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Old Dec 05, 2014, 06:31 PM
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today when i went to the gas station there was a police behind me walking behind me and behind me out the door. i was really paranoid. and i was kinda mad because i just dont like police. i was getting pretty angry.
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 07:01 PM
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i just met with T. it went well. he said he was really worried on tuesday. i feel bad for making him worried but he said he is glad i am feeling better now i am too. i feel really happy about the new apartment. everyone else is happy abt it too. ive wanted to move for so long.. it was good to see T. i am home now and i am eating hibachi chicken w. shrimp sauce i got from a take out place
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 07:08 PM
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I KNEW THE POLICE WERE FOLLOWING ME. PROOF.
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 07:34 PM
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In 1957 Dr. Robert Heath of Tulane University performed experiments on schizophrenic patients, which were funded by the U.S. Army. In the studies - he dosed them with high levels of LSD and then implanted "deep electrodes" in their brains to take EEG readings
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 08:01 PM
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and theyre STILL doing it. to me and nicola.
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 09:05 PM
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and to all of you guys. do you understand me?
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 09:12 PM
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why does eveyrone stop talking when i post?
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Old Dec 05, 2014, 09:52 PM
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Same thing always happens to me... :/

My new t thinks I'm not bipolar or sza. She thinks I have a personality problem, like some mild form of BPD. I'm so upset about it. I just feel so worthless because she thinks i have a personality disorder. I'd rather be s za to be honest. At least then no one would think I was a bad, defective person. Your brain can be sick and you can still be a good person. You are not your brain, it is just an organ in your body. If there is something wrong with your personality, then things are different. You are your personality.

I just want to be a good person. I don't want any of my suffering to have been my fault.
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cant pee. scared spirits are watching.
i masturbated and i feel awful about it now
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 09:26 AM
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...ugh well...i did...
i masturbated and felt like all my dead relatives were watching me and angels and god.
and then i felt awful...
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 09:52 AM
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i was just looking at my cigarette box because it said it contains carbon monoxide.
and then my dad walked in and saw it too. weird how that happens to me all the time.
and he pointed to it and said "carbon monoxide. thats what comes out of the exhaust of cars".
and i said "yea. i thought about doing that one time" and turned my head.
idk if he heard me but he just walked away.
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:01 AM
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oh newtus everyone does it theres nothing to be ashamed about. not everyone posts it on rollcall when they do however. i thought it was funny, bravo!
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:12 AM
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but i feel like all the spirits of people and angels and god are watching me. one time a demon instructed me to masturbate and it made me feel bad.
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:17 AM
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When I first discovered masturbation I use to think my dead relatives were watching me while I was doing it. Then I tried to go without masturbation for a while which didn't work lol. I found it enjoyable so I just continued doing it.
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:21 AM
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when i was little i felt like i was sinning when i masturbated and i would pray to god afterwards for him to forgive me
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:22 AM
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lol Erti.
i mean i dont want to stop.
i just struggle with the thoughts of mostly god watching me and possibly condemning me and the angels. and then...passed relatives :/

anyway...and evil demons...
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:22 AM
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when i was little i felt like i was sinning when i masturbated and i would pray to god afterwards for him to forgive me
i did that for a long time into my 20s. ive stopped praying afterwards but i still feel somewhat sinful. or i wonder what god thinks of me.
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:28 AM
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but i feel like all the spirits of people and angels and god are watching me. one time a demon instructed me to masturbate and it made me feel bad.
I would hope the Angels and god had better things to do...
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Old Dec 06, 2014, 10:36 AM
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oh newtus everyone does it theres nothing to be ashamed about. not everyone posts it on rollcall when they do however. i thought it was funny, bravo!
This happens all the time actually...roll call is pretty open....
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