How do I tell him?

I have decided not to bother trying to explain things to my psychiatrist anymore as there is no point I do not believe my problem is medical and though he does he is just going to have to deal because it isn't. He is not able to understand no one really is other than the others and the ones on that side because "He" won't let anyone understand and I have too much to do I have a lot of the magic stuff to do and they have given me a timeline where certain things have to be done by and I can't fail with this stuff but I don't know how to tell him I will not be going much longer without him doing something how should I word it so that he knows what I am trying to say?

It's hard to say how you should word it because I'm having trouble understanding what exactly you want to say to him. Do you want to tell him about the timeline? What certain things do you have to do?

Why not tell him you have magical things to do.

I want to tell him that i am not sick and to not call the crisis team on me for what i plan to do (he knows the plan but i will not share it here) i have to summon some demons good demons and i have to learn how to do some other things with magic and then i have actually never mind that anyway i just dont want him to call the crisis team on me for what i plan to do.

I have told him that already

I think you will just have to say it as you've worded it here. My hunch is that you won't be able to tell him not to contact the crisis team, but you can certainly tell him you don't want him to.
I wish you good luck and peace.

but i need him not to call them because if they interfere this time there is going to be an apocalypse type thing and everything is going to be ruined.

How has he responded when you told him that before?

he said i needed medication. i do not need medication i was/am seeing him mostly to placate someone well someone/something quite powerful. anyway h just keeps saying i need medication which is not true.

If your plan includes hurting yourself or anyone else, he will have no choice but to call the crisis team. If it does not, then I guess you have to gamble with telling him you don't want it. I have a feeling that if you stop going, he probably will still call.

but even if it does include hurting myself (which i am not saying it does or doesnt) he knows why and there is a very good reason for doing what i plan to do. just because he doesnt agree but i know why he doesnt agree it is just difficult because he seems to have the most say when it comes to what other people believe and if enough people believe the wrong thing then that is going to cause serious problems.

Can you just keep moving your appointment back? Until it is safe to go. That way he wont call the crisis team.

That is not possible unfortunately thank you for at least replying though.

How are you doing now, Eden? I'm a little worried about this dark magic you have to do. I hope you'll think about the consequences. Wiccans all say one should never do dark magic because the karma backlash is severe.

I think you're probably right that he has more say about what other people believe than you do. But. . .reality is what it is.

I can not think of any way that you can word things to convince him to accept your view of things.

I'm a bit bummed with your "others". Seems like they have set you a near impossible task. Why don't they tell you how to word things so that your psychiatrist will agree with you and them?

Where is Eden, the human being, in all of this? What do you want, for yourself, for this world, for any or all worlds?

I know it is not easy but i dont have a choice i am not doing great i feel horrible and i keep getting scared of the demons not the one helping me ugh it is all so complicated i just everything is so hard.

It is not the others failt things were hidden and stolen from them too i dont matter really in all of this but i just want to fix what i have ruined.

I feel awful i am so scared and agitated and everything is so hard i cant explain things to people and i just i dont know it is like i cant get things out right i and everything is going to be ruined and i am trying so hard and there is so much noise and i cant make my head stop and i dont knkw what to do i need i cant everything is going to fast i want i cant want they wont let me i cant ignore them there are too many of them i it wont stop and i keep getting scared and i know ugh they wont let me i cant i am sorry.

Yes you do matter, too. You matter, the others matter and those of us out here matter, too. Maybe we don't have the same goals or points of view but we matter. You matter to the others, too, even if they don't or can't acknowledge it. If you didn't, how could they expect you to accomplish anything?

it is not like that i mean in relation to the whole like i cant explain it i am so worried about tomorrow i dont even know what to do anymore.

Try to eat something, and then go try to sleep. I'm not sure why you're worried about tomorrow, is it because of a crisis team?

I don't think you should worry about that. Just focus on eating a high protein meal, for the strength of doing what you have to do, and then let yourself float off to sleep.

ETA: put off doing the magic, please, Eden. Only bad things can come of that.

Its because he knows about my plans for the day after i am not doing magic as dark anymore i dont have time.

I think I'm scared of your plans for the day, but I'm so relieved you won't do dark magic. : heart:

I do not have time for dark magic and i am not skilled enough yet i really dont know what to do. The demons on both sides are asking things of me different things but anyway ugh i cant explain it.