Roll Call #79

It's called the rose that grew from concrete.

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No I have not.

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I think you'll really like it.

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The Rose That Grew From Concrete

Did you hear about the rose that grew
from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it
learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping its dreams,
it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete
when no one else ever cared.

It was only half a bottle of wine but the next day I'm paranoid. It'll go away hopefully. I won't drink anymore

I got my highschool diploma but like what do I do now. I'm looking at courses online and I need higher level math and physics but I'm just not well now jesus... They wont let me have a tutor because I'm almost 20 and..

My mom says oh you're too unmotivated to do it online so I'd have to do it in January.

I have no drivers license right now so I can't drive to the city anyways.

Like wtf. wtf.

This sucks. I can't even think properly I just want to relax. I've failed.

I'll be 25 in 5 months. you're not alone there. You haven't failed. I dropped out in 11th grade and did some at home program that a 5 year old who could reason, read and count could have gotten their HS diploma. (which I found out isn't accredited at all. So now I have to get my GED) I still don't have my license or anything. But I'm not exactly pressured since there's a bus service for elderly and disabled people where I live (the biggest city in the US without mass transportation), but it's so hard to schedule the time you want/need and they don't travel outside city limits. So that limits me greatly considering most doctors are in the city next to me. >_< don't listen to your mom. You can do anything you put your mind to.

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Hell, I'm 26 years old. My mental illness started taking a hold of me my senior year of high school and I managed to graduate high school. I have some college credits but never finished college. I feel limited by illness but I'm confident that I can finish despite my limitations. You can do it!

I'm 30. Got diagnosed sz at 14, after a couple years of misdiagnosis, and bad medications. Graduated high school early, but I was one of the lowest GPAs in school. I didn't start college till 30 so I know y'all can do it!

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sooooo at work tonight this girl was the person in charge (not a real manager). at around 10pm a man comes in with a rugdoctor and hes very mad. nikki tries to help him but he gets super super mad, gets in her face, and looks like hes about to attack her. it was just us up there so i went behind the desk and was abt to call 911 but then 2 stocker men ran up and he stopped. it was so scary!!!! luckily all the stockers were there bc its a sale turnover night. otherwise it would have been just us 2 up there. im gonna start taking my mace to work

My symptoms started at 9. It was first paranoia and delusions. If there were any hallucinations, I wasn't aware. It wasn't until 13 I became very aware of my voices and visuals. I wasn't diagnosed until 18. Hell. I didn't know anything was wrong until I was 18. Talk about slap in the face. I'll never forget the day my ex read my the symptoms of schizoaffective disorder and how my heart and stomach dropped because it felt like someone was studying me and wrote my life on a website as an illness. I only had one hospitalization before that. I tried to kill myself at 14 and got caught. I refused to leave the hospital unless my mom promised me I could see a doctor about my paranoia. She lied. My hallucinations and everything just kept increasing until my voices are now 24/7 (I've had two times where I heard nothing since they became constant at 17. 30 minutes max but still). Now I'm going to be 25 this year. I just started trying to take classes again part time. The only real class I have is remedial math. My other are jus private singing lessons. I added class piano for fall.

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o.o I'm glad things didn't escalate and others were around!

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Thanks, me too... =/

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I'm glad to see you guys chasing your dreams!

im not sure when my symptoms started but i got diagnosed last year. im 22 and im starting school in fall. im super nervous. today were leaving for home and theres a 6 hour drive infront of me. i started reading books again so my concentration isnt too bad.

I had a dream my parents sent me to a facility for female hysteria
They had other girls there that their goals were to get pregnant or get a puppy if they couldn't get pregnant

Then for me they said my symptoms were "convincing" but they said no one relapses *that* fast and they said the first treatment for me would be to wash my eyelashes because they were covered in mucus and they were oily

If I had stayed sleepif I wouldn't what my overal treatment would have been

It was really weird
I'm glad I don't really have female hysteria because being pregnant wouldn't solve anything for me

Keeping me quiet

Ah it worked!

I'm back!!!!

Hi miss 2.0....how are things?

I started taking my meds again, feel much better. What I did was really stupid...

I must have been out of hospital about two months now. I'm getting used to taking my meds and I'm slowly getting used to feeling well.
It feels like there should be something wrong, but there isn't for once.
I need to stop worrying that it will all come back and start enjoying feeling well.
Maybe this is a new start for me.

Congrats!

I'm glad you two are finding some peace with your meds.