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Yeah I took a 5 mg zyprexa. I always go to zyprexa when I'm feeling really paranoid, it works wonders though, lol.

Well it sucks about your bald spot, but it will grow back. The other night I cut off about 6 inches of hair, (I haven't had it cut in over a yr) I do need to get it professionally cut though to add some long layers.

It was just too long and I'm gonna be dying it soon, so I didn't want to have to buy extra dye when I knew I was just gonna be getting my hair cut, lol.

Really happy ur feeling better.

Zyprexa is a drug that has helped me out a lot. It calms the **** out of me. I still have some hallucinations but it's manageable. My mom has notice a difference with me on the drug.

omg i just got out of bed. i was in bed for like 18 hours. wtfffff.

I agree, so don't take it personal StarStrike. It's hard when you put yourself out there though

Have you tried a different brand of flea drops? My Mum's dog was allergic to one brand and would run around and writhe on the floor for an hour, as if his skin was on fire from it, poor thing. And my dog would vomit up one particular brand of flea tablet, so maybe a different brand would be better for Midnight?

Also be careful that you aren't triggered by your voluntary work and ensure that whomever you volunteer for provide adequate support for your health. You don't want to make yourself worse when trying to help others I have a training day coming up soon about non-accidental injury and I'm a bit worried about the role playing cos I was feeling sui only last week. The women in the centre know I have "lived experience" (that's the current in vogue term here! Lol), but the people running the course won't, and it's for generic NHS staff so I'm nervous about 'outing' myself too :/ It's nice that they're giving me free training though.

I hope you get out of hospital soon Can you part your hair differently to cover the bald spot?

Eta: Also struggling to go to sleep lately. I've been taking my med, but it doesn't seem to be working as well any more I used to take 10mg for years and it always worked, but this time 10mg only worked for a few months, so I'm now on 20mg, but that's not helping now. I could go up to 30mg, I'm sure my GP wouldn't object, but that's the max dose for sleep and I'm worried about what I would do if the 30mg stopped working...but it's getting to I can't drop off until about 5am, which means that I'm not getting up at a decent time again, which leads to my family calling me lazy all the time :/

*Willow*

i just hit a peacock with my car

Yeah zyprexa helps me a lot too. But I'm always super hungry on it. I mean I made, hash browns, eggs and bacon. Normally I just have eggs and toast.

If it wasn't for the hunger, I would take zyprexa for sure...

Ditto, if it wasn't for the weight gain I'd still be on Zyprexa.

zyprexa made me gain weight too. i got off it immediately

Well I usually use frontline flea medicine. I get a 3 month supply. I don't use the kind you can get in the store, that even made tiger sick.

I will look into trying a different brand though, thanks for the suggestion.

Sorry you're not sleeping, that's tough.

It's gonna be awhile until I volunteer. I'm a mile away from a bus so I really need a car especially in the winter. It hurts my back too much to walk that far...

Oh no!

Well I've gotta clean. My management is doing inspections tomorrow. Which is a good thing I think. The last place we lived had all kinds of drug dealers in it. Idc about weed but like meth and coke. So many neglected kids.

Anyway it's gonna hurt my back. So I took some ibuprofen and a couple muscle relaxers. It's not horrible in here, but need to vacuum bad and my room and bathroom are a disaster, lol. I live in a brand new complex. It's the nicest place I've ever lived, and rent isn't too bad. My son and I have our own bathrooms and we have a washer and dryer in here. So nice not having to go to the laundromat.

Whew, I'm in a lotta pain. Owwwww! I got the living room, dining room, kitchen, hall all vacuumed. Did under the couch cushiois too. Oh it f_king hurts!!

I took a pain pill. I hate taking them bc they make me anxious. But I need it. I have these anti-inflammatory patches. I need Josh to put it on though....Ugh!

Well I put the patches on, my son is out running...poor back.

Some places have an orientation requirement, but they only take place at certain times - like every other Wednesday. So I wouldn't take it to mean that they don't like you.

Well today went well. Nothing much happened. I learned stuff i already knew, watched a movie, brainstormed ways to escape the mind control and brainwashing. I'm afraid that everyone is being mind controlled to suddenly attack me. I need to be alert and prepared.

one of my neighbors named their wifi as "PORN for life"

ummmmm.....?

Bc u can get porn online for free probably, lol.

How are you junkdna? I'm getting my apt clean. Got my room clean, now need to work on my bathroom. Being on an AP helps me so much. I think I'm gonna try invega...

Well I'm still wide awake. I don't think the risperdal makes me manic. I think I'm so used of being in a depression that it feels like mania. I'm so used of no energy, and feeling hopeless, paranoid and afraid.

I've got to find a way to make the risperdal work. I think I can start walking though now that I have more energy. So maybe that will offset any weight gain I may have.

Probably to keep people from using it because it might be virused....

I don't understand what you mean by that ^

Did you sleep?

I think I might stay up. Or take a nap later. I don't feel tied at all.

Yeah I slept....as far as the wifi porn is nortorious for viruses so if I'm going to steal someone's wifi I'm not going to use one marked porn.....I don't steal wifi anyway but many do it's very easy to crack....

Oh, I didn't know what that meant. I didn't know they were stealing it. Hmmm...

Well I'm getting tired now. Dammit! I'm gonna be sleeping all day. Or I could drink coffee and take a risperdal. Stay up til like 8 tonight. Idk, what would you do? I really need to change my sleeping schedule...

Well I don't know if anyone is actually stealing it but its super common and some people just break into it for personal info etc....it's just a bit of a deterrent I think or the guy just really likes porn

Ran into old pdoc on the bus---said hi---we talked a little about vacations and how neither of us has had one this year. I'm glad to see him and actually talk to him again---told him I was back on meds----he mentioned he ran across the card I gave him at the last session like a month ago and thought it was very sweet. I'm glad he kept it. He really was an awesome pdoc.