Safe Place 2

I really want to move away. There's nothing left for me here.

I have to go to lessons but I feel too sdfikjdsfoksdfksd to do it.

Entities are mad because I went to the day hospital and talked with the pschiatrist and was doing the activities.

Now they are telling me to killn everyone. I don't know if I should take 2mg of clonazepam or go to a pet store. Entities like rodentia.

I ate a lot of chocolate and took 2mgg of clonazepam and now I am taking a nap an later I am going to the pet store.

I can't sleep so I took 4 more mg entities are killing me because I went against their whishes going there.

I'm getting pretty depressed. I don't really want to go to IOP today. Yesterday I went and hid during the whole thing. I'm really tempted to call and say I'm not going, but at the same time they might be able to help me from getting worse and help me from getting to the point I need IP.

I am on a IOP too, normally I hate going, I think I should be on a residential treatment. They don't understand I can't do what they do on IOP activities because of entities don't allow me.

In the end did you go'

I can't take much more of this depression and anxiety. I feel like I'm on the verge of another hospital trip. I don't know what to do. I'm already on a horse dose of Effexor and it's not helping enough. I can't imagine how bad off I'd be without it. I feel so bad. I've already doubled my dose of Ativan but the anxiety remains. Maybe I need something different. As bad as the anxiety is it's the depression that's killing me. I am constantly on the verge of tears which is interesting because I can't cry. I can't sit still but I can't do anything either. I'm a ****ing mess and I don't know how my pnp is going to help. I'm petrified to come off of Effexor.

Maybe can they give you a different antidepressant, do you feel you need to go ER?

I was on paxil and prozac and still



They just didn't work.

I don't think I need the er at the moment. I'm not feeling suicidal or homicidal. Just feeling really depressed. Like nothing will ever be okay again and I'm destined to be depressed forever because I'm a bad person.

Can you call your PNP tomorrow morning and let them know you need an urgent care visit? They will probably let you come for a short visit, and then they can give you updated Rx for the depression and anxiety.

This is a good idea if you are not hurting yourself right now or about to, but you are suffering too much.

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I am nervous about college tomorrow. Lessons from 9 to 14 and practices from 15 to 19.

I hope it will go well at college tomorrow.

I hope school goes well for you.

Thank you, but ....I peed on myself second since college started while sleeping.

lol

I am like a kid....

that doesn't make you a kid.

if I really had sz, wouldn't the voices be gone with meds????

Why are they still here?!?!?

I'm finding out that the meds don't always get rid of the symptoms. They just make them quieter. (For me.)

My pnp said it's common to still have symptoms. They should be easier to deal with.

I take an anti-psychotic and some other psych meds but I still get paranoia. I'm not SZ though, possibly psychosis, t and pdoc don't agree on diagnosis.

I am having such a hard time keeping up with my meds and making sure everything is under wraps. And having conversations about my future like I tried to this morning are huge triggers apparently

Thinking or either trying meds -typicals- for axiety caused by entiies because clonazepam is causing me amnesia.

Not schizotypal personality anymore. Doc said what happened between February and June was delusional ideation -delusions-. 5 months being delusional about a second civil war, making venoms and bombs, but without telling anyone. They just saw me acting weird but thought it was my personality. I don't have a family to notice it at home.

I think this mean I can't post in this forum without being invalidate because I am not 'schizophrenic enough'.

I am feeling weird about those delusional months, like I have lost life time.

You can post in this forum for any psychosis----delusions included.

hi

thought id say hi