Roll Call 41

Angelique67 · Dec 13, 2014, 07:06 PM

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well i met her online 2-3 months or maybe 4 months ago. but i actually texted her and talked on the phone to her. she lived in the next state over. in oklahoma. i live near the border of oklahoma. well about an hour away from it. and yea...her family posted she died on thursday. they said she died suddenly...
she talked a few times about suicide. idk.

at first i thought it was a joke but i think she may have died.

That's very sad. I'm sorry (((((newtus))))).

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 07:11 PM

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so i went to the post office to send a poster of gerard way to KUREHA and i get there and the lady at the post office goes "oh great international mail...fill out a customs form..." and walks away. then i wasnt "hurrying" enough and shes like "here! dont bother filling out the address just put whats in the package under details". i didnt say anything. she spend a good 7 or so minutes having trouble putting into the computer and was like typing with one finger on each hand like she didnt know how to use the computer. then i was getting nervous and trying to hurry because she was hurrying me and messed up my pin # typing it in. so i had to press cancel and shes made this big sigh and said "here give me the card" and did some authorization thing bypass. i just left. freakin BTCH.

Sorry your postal experience was less than satisfactory but awesome that you're sending a poster to kureha.....

junkDNA · Dec 13, 2014, 07:17 PM

sorry newtus.

T let me borrow this book: Roll Call 41

he told me to read a particular chapter. it is very interesting. its interesting and weird to read that others have same experiences like mine. and to read about automatic thoughts. this is a cool book but its mostly for therapists to read

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 07:51 PM

so whats everyone up to tonight?

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 08:00 PM

this week went by EXTREMELY slow.
i think because im waiting for college to start back.
the main reason why i wanted to go back to school at this point in my life was to have something to occupy my time. and i thought if im doing school i might as well get credits for it if i want to ever take it further. i wish i could get my bachelors. but i feel like thats a pipe dream.

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 08:02 PM

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this week went by EXTREMELY slow.
i think because im waiting for college to start back.
the main reason why i wanted to go back to school at this point in my life was to have something to occupy my time. and i thought if im doing school i might as well get credits for it if i want to ever take it further. i wish i could get my bachelors. but i feel like thats a pipe dream.

How many credits do you have vs need for the bachelors?

I think it's great you're going back.....

aka Bean · Dec 13, 2014, 08:25 PM

nm just trying to fall asleep but cant

aka Bean · Dec 13, 2014, 08:26 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

this week went by EXTREMELY slow.
i think because im waiting for college to start back.
the main reason why i wanted to go back to school at this point in my life was to have something to occupy my time. and i thought if im doing school i might as well get credits for it if i want to ever take it further. i wish i could get my bachelors. but i feel like thats a pipe dream.

i hope u can get in

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 08:42 PM

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How many credits do you have vs need for the bachelors?

I think it's great you're going back.....

its really embarassing. everyone has always asked me even my mail lady yesterday asked me how many credits i have. i was just like "oh im a freshman" and laughed nervously.

the reason its embarrassing is ive been going to college off/on (mostly on) for 6 year or so. i quit going for about a year and half or so this past year.

so yea i only have 6 credits compared to needing like what?...60 or so for a bachelors. or 48 for an associates. ive failed maybe like 15 or so classes. prob under that but still...at least failed over 10 classes.

but my schizophrenia got extremely bad after i started college. so i started taking one or two classes a semester instead of 3 or 4. so yea...

aka Bean · Dec 13, 2014, 08:44 PM

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its really embarassing. everyone has always asked me even my mail lady yesterday asked me how many credits i have. i was just like "oh im a freshman" and laughed nervously.

the reason its embarrassing is ive been going to college off/on (mostly on) for 6 year or so. i quit going for about a year and half or so this past year.

so yea i only have 6 credits compared to needing like what?...60 or so for a bachelors. or 48 for an associates.

still i wish u best of luck

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 08:46 PM

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its really embarassing. everyone has always asked me even my mail lady yesterday asked me how many credits i have. i was just like "oh im a freshman" and laughed nervously.

the reason its embarrassing is ive been going to college off/on (mostly on) for 6 year or so. i quit going for about a year and half or so this past year.

so yea i only have 6 credits compared to needing like what?...60 or so for a bachelors. or 48 for an associates. ive failed maybe like 15 or so classes. prob under that but still...at least failed over 10 classes.

but my schizophrenia got extremely bad after i started college. so i started taking one or two classes a semester instead of 3 or 4. so yea...

that's ok the important thing is you're taking steps to change all that....

aka Bean · Dec 13, 2014, 08:50 PM

well good night

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 08:51 PM

ugh i just feel so embarassed...

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 08:51 PM

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well good night

night bean

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 08:57 PM

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ugh i just feel so embarassed...

People are just making conversation...it's not about judgement....

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 09:00 PM

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People are just making conversation...it's not about judgement....

but isnt embarassing when you say the truth.?

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 09:06 PM

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but isnt embarassing when you say the truth.?

I see how it could be but try not to let it get you down...you should be proud that you're still trying....

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 09:18 PM

thank you. i really hope i can pass this first class. its physical education. if i cant pass that - i cant pass anything. school or nothing.

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 09:19 PM

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thank you. i really hope i can pass this first class. its physical education. if i cant pass that - i cant pass anything. school or nothing.

Oh I thought you were doing electronic classes for some reason...it will be great to meet some new people

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 09:36 PM

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Oh I thought you were doing electronic classes for some reason...it will be great to meet some new people

i am doing online classes. im doing physical education online. thats my first class.

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 09:42 PM

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i am doing online classes. im doing physical education online. thats my first class.

How does that work?

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 09:47 PM

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How does that work?

lol im not sure. i know theres a textbook that goes with it. but the instructor said its free online. and i notice he added some assignments on the calender. one of them is writing about my favorite exercise or physical activity. and then theres some labs. im thinking ill have to do the textbook half the time and then prob do some in-home workouts and write about them.

like i said if i cant pass this first class i cant pass ANYTHING.

Sometimes psychotic · Dec 13, 2014, 09:51 PM

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lol im not sure. i know theres a textbook that goes with it. but the instructor said its free online. and i notice he added some assignments on the calender. one of them is writing about my favorite exercise or physical activity. and then theres some labs. im thinking ill have to do the textbook half the time and then prob do some in-home workouts and write about them.

like i said if i cant pass this first class i cant pass ANYTHING.

Oh I see it's like learning to teach pe or something not just doing it?

newtus · Dec 13, 2014, 09:56 PM

it doesnt teach you how to TEACH PE.
heres the description

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Lifetime Fitness and Wellness I
This is a Texas Common Course Number. This is a Core Curriculum course.
Course Description: Students are introduced to wellness related concepts and activities for the purpose of gaining knowledge and skills necessary to evaluate personal fitness level and to develop a personal lifelong fitness program. Activities include, but are not limited to: aerobics, circuit training, muscular development, flexibility, agility exercises, weight training and body composition. (3 Lab.)

heres the announcement from my teacher

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Hello online Phed 1164 fitness & wellness students. Thank you for registering in my Winter term online Physical Education course that start's December 15. I’m currently busy with my other duties but I promise this class will be available to access on e-campus blackboard on opening day or sooner. At that time, I will e-mail an official welcome and instruction letter to the entire class. This course is completely online with a free online textbook so there’s no need to worry about purchasing a book or anything else. I hope you’re looking forward to this class and enjoying some great workouts.... I’m about to do just that.
Blessings
J. Stanson
Professor of Kinesiology

Dec 14, 2014, 12:42 AM

Ugh, I'm really struggling. I have absolutely no energy. If I wasn't on all these meds I would be suicidal I know. I'm struggling with agoraphobia and its embarrassing. I haven't left my apt in like 2 months. I feel afraid to leave. And bc I sleep or lay down so much my body really hurts when I move. I really need an AD but they seem to make me nervous. I want to cry so bad but these meds are keeping me from being able to. I missed therapy on Friday, it's just so hard when your in this severe of a depression. I hate Christmas, it's just so stressful. I see all you guys out living life and I'm like what's wrong with me? I'm sleeping like 14 hours a day. I just don't know what to do.

Anybody have any suggestions?

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