Roll Call 52

I'm sorry

Glad to hear! You really needed that, hopefully you'll get your sleep meds sorted out of it as well. What dose Ambien are/were you on? I'm on 20mg a night, I don't think my doctor realised what he was prescribing when he did. I think I may be a little addicted to it so do be careful.

im on 5mg. i was on 10mg. it was working. no side effects. so there was no reason to change it.

That's a bit ridoink! I would have thought a doctor would have been the only one qualified to change your meds. Ah sure hopefully you'll get it back. Though I know it's not good long term but that's up to you. I've been using it way too long I think.

Ah yeah, that goes without saying. I wouldn't go near the stuff.

Yes, I forgot about that. And within fairly short periods of time. Nasty drug. Great commercials though, really effective. Well to me anyway.

the therapist didnt change it. the NP did. but yea

My doctor asked if I'd ever been diagnosed with ADHD and I said no, that's a random thing to ask

i bought more chickens. they are in riding in the backseat.
and im eating Chick-Fil-A chicken sandwich...
i feel so bad...

How many chickens did you get?

six.

minimum purchase is six.

one guy bought 15. but many of these people are farmers.

I really dont want to go back

was crying in my room

I'm such a ****ing baby

Nobody wants to go to the hospital but sometimes it's the safest place even though it sucks....

That doesn't make you a baby, it makes you human.

It won't give up it wants me dead, God Damn this noise inside my head!

Hugs hun, you need all the hugs an online community can give

It'll be ok.

I don't understand this attitude that so many mental health professionals have about labels. If they hate them so much then why the **** are they in a profession that requires labels?

i agree too

I'm sorry you have to go back, while you're there our thoughts will be with you.

I know right. It's a part of their profession.

ever since taking my haldol and lowering of my ambien and not sleeping ive been laying in bed all day everyday not doing ANYTHING but on my phone. i havent been studying or anything. ive been lazy feel like. im mad at my myself in a way. idk if its cuz taking my haldol or not sleeping. i feel part of its cuz of lowering my ambien and not enough sleep. i told my therapist this about the sleep. she said i looked real out of it.

Feeling a hell of a lot better since the 400mg injection yesterday.

Had a really good appointment with my psychiatrist. As honest as I could be or try to be, he still knew that I still have a bit of negative symptoms and said that the worst part of the illness is stopping the meds when I think I'm fine. I tried to fight it but it just takes over and insight is gone.

I'm in a good mood again.. so ya ill show the mood chart that I made over the last 12 days. I stopped one day because the anhedonia was too bad. It looks like an increase of torture every day by seeing the chart go down.

I bought 8 packs of 25 cigarettes and was smoking like a pack a day. I was giving a lot away too maybe a pack. Now I have 5 cigs left. I'm leaving it at 5 until I'm discharged and I wont be taking NRT. I'll throw the cigarettes away (Because people chose to smoke and knew the consequences so I'm not going to give them away but give the option to quit or keep bumming cigs because they're that addicted which is doing a favour. Nah. It's boring in this hospital and I was doing it too when I came so I'd be a hypocrite). If I do smoke some let alone NRT or buying another carton, there's a problem.

But I'll definitely smoke my last Cuban cigar from the 80 dollar pack that my dad gave me when I'm discharged to show my dad that I wont get hooked by doing it sooner and as a nice celebration that I don't have to be in this place anymore!

im on my period i NEED CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i like a mess i hate being a girl sometimes

I'm going to my first comiccon with a friend just to see four Star Trek stars.


The Becoming.

Kids are riding their go-karts, dogs are playing, husband is doing whatever it is he does...all is right in my world for a while