Roll Call 45

lithium made me very thirsty. no matter how much i drank i never was satisfied and my body acted like it wasnt getting water. at the same time i was pretty drowning myself practically just drinking all that water.

i have kidney issues from when i was little and lithium dried me out.

Hello friends. Been hanging out with my best friend Leighann. She had her baby so I'm over spending the night with her.

Ody....here is a story from someone newly arrived in California....I want you to think ahead to that time....btw I've made the sandwich it's really good

Golden State of Sandwiches | SAVEUR

That sounds like fun....I'm glad somebody is having a good night.....

gonna have a drink again.
need to get away again.

Lol yeah. She has such a good baby. I just want to steal him from her lol.

I take lamictal and it helps out so much, but when I first started taking that medication it gave me bad nightmares. The nightmares stopped after a month.

I'm pretty good, been watching netflix quite a bit and going to do some homework now. I only have a little bit left to do which isn't bad.

guyssssssssssssss today was so good.

i saw T at 10 . then i saw the nurse practitioner in the same building. T wrote her a letter about me and my meds and stuff. i spent an hour with her and she asked A LOT of questions. she kept saying that i seemed reserved and anxious. i kept trying to explain to her that its because shes new to me. at the end she said something about treating it with meds. ?? i was like no, its just bc ur new and my history of abuse makes me this way. idk if she understood me i mean i even told her about my dad and former T!!! anyway other than that she was really nice.

we decided that i am going to start taking 6mg invega pills every day then in 2-3 weeks when my shot starts wearing off start taking 9mg or 12mg invega pills every day. she said the reason the pills werent that effective when i was taking them as PRNs is because it takes about 5 days for it to get in ur system and i should have been taking them all at once not every 1 every 3 or 4 hours!!! i didnt know that!!! then HOPEFULLY things will work out awesomely and i wont need to get another shot EVER!!!!

i am nervous about it cuz i dont want to get in a bad place again or anything like that so i am going to be really honest with T throughout this whole process. i know the whole reason i was put on the shots was because i wouldnt take my pills mostly bc the voices freaked out if i did. i would also lie to T and tell him that i wasnt hearing voices if he asked me but he could usually figure it out anyway if i was lying :P . so i feel really great that T is trusting me with pills again.

i just REALLY HOPE that all this works out. like really. i want it to so bad.

i think this is the longest post ive ever written. today was just a really good day. PS i made a 100 on that test with the essay questions!!!

OK IM DONE BABBLING!!!!!!

That's a lot of great news, I'm really happy for you!

Sometimes psychotic

I need u 2 order methylnaphthidate 4 me az research chem pls tank u

Sorry can't do that....

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

having violent thoughts about hospital staff and goingg in there and just hurtin them. i feel like im going to throw up. i took my xanax and ambien. 20mg.

It's been a rough night...get some sleep if you can...tomorrow will be better....

::

My friend put it on The Hunger Games on Netflix and it totally reminds me of my ex boyfriend because he loves the books and such.

What ever happened with that new guy?

Also the hunger games are awesome in both book and film think of it as something very popular that everyone loves not just him.

I hated the hunger games it was boring I couldn't stand it. Peoples reactions are like ....0.o

i will try.
i just threw up everywhere and hurt myself.
i will try

Ok so not everyone....

The other guy we still talk on and off.

Yeah I know the hunger games is popular but I guess everything is reminding me of him. It sucks. I hate this feeling. My heart aches for him. It hurts so much.

I say it's time to gear up with a really hot outfit for the next comic con or equivalent and find someone with the same interests to take your mind off him for a bit and who knows maybe make him a little jealous at the same time....

Lol thanks. I've been thinking about going to cons with other friends and take the guy I've been seeing (mainly talking to) with me. He's also into anime.

So its 7 am here in Scotland
my husband is sleeping on the sofa as he says he needs to keep an eye on me
he says am ill
i dont feel ill at all

Here is midnight..

I wish It was 7am. But I have to sleep and yknow like sleep doesn't feel like sleep then wake up it's rather ya.. I spent 7 hours sleeping -.-

Are you I'll though Jamie21?