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Ya I didn't know what benzos were when this middle eastern doctor prescribed a whole 120 benzos on her last day.
My Pdoc was like take these when you need them.

That's not how you take Klonopin asshole. They are more preventative. And then I'm twelling him whats going on in the mornings and he's like benzos vbenzos benzos. **** him. I think its akathesia again. He has no ****ing clue what he's ddoing, besides adding illness after illness to my to my list already. I wouldn't have panic attacks for th rest of my life if he would listen. I wouldn't have bipolar either. ARGHHHHHHHHHH

When I was having suicidal plans due to panic attacks you done say PRN for klonopin. ****ing idiot.
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:13 PM
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yeah, i forgot u did that. im not sure about med free. my guess is that ssdi wouldnt really like that. they want to see that u are very sick and in proper treatment for it. as for me, i would like to be med free one day. but honestly i dont know how feasible that is

same here. exactly. i wouldnt think ssdi would like to see that. and i would like to be med free but idk how that be.
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:14 PM
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My Pdoc was like take these when you need them.


That's not how you take Klonopin asshole. They are more preventative. And then I'm twelling him whats going on in the mornings and he's like benzos vbenzos benzos. **** him. I think its akathesia again. He has no ****ing clue what he's ddoing, besides adding illness after illness to my to my list already. I wouldn't have panic attacks for th rest of my life if he would listen. I wouldn't have bipolar either. ARGHHHHHHHHHH


When I was having suicidal plans due to panic attacks you done say PRN for klonopin. ****ing idiot.

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Splenda, Sucralose ..

I was using like around 30 of those sweeteners per day for my coffee at the hospital.
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NP appt went well but she wants to think about putting me on buspar or effexor or both. idk. im concerned about my weight gain.
OMFG I suggested my PDoc put me on BusPar 3 times. I said I didn't want Klonopin. I need a long term solution, and he just said Nah. **** him!
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:30 PM
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you doing ok?
I cant feel pleasure anymore. I now have bipolar because my PDoc didn't listen to me and thought it would be best to go back on the SSRI. I have no libido for some reason. I have panic attack disorder and anxiety disorder because my pdoc didn't listen to me when I said I didn't think it was a good idea to up the dosage if it isn't making any effect at all. He wants me on Lithium which would mean I couldn't work outside in the sun or do heavy work, so I would have to be jobless and possibly homeless. His only solution for anxiety is Klonopin. I have akathesia right now. I saw him for 2.5 years and this is where I am with him. Not to mention I curl up in the fetal position every night due to suicidal depression on top of what I've already listed. That's as calmly as I can put it. My life is ****ed.
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:33 PM
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Sounds like my old psychiatrist but worse. Way worse.

Do you think he's empathetic towards you or he just doesn't give a *?

My psychiatrist in the mental hospital was paying attention to me and made eye contact which my old psychiatrist did but I didn't want to make eye contact when he's ********ting me.

It's important to have a basic relationship because if you don't like the psychiatrist for some reason, you're not really going to listen to what he/she has to say..

That's what my psychologist said so..
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:36 PM
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Sounds like my old psychiatrist but worse. Way worse.

Do you think he's empathetic towards you or he just doesn't give a *?

My psychiatrist in the mental hospital was paying attention to me and made eye contact which my old psychiatrist did but I didn't want to make eye contact when he's ********ting me.

It's important to have a basic relationship because if you don't like the psychiatrist for some reason, you're not really going to listen to what he/she has to say..
Do I think he is empathetic? I politely asked him if there was anything we can do with my anhedonia. I can't feel any pleasure its frustrating me. I want to feel something besides agitation, frustration, depression, confusion and hopelessness. He then asked, "Well how many times do you want to feel pleasure a day?"

--I don't know, twice a day?

--he sits back in his chair with eyes wide open and says, WELL THAT's A LOT!

**** him.
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:44 PM
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OMFG I suggested my PDoc put me on BusPar 3 times. I said I didn't want Klonopin. I need a long term solution, and he just said Nah. **** him!

omggggg
**** him.
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Old May 20, 2015, 05:46 PM
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Finished reading the History Guide. Finally, it was hard to get through but I did it. I guess I understand some of it.

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Old May 20, 2015, 05:55 PM
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so much cussing going on today
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Old May 20, 2015, 06:08 PM
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It's because I'm at my wits end and should probably go into the inpatient.
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Old May 20, 2015, 06:10 PM
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Has anyone else read Elyn saks's book The Centre Cannot Hold? It's very good. I've read it before but I'm guna try and read it again.
This is my favourite MH book that I've read and I really related to it.

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My favorite book about this subject though is The Quiet Room by Lori Schiller % Amanda Bennet. Lori actually has schizoaffective disorder bipolar type instead of "just" schizophrenia but this book blows all the misconceptions about schizoaffective disorder being more "mild" than straight up schizophrenia out of the water. I don't want to spoil anything for people who haven't read it but it is a very intense book and it's... so much like me and what I've gone through that it's downright eerie.

I related a lot to Elyn Saks also, her thought disorganization is much like mine is when I'm not stable.

Welcome Silence by Carol North is another excellent book about schizophrenia, she had a lot of catatonic symptoms so I related to that quite a lot.
I read The Quiet Room several years ago, before I read Saks' book. I remember thinking it was good, but I don't remember relating to it as strongly as The Centre Cannot Hold, but it was YEARS ago now so I can't really remember a lot of it. I remember she got restrained a lot, but that's about it.

I will have a look for Welcome Silence; not heard of that one. I read Dark Threads by Jean Davison, which is the horrendous story of an 18yo British woman in the 1960s or 70s who was having an existential crisis and got misdiagnosed with sz (she had no hallucinations or delusions or anything - I have no idea wtf those pdocs were thinking?!) and lost 5 years of her life to psychiatry before she could escape. It is a truly awful story, but well written if anyone fancies reading it.

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Now I'm having to accept that I have fibromyalgia... not fun, but it is what it is.
My Mum has had fibromyalgia for 15 years. Have you heard of the Spoon Theory? My mum found it helpful to think about pacing and to explain to others. It's a controversial diagnosis here - and is the diagnosis that the pdocs wrote in my notes is 'made up' without even meeting my mum.

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im not sure about med free. my guess is that ssdi wouldnt really like that. they want to see that u are very sick and in proper treatment for it. as for me, i would like to be med free one day. but honestly i dont know how feasible that is
The Govt here want to make it mandatory to be in treatment to get disability, which I think is wrong. The med debate is simple in principle, but hard in reality: which is worse? Personally I don't think we only get 'one shot' to be med-free, regardless of diagnosis: it's our body and we can do what we want with it!

I think meds get pushed so much because they are easier to dish out and cheaper than therapy/learning coping skills, but they're not the only solution. Sometimes I think pdocs deliberately taper too fast so people can't cope, think they're relapsing and go back on meds; continuing the stranglehold psychiatry and the medical model have on mental health care. Either that, or a shocking number are completely incompetent!

*Willow*
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It's because I'm at my wits end and should probably go into the inpatient.
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Old May 20, 2015, 07:09 PM
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i think the fbi is watching me.
not kidding.
i got it now.
they are prob keeping tabs on me.
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^ I used to think that


It got so bad I became suicidal because I was convinced they were watching me and were going to accuse me of doing something, idk what just some kinda thing I didn't do and lock me up for the rest of my life or something.

I doubt it now, and even if they were watching me for some reason, I honestly don't care, go ahead watch me
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Old May 20, 2015, 07:41 PM
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i really think they are watching me now more than ever and im turning a bline eye to it and they know it and they are taking advantage of that AND me.
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im trying to go to sleep but its harddddddddddddddddddd
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Do I think he is empathetic? I politely asked him if there was anything we can do with my anhedonia. I can't feel any pleasure its frustrating me. I want to feel something besides agitation, frustration, depression, confusion and hopelessness. He then asked, "Well how many times do you want to feel pleasure a day?"

--I don't know, twice a day?

--he sits back in his chair with eyes wide open and says, WELL THAT's A LOT!

**** him.
He's an ignorant butthole.
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Old May 20, 2015, 08:59 PM
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weird things happen at night. im at half price books. its 9pm and the cashier talked me up way more than when i come in the daytime. hes transexual. than i saw someone looking like they were getting head in their drivers seat.
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My thoughts are so unorganized. I hope it doesn't get worse like word salad. Right now the high dose Vyvanse helps a lot and the abilify helps it from progressing long term I guess. A woman with word salad talked to me and I didn't have a clue as to what she said. I waited for her to finish talking and then left because she never stops. She would randomly cry or laugh in the hallways. I asked her if she was ok and she stopped crying and laughed which made me paranoid. I hope that the Abilify will prevent it from happening long term.

So many people there made like relationships. I did too made a few friends but people keep crossing the line saying I'm amazing or something to get me to talk.

They get stuck in lust and all I wanted was for the relationship feeling to go away for them but It's a drug being released Oxytocin love chemical or something but I don't like the feeling. On an SSRI, you can hate sex while for others, it makes them sex addicts or what ever.

One woman said that she loves me and will be back for me and we never talked before after she made out with my roommate in front of me just before that lol. Kept staring at me while waiting for my psychiatrist. I asked if she was ok and then I left because I can't handle that weirdness. If I stare at a girl that I like, they always catch me.

That girl that told the other girl that she's a ***** for always talking to young guys. I knew it was obvious before she even said hi but I was bored. She said I was good looking which creeped me out because usually I only get compliments when I'm with friends just cam chatting.
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Old May 20, 2015, 09:24 PM
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i need my ambien now along with my other meds
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i need my ambien now along with my other meds
Have the not given it back to you yet?
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Have the not given it back to you yet?

no they have. i have a few extra pills left in fact.

i wanna go wild but i shouldnt
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