabetic...my boss (or ex-boss now, as I no longer work for him) is diabetic, and I've seen what the illness has done to him. It's awful.