Roll Call #79

Afternoon etc.

I've done an ungodly amount of cleaning/tidying today. No-one should have to do the amount of cleaning I have done today without being paid.

Still got a little more to do, but will leave that until the end of the week...

Phew. Time to relax now.

Good morning in Texas. Got a lot to do today. Gotta record a song. Mix down a video, and do schoolwork for my forensics class. 5 will help.

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Took some forms to social security this morning. Discovered I made over the limit this past may. Not sure what they'll do as I'm in ticket to work program, but I think they'll take my disability check in an upcoming month which will blow. Disability is such a trap guys...if ur goal is to get off it some day. It's like they want to keep u stuck in poverty. But I am not surprised. MURICA

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I agree. That's why I'm waiting until I graduate college and get a good job to get off it. Obama didn't even do a cost of living increase this year.

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I've always heard voices but it didn't disrupt my life until I was 18-19 years old when it was my senior year of high school.

I've been hearing voices since I was 8. I haven't found a med that will make them go away yet.

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9 is talking to me now. She is not nice. She is telling me to slice my legs up. I gave my dad my knife. 5 can't help because he's fighting 9s Devils. I'm not having a very good day. I was earlier, but I haven't heard from 9 in weeks. She's back. I hate that b itch.

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Be strong Will talking with your dad helps? Maybe a lite chit chat about movies, etc?

Thank you. Yeah that will help. I was on the phone with my wife. She told me to wake him up. We are going to watch celebrity name game. She texted him to make sure I really woke him up, and just wasn't imagining he was there. He's there. I'll be ok. I stopped self harming months ago. I don't know how to explain the scars to my son, who is 8, so I cover them with tattoos.

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Glad then Just my opinion, 8 is too soon even though you know how to explain it. When he's older, I believe he will understand

Yeah I agree. 8 is too small. So I keep a shirt on in the pool. He hasn't seen them because of my tattoos. But I have a big one on my stomach I have to keep covered. I wear a medical id around my neck but I tuck it in around him. I just tell him it's a dog tag that is very personal and I will explain it to him when he's older. I don't let him read it. It says paranoid schizophrenia on it and has my wife and dad's cell phone numbers on it.

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hey Sometimes! Things are alright here, got a new job so starting that soon. Really nervous, lots of anxiety but I'll be fine. College is going well too, did well in my exams. How are things with you? You were doing well the last time I was talking to you, hope that's continuing onwards and upwards!

I'm worried about this too. I'm starting a new job and it's supposed to be a 10 hour contract but they have me in for 20 this week! Worried I'll get cut off disability. Some way to encourage people to get back to work ey?

I've yet to find a medication that gets rid of them completely. Calm them down maybe but never get rid of them completely. Then there's where therapy comes into play. Finding ways to cope with it.

Hiya

Congrats on the new job and glad you did well on exams.

For me I went through a little bit of an emotional dip but I'm pulling out of it now. Someone I talked to a lot during the day has other things to do now so I have too much free time to kill.

My boyfriend just switched jobs and he's adjusting to that but I think he's doing OK---he's nervous too, his new job is as a business analyst for a local college. I'm pretty proud of him We are going out of town to wisconsin for fourth of july weekend, should be really fun

In Canada I can still work as much as I want on disability for 2700 (Added with work) until it gets to 0 but meds and such are paid for still. America sucks.

AHHH My hommie Sometimes P!

I believe this is pure world inequality and violation of human rights for people to suffer just because they're in a different country.

Why does America get it so bad anyways considering it's one of the most prosperous? Like do people just not care for the mentally ill as much as Canadians (In Alberta) for a majority idk fak

Maybe it's cuz we have lots of oil idk

Btw paranoia went down drastically. I wont be drinking alcohol anymore i guess.

Hi Erti---sorry things are going rough for you right now.....

Thanks. How have you been? I hope all is well.

Thanks hun! Physically I feel better off the meds and I'm doing more, but mentally it's quite tough so going back on clopixol tomorrow. Hoping the new job will help with motivation and everything in between. I was just in hospital a week ago so can't afford that again or I'll lose my job. Ah to have real responsibilities again!

Glad you're coming out of a slump and it didn't last too long. Anything trigger it or was it just a bit of a low point with no explanation? I know what you mean about having too much free time, that's my problem all over. I'll be on the go 7 days a week now so hoping that'll help keep me from inward thinking and the likes.

Starting a new job, integrating to a new team and learning new skills it tough for anyone, glad your boyfriend is adjusting well. Bit of a trip sounds good, any nice sites, museums or events on in wisconsin? The minute I read Wisconsin I just thought of That 70's Show!

Things are OK psychosis wise---got dxed as either bipolar 1 with psychotic features or sza bipolar type they don't know for sure.I'm going with bipolar. Found out I'm losing my job in a year due to lack of money but that gives me time to plan. I'll figure something out----broke up a six month relationship but in my current better one for 2 months now. Generally all is well, but some of the specifics got a little bit rough like 2 months ago. Also my therapist is on maternity leave so I've been handling it all myself---trying to decide whether I'll go back to therapy after the break or not.

I'm hoping everyone is doing okay

I building a condo for my bunny soon

yeah I could never stay off the meds either---it's just easier for me to take one little pill that fixes everything than try to fight my emotions and the voices.

Yeah I hope the new job helps pick you up motivation wise.

Not sure what caused the slump exactly sometimes it just happens....I guess it's part of being bipolar.

In Wisconsin we'll be visiting some gardens and a nice hiking place--kind of rocky and by a lake and a small historic town with good shopping