Roll Call 52

Same here newtus. They were pretty strict about it.

had a terrible day at work. cried there. texted T 5,000 times. just felt terrible. when T finally saw all my texts he was like omg... i felt bad for spamming his phone i told him i m crazy and irrational. he said its ok and you are not crazy. i dont know why i have been feeling so depressed. i hate it. it consumes me when i feel this way. a customer complained abt me at work. then my boss kind of liek reprimanded me. i just wanted to die. i took a prn at work and i started to feel better eventually. they let me go early. i sent T a really long email. im feeling a bit better now but still feel kinda sad. i hope this passes soon. i cant be doing this

That's hilarious. I had to share it on my facebook!

I know how you feel Junk.

i am thinking about you and your mom. i am sorry this is happening.

thank you...

When the truth is found to be liiiiiiiiiiies
and all the joy within you diiiiiiiiiiiiiiies
don't you want somebody to love
don't you need somebody to love
wouldn't you love somebody to love
you better find somebody to love

Someone pass me a blunt!

***** please... you can't be this fabulous! Humph...

....
where did everyone go? o_o

I can hold off groups until they get frustrated that I'm using the computers instead of my phone. I want the Vyvanse at max dose for maximum effectiveness. When I go back to my old pdoc, he'll increase it to max anyways. So they'll probably ban me from computers. If that happens, you guys will know why I'm not posting anymore.

40+ groups and 40+ pdoc sessions is enough. I have school work to do as well.

I'm thinking that I'm fine again and I want to stop my meds. I don't care about my treatment anymore but I have to fight that.

Quiet in here today. Seeing pdoc in an hour...hoping to get an increase in Prozac to combat this spiraling depression.
Allergy season is upon us...I can't be the only one suffering lol

It is quiet here. It's a nice day. I'm going to try to go outside for fresh air before the month is out. It's scary though.

I saw the psychologist today. She's putting me on the waiting list for therapy. She also said I have the traits of a person with OCD. But she also said she can't give me a label. That I find really frustrating. I mean it's either I have OCD or I don't. I just want a proper answer. The psychiatrist fobbed it off as me being paranoid when I saw her yesterday and then she said she doesn't want to give me a label. I'd much rather be given a label than left in the dark. Sorry, I'm getting angry. It's just so frustrating.

Ugh I can totally relate. My pdoc alternates dxes for me...schizophrenic or schizoaffective or bipolar I with psychosis. It'd really be nice to know exactly what it is that I have. She typically refers to me as schizophrenic so that's what I go with. My T says schizophrenia as well. It is frustrating that they want to keep us in the dark about our own mental health.

i thought you guys might like this twitter acct. its called @WHYMYCATISSAD
its very witty and intellectual. this particulart one not so. but still funny.

enjoy!
ill be posting these cuz its about cats.

I'm going to ask my pdoc for something to help with sleep. Maybe if I sleep at night I won't want to sleep my days away. Although I think the daytime sleep is more related to my depression but it's worth a shot. Geeze I'm a mess this week...my appt can't come fast enough. As a side note, I took 2 benadryl for my allergies and I'm ready to zonk out

Hahaha I love the look

hahahaha yes!

So that was just me being in denial

I'm going to the afternoon groups.

They asked me to go to the morning group and I said no until a friend asked me if I wanted to go with him so I agreed.

I really hate the staff here. Especially that *****.

Treats me like I'm a child or that I'm retarded.

I'm 40 and the staff treated me like a child as well. It's condescending and obnoxious.


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my therapy appts are just getting better and better. my therapist said she had multiple exchanges with my NP but she wouldnt change my ambien dose. but she will email her again. we talked about my school and my love for Whiplash and jazz music.

Pdoc gave me Ambien so hopefully I'll get some sleep at night and wake up feeling better.

Going back to the hospital

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Good luck! I hope you feel better

I don't want to go back there

No phones allowed and I'll be miserable

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