Roll Call 48

What time to you take them?

Seems like a rough night all around

My resident voice is louder and angrier than usual.

toby keeps smelling my hand from where i pet that other cat.ihope hes not jealous

Probably more curious....

between 9-9:30

just wanna take it now.
i noticing i having a lot of more grammatical errors when im typing
trying so hard right now.
i cant.

i meant to say 9:30-9:45

i already feel calmer. im glad

My last pdoc appt still has me in knots. She wants to increase my Zyprexa to 30 mgs daily and I forget what she wants to increase the Seroquel to. So many meds :/

Is it very time sensitive?

why cant u take it now?

cant take my haldol either cuz i havedo do a exam tomorrow i think. cant be tired all day. scared. so scared. i feel like...just like keep seeing stuff in my mind from my past...5the police and the hospital.

might just take my nightt meds right now

no. no no.

yea i think ima do that.
really having bad tiome right now.

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i think i know what its supposed to do but it not working on me

Yeah, it is made to look like it's moving

i forreal feel like planes and helicopters are flying by and reading my mind right now. and my family from out of state can read my mind from the internet and telephone. im like scared.

thats how i feel right now. strong feelings.

I have those feelings frequently. Scary as hell. I hope your night meds help you.

thank you.
i usually dont have reading thoughts..."thought reading" feelings or thoughts. unless its about god. but not about just ordinary people...

i usually have paranoia about being watched but its usually can be kept in place...not tonight...

legit.
feeling...just completely idk.
cuz like right. i dont feel depressed at all.
i dont feel like crying.
i dont feel "out of control"
my minds not racing.
im...this is....im...idk....this...this is...this is the beginning...like this is it. isnt it? this is the begginning of my my nother downward spiral?

It might be ok...you might just need to sleep....

I don't know if it will help, but when my friend starts feeling that way, she does things repetitively, to help calm her.

I self medicated for the first time in forever, I felt so much better :/

i hope so.
i hope so.
but this this hasnt really been happening thiss bad til this month.

i mean i like wanna cry but like for a second i teared up becUse i started to think of the past stuff i did in psychosis. i just feel real scared of myself. when im psychotic i can get real angry when i feel paranoid or threatened...ive done some pretty crazy stuff. sorry to drop the word "crazy". i just mean like "not right" stuff.

If you feel as though there out to judge you, just remember that all they can do is remind you that you're human.

the problem with that is. i stroke my hair and the problem with that is i have Trichotillomania so i end up pulling my hair out in clumps from anxiety/stress. ive done that since i was 9.