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ofthevalley · Mar 06, 2016, 12:33 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

thank you. ill try not to do anything. i just want the demons out. its really bothering me but im afraid to tell anybody like my parents. i think they will tell me to just pray. i told them already about my rapture nightmare and they said pray. so they will only say pray again. my family is very religious based. before i got diagnosed with schizoaffective and schizophrenia they thought it was because i didnt pray enough. and demons and ghosts.

i think it is too but i still believe i have schiz.

i just want the demons out

thank you

Have you spoken to your t about the demons? She could reality check with you without telling you to pray to get rid of them. It sounds like a delusion to me.

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newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 12:33 PM

i cant keep quiet on here about what i go through but i do in real life. no one in real life knows what i deal with because no one inderstands.

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 12:35 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Have you spoken to your t about the demons? She could reality check with you without telling you to pray to get rid of them. It sounds like a delusion to me.

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no i havent. but last time i saw her i told her i thought i might be possibly going into a psychosis of some sort. i wanted to tell her i had

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homi

thoughts but i didnt. i kept quiet because i knew id be sent to the hospital. i nevef havd those thoughts.

i wont see her til next week either

12AM · Mar 06, 2016, 12:40 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i cant keep quiet on here about what i go through but i do in real life. no one in real life knows what i deal with because no one inderstands.

Speaking about posting here, I really want to post in the survival of abuse sub-forum ever since I first joined PC. But I can't do that, I feel like my story is a shame since what happened to me took away my dignity as a human being. I know some people might went through a worse past, but I just can't do that, even in a support forum.

ofthevalley · Mar 06, 2016, 12:40 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i cant keep quiet on here about what i go through but i do in real life. no one in real life knows what i deal with because no one inderstands.

I hear that. I'll mention things to my husband and he just gets a blank state. I'm sure he's thinking about how crazy I am

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12AM · Mar 06, 2016, 12:41 PM

Why do I keep bringing negative vibes today?! Sorry everyone, was just about to lurk on Roll Call today

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 12:45 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Why do I keep bringing negative vibes today?! Sorry everyone, was just about to lurk on Roll Call today

youre not bringing negative vibes. as for me, im just going through a rough patch. i think.
im hoping to walk out of this.
right now im having to run. its like a fire spreading quickly.

ofthevalley · Mar 06, 2016, 12:46 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

no i havent. but last time i saw her i told her i thought i might be possibly going into a psychosis of some sort. i wanted to tell her i had

Possible trigger:

homi

thoughts but i didnt. i kept quiet because i knew id be sent to the hospital. i nevef havd those thoughts.

i wont see her til next week either

Are you feeling a little better or are you still having those thoughts? That must be scary

I hope you aren't beginning psychosis.

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ofthevalley · Mar 06, 2016, 12:47 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Speaking about posting here, I really want to post in the survival of abuse sub-forum ever since I first joined PC. But I can't do that, I feel like my story is a shame since what happened to me took away my dignity as a human being. I know some people might went through a worse past, but I just can't do that, even in a support forum.

I'm sorry.

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ofthevalley · Mar 06, 2016, 01:03 PM

Getting ready to go grocery shopping. Took a prn

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12AM · Mar 06, 2016, 01:04 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

youre not bringing negative vibes. as for me, im just going through a rough patch. i think.
im hoping to walk out of this.
right now im having to run. its like a fire spreading quickly.

Thanks newtus, I feel the same with you today, more or less. I am sending prayers and good thoughts your way

ofthevalley · Mar 06, 2016, 01:11 PM

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Originally Posted by 12PM

Why do I keep bringing negative vibes today?! Sorry everyone, was just about to lurk on Roll Call today

no negative vibes here

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newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 01:24 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Are you feeling a little better or are you still having those thoughts? That must be scary

I hope you aren't beginning psychosis.

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im scared to say on here. out of fear.

i feel like ive talked too much.

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 01:54 PM

whats everyone doing today?

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 01:58 PM

i see a peer support specialist on wed. valley. maybe i can tell her? of course im not trying to be in the hospital but i feel like i gotta tell someone other than my parents. maybe ill just say something about my nightmares and what i think im going into.

because im starting to get really paranoid.

falcon09 · Mar 06, 2016, 02:31 PM

Anxiety has been so bad today, took my PRN and slept until now.

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 02:40 PM

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Anxiety has been so bad today, took my PRN and slept until now.

im sorry falcon

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 03:05 PM

i may not can see an end right now at this moment to what im going through but i have hope things will get better. thats what keeps me going right now. im looking forward to these classes ending and spring break where ill get a break from the school stress because i think thats what is making me stressed out the most. is school. IMO.

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 03:06 PM

biology is over with btw.
im just awaiting the grade.

the rest of english should be a breeze.

05:34 PM

Me after waking up a few hours ago.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 06, 2016, 03:13 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

biology is over with btw.
im just awaiting the grade.

the rest of english should be a breeze.

Did you finish the bio assignments?

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 03:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Did you finish the bio assignments?

yes i did.

thats why i was over at my moms house yesterday/this morning. i didnt exactly want to be there but she said she was good at biology and could help. my stepdad helped too. they studied with me and watched something about human reproduction with me and then i took the test.

i didnt get a good grade but wouldnt it be wonderful if i was passed with a C for just completing my assignments?

:/ prob not going to happen.

Sometimes psychotic · Mar 06, 2016, 03:24 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

yes i did.

thats why i was over at my moms house yesterday/this morning. i didnt exactly want to be there but she said she was good at biology and could help. my stepdad helped too. they studied with me and watched something about human reproduction with me and then i took the test.

i didnt get a good grade but wouldnt it be wonderful if i was passed with a C for just completing my assignments?

:/ prob not going to happen.

It might turn out ok.....

newtus · Mar 06, 2016, 03:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

It might turn out ok.....

i have my fingers crossed

Blue_Bird · Mar 06, 2016, 03:34 PM

Had a nice day. Went out for breakfast with my brother and his girlfriend and I met my 1 year old niece omg she is so adorable. Played my violin some.

Ready for it to be Tuesday (psych appointment) hopefully will get my meds adjusted

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