Roll Call 59

I'm happy to see my brother again. He has been coming over lately, but I'm scared something will happen where my family starts hating me again. Maybe he is coming over to be an informant for the rest of my family.

how to day hospitals work?

I was in one when I left hospital the first time but I just went to meet the doctors twice a week and went home. There where others there though that were doing groups and OT stuff. I'd really like to do something like that. I'm going to ask my pdoc about it.

I live in the humid part of Texas. I go outside and I feel like I'm in hell. Sweat just starts pouring when I step outside. I gave up wearing makeup and straightening my hair.

Omg. Really? I'm going to google that right now.

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My phone is saying its 102 in my part.

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I hurt my shoulder. My orthopedic thinks it's a chipped cartlidge in my shoulder. I got a really strong pain patch from someone so I hope this excruciating pain will go away soon. I can't put my arm down or relax it hurts so much.

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I live in the midwest, and it was only 91 here. I was able to sit outside during my lunch break for maybe 10 minutes, then I had to go in. That wasn't necessarily because I couldn't take it, but because I was starting to sweat buckets and I didn't want to smell.

I feel a little better after talking to T. She thinks that it is all situational and stress-related with finding a new job, etc. Maybe. It just feels like more than that...it feels really physical and biological. I've been having a lot of symptoms like fatigue, increased appetite and weight gain, (increased) concentration and memory problems; sounds more like a chemical problem than a psychological reaction to events, no?

My orthopedic just called me back. Well the nurse. She said she will refill my pain meds one more time but I have to go to a pain specialist instead because my orthopedic is a surgeon, not a pain management doctor.

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I'm glad you were able to get a refill. Hope you feel better soon

What's everyone taking for PRNs?
I take Ativan and Trilafon

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seroquel or invega

so... i got an A in my writing class. im happy about that.

when i saw T he really seemed to act like i wasnt well. like he encouraged me to take a prn in front of him. a lot of it is because i told him i just want to be alone plus the voices/thoughts in my head. i thought that was just because my grandma ... i dunno. anyway i took a prn and i felt better.

I posted to the wrong place. Got all nerves up and took 4 Ativan. Can't feelu legs. Awesome

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i replied to the other post but can u make an earlier appt with ur pnp

when T first saw me he said i looked scared but i think that was because i was trying too hard to look normal if that makes sense

i think summer is my worst season. does anyone else think seasons affect their psychosis

I go to see my PDoc today. She will up the Effoxer and get me off lithium for good. I'll probably stay on Lamictal though. I hope the increase in Effexor will relieve me of panic attacks. I will be on 75mg about. She wants to do things very slow to find the sweet spot for me, so I don't take more than I need. It's an SNRI. I wonder my my previous PDoc didn't think of all these extra things, like upping my Geodon for bipolar, or trying an SNRI. Instead, it was SSRI or nothing.

I hope getting off my Lithium will give me back my full range of normal emotions. sigh.

My ex who I am living with until I get my own place was really mean to me yesterday. I think I've figured it out though. He would never treat his brother like this and his brother also has sz, so I'm sure now that he thinks I'm just lazy and that's why he's always angry at me and trying to piss me off by purposely doing things he knows will get on my nerves. I really want to get out of this place, I can't deal with his anger and douchebag behavior anymore. I get angry too but when I calm down I stop being mean and say I'm sorry - he didn't stop until he went to bed. I hope the social services can give me that apartment soon so I can move and recover from this stupid predicament... also hope he has to work overtime today so I can be alone. I don't even have my own room so it's not easy to avoid him.

Yes, I would guess that it's biological and not psychological.

I want some zucchini bread, haven't had any in a long time.


Anyway, my moms birthday is next week so I will probably start wrapping the presents today, I'm excited to give her the gifts I picked out!

Good morning everyone.

Ody, I hope your appointment goes well. I look forward to hearing about it. How is your writing going?

Axiom, you don't deserve that treatment. Is it possible to go somewhere when he's home, so you don't have to interact as much? Maybe a library or a movie perhaps? It will be much better for you, not being subjected to that constant negativity.

Today, I get to hang out with my family. Getting ready to make a big breakfast. I definitely need coffee. I haven't been posting as often because I have to watch my daughter when I'm not a work, but I miss you all.

That's a good idea. I rarely want to leave the apartment so I hadn't thought of that. I'm going to text my friend and ask if she's home. Thanks!

coffeeeeeee

cant believe i got an A in the writing class. i was shooting for a C, lol.

I'm proud of myself... I just got up off my *** and cleaned my bathroom. I've not cleaned anywhere in this flat since I moved in a couple of months ago so it was badly needed.

There was once upon a time when I used to be **** about cleaning. I'd always have the flat spotless but those days are gone. I have wondered if that was an OCD trait because I also used to double and triple check things all the time as well as liking to have things in a specific order. Who knows... if they were symptoms it's been in remission for years now as I rarely do any of that now. Just a shame I don't keep up with cleaning anymore!

[QUOTE=Door2015;4585212]Good morning everyone.

Ody, I hope your appointment goes well. I look forward to hearing about it. How is your writing going?
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I've been focusing on Aristotle's ethics. Aristotle is always a tough read. He leaves nothing to the imagination, and its very dry and arid. However, he is the last genius who know everything at his time. He was a pupil of Plato for 20 years at the academy. I wish we had dialogues of him. It would be so much easier to read and analyze. I've never had to read so slow in my life. I've read about a thousand books and this is like a Rorschach card where anything can be made into anything. Still, I've read intros, secondary sources and I am prepared to read the primary text now. I just need to find crucial thoughts of his and copy, paste, analyze and see where it takes me, integrating it into my book. I've got plenty of time for Aristotle. To get him right proves my worth as a philosopher. He is so crucial to the story that there's no way around him either.
I'm very proud about how things are coming along.

Thanks for asking, Door.

Thanks, door. I appreciate that. I'm feeling better today. Brought the kids to the beach. Always a good time

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good job for the A in writing junk! i hope i get an A in english class in fall! i take it in fall.