Roll call 55

[QUOTE=0dysseus;4461720]Have you tried drinking muscle juice or weight gainer at a GNC or Vitamin Shop from getting worse again?

My brother is the same with genetics well and doing that. I took 18 or so worth they'll opiates.

im glad he called cuz i was gonna throw up.... i havent ate that much protein in a while i guess i was confused and thought it would make me psychotic ...but he said that would only happen if i ate only tyrosine and phenalylanine like in a energy drink.... then he said now he wants barbeque..lol

yes i have! they are good! they work!

im at my moms! last minute decision!

my mom and i are watching some effed up lifetime movie

I'm so confused. That's when OCD starts and I go borderline psychotic even on meds because you have to recheck everything. I'll need something to calm me down like on a crash. I hate this. place I had enough. I'll just sit here and cry in the sun dad cute.

I'm really annoyed with what the staff today on my phone in cow she couldn't just drop there's and you are.. Omg holy **** wtf dad!? Lol

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. My dad came for a visit again and met my psychiatrist. It takes a few years to comprehend the prison. (Like outpatient but I like to cry in the sun.

My cousin stayed in a psych hospital to hear last time and visited me every day with some of my families.

Nope.

I so why I wanted to talk about the it. I forgot I'm about the game

I've been reading about the differences in delusionary states between the manic phase of bipolar and sz. Patients with bp tend to have many delusions that crop up but last for a short time (hours-days) while people with sz have delusions that last for longer.

From what I've learned from this forum over the years (having participated in both the sz and bp forums) bipolar patients tend to experience hallucinations that are brief as well (sometimes fading as soon as they are perceived or a voice that just says a few words) while schizophrenic patients experience more constant hallucinations of voices conversing, commenting on what they are doing, etc.

Taking this all together, I think it is likely that I am purely bipolar, not schizoaffective. I have had delusions that lasted for months, but they are not nearly as common as the more rapid ones. And my hallucinations are more typical of what I've seen in bp patients.

So even though I've experienced psychosis outside of mood episodes, I'm still gonna call myself bipolar because the form of the psychosis is more bipolar.

I think that mental illness is a fascinating subject. I could read about this stuff for the rest of my life. So many questions to be answered, with potential applications of helping so many people.

But I'm still going to post here.

I'm up a few hours early. Yesterday was horrible. I thought I was going to self harm. Anxiety is not too good but I have to hang on. I don't know what else I can do. Drinking tea - I'm dying of thirst too.

im up early too. theres a tornado warning here. im scared. its 2:45 am

Be safe!

Hi newtus! How are you?

thanks door!

im really tired.
my mom made me take my meds early so i fell asleep early and it messed up my whole sleeping schedule and i wok up at 1 am instead of 7 or 8am. i went to bed at 9. when i usually goto bed at 10 or 11.

Yeah, my sleep is all messed up too. Stay safe with the tornado watch!

How's our contingent across the pond(s)? Are you guys OK?

I'm a bit late with this but how and ever. Ireland has become the first Country to legalize same sex marriage by popular vote. Very proud of my little Country for making such a huge step forward, the vote wasn't even close, absolute landslide for the Yes voters! Only one County voted No. They are officially the most backward County in Ireland.

Hey newtus! Sorry to hear you were up late with a Tornado warning. I can't imagine that's something one would ever get used to. Tornado's freak the hell out of me, though it's not something we have to worry about here. Have you ever experienced one?

Hi Angelique, how are you today?

I'm in a weird mood, chickenfoot. Everything is ticking me off and I just feel sad and miserable. Hope it passes soon and I'll be in my normal haze again.

I keep smelling semen in random places today and it's bothering me.
Hope I'm not relapsing but idk anymore.

I had a dream that part of one of my front teeth broke off. Nightmare, haha.

ive had lots of dreams about my teeth breaking off or crumbling into nothing. its super weird

Did you guys hear....John Nash

Yeah... very sad and he had just come home from receiving that prize too. He's the reason I decided to try to learn math.