Safe Place 2

So you mentioned they took you off your meds cold turkey----that's number one, odds are what you are feeling is at least in part chemically induced because of withdrawal so I wouldn't do anything drastic until you're sure your meds are back in order---this could take a month or two. Ask your pdoc about a good inpatient facility if you need a place to keep yourself safe, some hospitals have good inpatient psych wards. Alternately if you don't want to go inpatient then do anything else you want to do---does anything drive you right now? For me learning new things helps keep my mind off other stuff, it can be anything from school type topics to new characters in a series on netflix. Expose yourself to a lot of different things and see if anything at all appeals or grabs your attention---it might not be something you normally like at all.

Have you tried deep breathing for stopping your panic? It never works for me, but everyone swears by it.

Are you having other panic & anxiety?

You can always go to a local hospital ER. The sad thing is that many states budgets are getting hit hard, and disabled people services are low hanging fruit for trying to balance a budget. All programs for disabled people may be getting cut now. From the top of the line places to less good. So, that's why we are not getting the time and personalized care anymore that they're supposed to be giving us. You have to convince them that you are homicidal or suicidal. They won't accept other people who "just" have hallucination and other psychotic experiences.

I agree with Valley, ER. You should go back on meds and if you want to get off taper slowly under doctor supervision.

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I understand depression all too well. It literally has ruined my life.

I don't know how to put this but I know I am being watched and someone is out there looking for me
I don't really care because I know what they want and I'm not afraid of them
But I still dont have to like it

My voices have been bugging me the past few days. They are telling my things other people think about me (negative of course)... so it's put my self-esteem down a bit. Most the time I brush these things off but lately I find myself listening to them.

I guess my anxiety over starting college just makes it harder to ignore these things.

I was excited at getting my 2 year badge, but that also means I've heard voices everyday for over 2 years now. I mean, it's good they are sporadic, that I am fairly resilient to them & have good insight... but they still wear me down sometimes.

I really hope they go away soon. Last time they cleared up at the 2 year mark... but no signs of any real change this time.

that's a terrible feeling.

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I'm sorry they are getting you down. How frustrating to have them everyday. I know the feeling and I hope you get a break.

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Early Tuesday morning I was playing on my phone like I am now and all of a sudden some entity entered my room and stuck a needle.in my and took my blood, idk why they did that but they did, I know it was before I tookmy morning meds, and when I took them the wooziness and weakness in my legs went away, and I recognize that this was a hallucination, but Im still convinced that something stuck a needle in me and took blood, it was just too real. I also on the same day had two dreams where I stole.something and went to jail, and when I woke up, I became convinced that the police were after me (still kind of think they are) and everytime I heard a siren I would make sure my curtains were closed and hide under my blankets to make sure that they couldn't find me. I'm also still convinced that we live in a computer simulation like the SIMs or the Matrix, have even seen computers behind the sky. No I don not think this is a med issues as I recently changed meds and that the computer simulation theory I've believe in for the past year or.so...

In two weeks I am starting college.
I am worried about not being able to do it.

Wet
lab
practices.

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Really upset abt my sister. I started a thread on another subforum... other mental health discussions

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"trying not to cry all the time" the junkdna story

preorder now

Not strictly psychosis-related, but just thought I'd post here anyway...

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Thanks...

All very strange to me right now. Not sure how to feel really.

had a mental break down and ended up SH which i practically havent done in umm 4 years, so. well i did it a month or so ago. but before that it was 4 years. omg, i am feeling so let down and upset.

my T text me and said i can come play a game, so im going there in an hour

How are you now? Your T sounds nice.

I am having some kind of break down too because I can't sleep and it's more difficult to think

hey, i went and played the game with my T and my roommate and thsi other dude. it was fun and i liked the game. it helped me feel better. my t got a haircut and trimmed his beard so he looked different. my T is nice.

im sorry youre not sleeping. that really doesnt help things

I'm sorry you are having a tough time. I hope the game helped.

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I feel scared
Oh god it's them the people they are here they are talking they are here
They were people when I hugged them I didn't mean for this to happen you can't control me anymore I won't let you i just want it to stop I never hurt you why are you doing this to me

Gentlest hugs, ((((( Kori )))))