Roll Call 52

I think I need something for sleep. I take 4 mgs of Haldol and 10 mgs of Zyprexa but they don't make me tired anymore.

poc is taking me off of zeprexa i think thats how u spell it ikc but i cant sleep

I was on Seroquel but it didn't do much for me either.

Zyprexa makes me sleep a lot. Lol but when I haven't taken it all of a sudden I can't seem to sleep.

im on i think .5 and i just CANT sleep ugggggggg i just wanna sleep

Once I fall asleep I'm down for the count. It's the getting sleepy and falling asleep that kills me

omg thats me wow lol

Sorry you feel that way too

i have a bad case of hiccups

That's a low dosage. Tampering off the medication is probably effecting your sleep.

yea it does but i bearly slept before zyprexa and poc will try 2 find somthing

Lol yeah. Maybe when you find something that helps you sleep your mental health will improve as well.

hey guys!! I had a good day. saw T and hung out with my friend..and another friend later in the day. my friend got me an awesome t shirt. we are both fanatics of the show Intervention. she got me a shirt of one of the interventions and it says something he says ALL THE TIME on every episode during the intervention. heres a pic



i love it its hilarious.

i gave T his present (he was liek you got ME a present?! cuz its my bday lol) i said yes and i showed him a new stuffy for his office. its a giraffe. his name is kim we decided.

i had a great day and thanks evryone for the happy birthday comments!!!

eat that elephant one piece at a time. Get through this semester, then get ready for the next semester. One piece at a time.

i got a new bottle of melatonin and they are strawberry flavored. its kinda weird...

im gonna try the taper of seroquel again. before when i tried 75mg i didnt have melatonin. so im gonna try it again with melatonin . im back at 100mg so im gonna taper 12.5 mg down for a week then 12.5 more.

Good luck!

Happy Easter for those who celebrate or those who like to get half price chocolate the next day

What halted my panic attacks and anxiety was both Prozac and Lexapro (SSRI). Buspar works for some people. I got lucky, by chance my bipolar2 meds have sweeped them away. I hope you and your PDoc get this settled quickly...

As for your education, do you have a time of day where you have mental acuity, free from attacks? If so, maybe then you could use that window to divide and conquer your education.

never been on buspar but lexapro didnt help me. thats an antidepressant i believe right? prozac made me severelt homicidal. also idk...if my providers dont believe depression is bad enough for an AD and i dont believe my depression is chronic then idk. idk what to think. i know im on a bit of a tangent here but i do know that when i get sad i get VERY SAD and sui*. like it gets REALLY bad. ive attempted suicide 3 times very seriously. and if i dont have chronic depression then what what do i have as far as a depressive state goes with all that being said? like something just doesnt seem right.

anyway...my window for mental acuity seems to be between noon and 6pm - not respectively. yet thats the time whete i feel the "laziest" and get the least done. i get the most done in the mornings and late at night. its no doubt im a procrastinator. i dont like to think of myself as lazy. i do most of my deep thinking between noon and 6. yet my actions take place before or after those times. another time where i get a lot of my deep thinking done is right before bed which is prob typical of most people anyway.

the only thing that halts my panic/anxiety right now is xanax. but i feel the dosing hasnt been right to begin with. 1 pill which is .5 barely takes away my anxiety. so i need two pills. im supposed to take 4 pills a day. i guess im just scared ill run out.

im even more scared to ask for a change in dosage for fear they will take it away from me like they lowered my ambien and took away my trazodone for no absolutely no reason. i told them the ambien was working with no side effects.

yet im still on haldol and ive told them about all the side effects im having and they havent taken it away nor changed it to something else or the dosage. actually raising it.

anyway my anxiety is really severe. prob just as severe as my psychosis. prob.

happy easter 2 yall much lov <333333

this is like now...
once my dad leaves for work i get anxiety. i dont like being alone lately because i feel like someone is surely going to come from the news station and try to interview me or someone is just going to flat out kill me.

this was the time of year that both times - even tho it was diff years - the news station and private investigator came to my house to interview me. im tired of this. im very paranoid right now. i dont like this.

I had more auditory hallucinations last night. I hope it's not going to start back up again. My teeth are killing me and I may have to make an emergency dentist appointment. Everything is awful.

Now I'm definitely making friends.

But for the wrong reasons. All they do is talk about drugs it's boring and I thought I was bad being obsessed but that's their life.

Guy in a wheelchair was about to nod out on his pain meds, 200 Invega or what ever. He drank soap as an attempt and it's been 4 days the nurses say that they can't do anything so I went to my unit and told them because he said he felt like he's going to die today.

Fortunately he was just tired. OCD is supposed to be for protection for others eh? The fact that I did freak out with no control was the OCD.

He's done a lot of good things for me and he has a good reputation here I kind of get respect for talking to him he's a good guy.

Okay. I've screwed up big time. To the point where my dad and brother both argued to each other over the phone. All I did was pass on the message over the phone to my brother. "Dad says you need to tidy your room." Then my brother phoned my dad and accused him of snooping. They had a fight over the phone because of me. I should have kept my big mouth shut. But no... I had to be the messenger. I'm such a screw up. I don't like my family fighting like this. Why can't I do anything right?