Roll Call 53

I'm smoking way too much again. -.-" I'm stressed I suppose... Pfft.

I thought I could quit after running out of cigarettes. In this hospital, I bought 12 packs and just now I bought another 3. I'll stop completely when I'm out.. OF THE HOSPITAL TWEAKY..

I feel you. After the humiliation and mental capacity I just kept going, but at a much slower pace. Take it slow. I might have finished later than I would have liked to but I couldn't give up.

The staff better not piss me off tonight. They dragged someone with schizophrenia on the floor this morning because they wouldn't let her call someone to reassure that everything was ok. Other stuff too but ya it's sad when stuff like that happens.

My psychiatrist said that he'll talk about the Vyvanse on Monday so ya, I have, yet again.. another weekend in this place with an increase of cogentin even though I said it was fine.

I'll show the charts actually in a while it's pretty cool to see visual mood patterns depending on the meds, time etc..

Three "friends" asked for a cigarette each. I said no sorry I can't when I should have just said **** off. Some guy said he'll pay me back 5 dollars with his 30 dollars that he's going to get on Friday which I don't feel sorry for.. He owes me way more than 5 dollars. I'm not a charity or trustee. He did crack when he was released. Came up to me in the cafeteria and I pulled out a large coffee cup so he put his hand on one of the large cups and said that he wants one. This isn't some social deficit. He's just an *. He walked with me without saying a word.

I just had enough of these people. It's like a 3rd world country where people steal and fight over a dollar. I feel glad that I worked at 15 cuz there was * all else to do with negative symptoms and no insight.

In regards to beauty, I can see it, I can hear it, I can touch it, I can understand it, but I cant feel it. My favorite emotion is gone! I'm dropping the Lithium faster than what my told me to do. It's been 10 days since I went down last time. It will be out of my system completely by the end of the month. If I don't get that emotion back I'm going to be pointing fingers.

Meds have made me bipolar, panic disorder, anxiety disorder. It has lowered my sex drive ,and if it takes this away too I'm going to have a kanipshit. **** meds.

Meds have often just made matters worse for me, too. It sucks a lot.

The woman with severe disorganized schiz is crying in front of me.. Now she's laughing again.

I can't talk to her because she has severe severe word salad.

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Great, more money wasted on a phone that doesn't work here. The perks of living in the middle of ****ing nowhere.

Chat room in an hour!

Topic: high risk situations - how to avoid them - back up buddy

i live in tornado alley and theres a tornado watch here tonight. it sucks.

but i think my areas in the clear now.

Meds have done a number on my sex drive. My husband is a saint! So I agree, **** meds

Chat room open now

Topic: high risk situations - how to avoid them - back up buddy

i read your post about logic Ody. i just didnt know what to say lol.

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i did it!!! finally off work!!!! yay!

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It's abstract. 50% of your success revolves round getting a good professor. Once you get logic done it's smooth sailing.

thanks. should i get an easy professor or a hard one?

That's a good question. I would define a good professor that doesn't teach to the very smart students, or teach to the kids that are having too much trouble. A good professor will teach to the middle crowd. The smart will teach themselves, ones that are having a lot of trouble can speak to the professor in person. Teaching to the middle crowd will benefit the most.

I know you're asking ody but my two cents on this are you get an easy proof if you want the grade and a hard prof if you want the knowledge...

thanks ody and sp.

thats good opinions. haha but cant i get knowledge from an easy professor too? anyway i goto ratemyprofessor.com to check out my professors before i get in their class. not alwyas to check if their easy but other factors too like if they email back and stuff

my current professor hasnr emailed me back about my philosophy paper and i asked her for help on it.

the book doesnt say much about the materialist view on the mind/body relation and i can only use this book as reference so? idk what to. im just doing my best.

Ts group starts tomorrow morning. im super nervous

Maybe I should cancel my order, I'm spending way too much money...