Roll Call 33

I have noticed Roll Call is now being moderated. What is a green mod?

whats the difference between a green mod and a red one?

Red mods are administrators.

Green mods moderate certain forums I think.

Oh what kind of parrots---I have a cockatiel----she is the best!

I think we have. FooZe used to be a moderator before he became an administrator. Then we briefly had another moderator, but I can't remember who.

No, the chicken's not in pain. She saw a vet yesterday who approved my plan.

Oh, ok. Well I hope u figure out a way to get the chicken walking.

I have six parrots
An african grey, a macaw, a mini macaw, a sun conure, a Quaker, and a blue red rump parakeet.

Man, I'm having a hard time leaving my apt again. I need to get this money order traded in and I need groceries bad.

Any suggestions? I think maybe just do it and not think about it.

That's a tough one. I have things like that too, where I'm just stuck. I have to fill out this form and send it back to the IRS. No big deal - except if I don't do it, I'll owe them $200 instead of $10. But for 6 months I haven't been able to make myself do it.

So, if you can figure out how to get yourself unstuck in situations like that, I'd love to hear it.

id like to hear too sunshine. more than most times i cant get myself to leave my house

my T tells me when i am struggling with motivation that i just have to do what im trying to do without thinking too much about it and then as i am doing it the motivation comes while i am doing it. he says sometimes it doesnt work like: motivation -> action. he says sometimes it's action ->motivation

I could use a therapist right about now.

Well I decided to eat and take a nap. I ordered a pizza. I HAVE to get this money order thing done today though.

Why? What's going on?

I meant since I've been here which was like a year ago....clearly the whole history of time revolves around me

Wow I am a huge conure fan but because I live in a condo I really can't have anything loud thus my tiel---but she is the best anyway

Well, it's true FooZe was made an administrator before you came, I think, but there was a moderator for a few weeks about six months ago. Maybe we scared them off.

yeah I remember one closing old roll calls but I'm not sure if they ever showed up on the mod panel or if they just showed up as a member slightly to the left---I just thought they were filling in because of that and hadn't like committed or whatever...but yes that is in fact why I asked the well why we had a mod now etc because I was wondering if we had just scared off the old ones This is kind of horrible but I previously saw long ago one of the liasons deterring someone from coming to this forum...a parent maybe---it was before the partner/caregivers etc. I think. So I always kind of wondered and see this place as a secret garden beyond the barbed wire and keep out signs....

Been having random bouts of depression. My thinking turns from a "I'm ok" to "why does everyone I love leave me" or feeling worthless and stuff. Sometimes I hear voices telling me I'm a no good peace of **** and then I feel that way. It gets so intense all I can do is cry and try not to bang my head or hit and punch myself. Sometimes all I can think about is dying. I guess I need to find ways to cope with my emotions or some sort of professional advice or a look into why I have these feelings sometimes.

There was a tornado warning today when I was in school. Scary. Yesterday I went to a baseball game, which was pretty fun. Unfortunately there was mind control gas everywhere.

mind control gas comes from the chemtrails given off by airplanes. fact. look it up on conspiracy sites.

got to hang out with my friend. i had a good day today. i feel like things are going to work out. with everything. it feels weird to not be anxious about something. but good. i can finally relax. i am in a good space.

im a targeted individual and have been given mind control gas in and out of airplanes.

im afraid a specific person from the news is gonna do a dirty report on me and put me on the news