roll call 43

Do you have Trazodone? It can help. I haven't been using it lately. Might try it tonight. And some magnesium.

i think i saw that on FB but didnt watch. im gonna watch it today.

It started snowing over here after I had my first cup of coffee. They didn't forecast that, lol.

I'm feeling better, I'm sleeping again so that's good.

i feel better today. not sick. so im glad

one of my aunts is getting divorced from my uncle :/ also apparently shes a hoarder and my other aunts tried to clean up her house but she threatened to call the cops on them. idk how bad she is because ive never been to her house ever. in fact rarely anyone has...

i watch that show hoarders when i need motivation to clean my apartment

ive seen alot of the hoarders episodes, some truly abysmal circumstances there. given half the chance i think id be a hoarder!

My nurse is coming to see me this week since I'm not feeling so good.

I think that she is thinking my meds aren't working, I just got abilify back though.

Newtus - I watched a bit of it, I don't know what to think about it.

Slowly getting more and more depressed. Staying in bed for 14+ hours. When I'm depressed I tend to get these funny ideas and start hearing things. I've been grand for about 2 or 3 months, I knew it couldn't last. I haven't been taking my meds properly lately, just on and off. Would that have anything to do with it maybe? I'm still on the depot so I am getting some meds. I hope I can shake this off before it gets worse.

Ah cheer up chicken, and take your meds! i presume you were taking them regularly these past few months when you were feeling ok? and go out with your friends, being stuck in bed alone with your thoughts isnt a great way to go.

You can experience withdrawal from the meds which can actually cause voices in a normal person so yeah you need to take them all or carefully taper off with your doc.

Going to get my meds today 2 weeks early because of the last time that I wasn't taking as prescribed. They shouldn't make a big deal out of it since they already know my psychiatrist says I'm not med compliant I guess. Also, question.. When I'm happy like really happy, I'm not paranoid. Anyone else that has had different?

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just saw my psychiatrist. he increased my haldol to 20mg a day. :/ at least he gave me refills on my ambien.

i asked him if any of his patients successfully got off medication. he said no. he said I especially cant get off meds because i always have symptoms. then he asked me if i ever seen the movie A Beautiful Mind. he said john nash had schizophrenia and was on meds. and THEN i said "but he stopped his medication in his older years". and he said he didnt know that.

luckily he said that me getting only 30 minutes of therapy a month isnt enough. he said i should be getting 2 times a month if not every week.

Things are sounding hopeful on roll call. Hope everyone keeps doing well.

I had more of a social life in the hospital.
I really think the nurses and support staff have a really difficult job, so I have a lot of respect for them.

I really hope I don't lose the abilify, I'm not taking anything else - I'm taking more of it, highest injection dose and I'm still taking the liquid and it's not what I do.

I'm sick of this mind control stuff, they've turned me into someone that I'm not.

right now i kinda feel like im gonna beat up somebody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my pdoc increased my haldol

Here's me moaning about being a little depressed, when terrible things are happening to innocent people all over the World. I'm a little late to it but I've just heard about the shootings in Paris. **** terrorism and religious/islamic extremism!

http://www.buzzfeed.com/ryanhatesthi...gp#.xyxPOpEqBG

I know the feeling. Can you find a healthy way to express your anger?

My psychiatrist increased my haldol recently as well. Bah! :/

A Beautiful Mind is a good movie, I finally watched it the other day and wow... it was powerful.

I hope your therapist situation gets sorted out, you deserve as much support as you need!

Please take your meds consistently, none of us here want anything bad to happen to you!

i took time im good now i expressed my feeling with somebody i trust