Roll Call 63...

what are you doing to lose weight?

Exercising and eating healthier

I have decided I collect shot glasses now!

All I'm going to say is I'm not doing well because the typing and erasing thing is happening again.

Edit: Prozac mania although my mood is frustration. I'm just jumping around the place.

Now I am 100% positive that I have bad OCD.

I drink way too much soda. I have to try to stop. But I'm so bored and lonely being on my bed all day that eating and drinking are my only comforts, although most of the time I don't eat much at all. It's just all the soda, and the occasional weeks of binging. And doing nothing but leaning on my bed.

My ideal situation is to work 3 days a week in construction and then 4 days a week on my book. I already have half days on Tuesday and no work on sat/sunday. Plus, days off because winter is coming.

Seriously, work helps me ignore the committee in my head. Sometimes I can be very hard on myself, so it's nice to snap out of that mood and live in the present.

Getting out today in this weather made me nostalgic and sad for who I used to be and what I am now. I'm so old and broken down. If only my back weren't injured and my weight weren't such an issue. If only I hadn't damaged my lungs so badly. I'd still be able to go out for walks, I wouldn't have gotten in this situation. I'm so alone and sad.

i know where youre coming from. i lay in bed all day most of the week. even when my dads home. im laying in bed right now.

Playing Animal Crossing

I dunno, I think you can only blame mental illness so much. Laziness is a big part of it.

Me too. .......

i bought this wax warmer a week ago. ive got cinnamon sticks scent in it now! ive also got birch bark scent and pumpkin spice scent for it too.

i wonder if im lazy but then i get motivated by everything. ive rarely been feeling sad. just unmotivated for the most part. but the past week ive been kinda sad...

i push myself so hard to not be depressed that idk if im depressed or not right now.

A former friend once called me lazy. But that was before I was diagnosed.

who uses tapatalk here and who uses the internet to access PC?

my mom has called me lazy

Internet - computer and phone

had one of those games on the wii years ago. it was sooo fun

internet. i just have a laptop

I use to play that game with the sweetest woman.

work was ok. nothing bad happened and i got to leave early. they wanted me to train this bagger that they want cross-trained as a cashier. i told the bookkeeper i didnt like training people. the last cashier i trained did not turn out well, lol. she like sits on her register, texts all the time, did some dumb things with the rainchecks. i dont know if they see that as a reflection of me, but it was hella busy when i trained her so i didnt get to show her much and then i had to go. i also explain things in long drawn out way which sounds more complex than it really is. so i just dont think i should train ppl.

Glad it wasn't as bad as you feared.

sorry i shouldve clarified the phone vs pc to use PC.

if someone has 800+ friends on fb youve gotta have SOMEBODY in real life on there thats your friend right? im just confused. this one girl i know says she has no friends but she has 800+ fb friends. i have like 60. and i can count on 1 hand that a few are not family. but this girl complains all the time that she has no friends...

i'm up 20 since starting zyprexa in feb 2014.