Roll call 81

Uninstall Tapatalk , and Reinstall it

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Some issues with college, I defaulted on a loan from a couple years ago and it's messing with my financial aid. However, I did call the loan company and they granted a loan forbearance so if I am able to get proof of that faxed to my school in time for classes tuesday afternoon, I should be okay, if not then I'll have to start another time.

Kinda flipped out about it emotionally yesterday, was extremely upset and having suicidal thoughts but I'm feeling better now. Just got to take things moment by moment. I feel like I know all kinda of coping skills but when I get hit with something like that and my emotions get out of control I completely forget them and to use them.

I was extremely stressed yesterday. Plus I'm having some money issues, it's hard to survive on the amount of money I get each month, after bills are payed I only have like 30 bucks to manage with for the entire month.

I'm considering trying ticket to work and get a part time job. It would really help

you can get a part time job and not have to enter Ticket to Work. i believe the max income you can make at a job is $810 a month. if you make that, or over, it will automatically enter you into the Ticket to Work program. I held a part time job for 2 years while on SSDI and not in Ticket to Work. i think getting a part time job would be a great thing for you to do. working has really been one of the most integral parts of my recovery journey

Thank you. I don't think he would have gotten it from the phone book as I'm unlisted and they don't have the internet there. My thought is that my darling sister passed it out while she was there. I'm so freaked out. I don't know how to keep us all safe.

I'm having a shitastic day but my daughter is making chocolate covered strawberries so it evens out

I remember reading that they do get smuggled in smart phones. It is possible that your sister also was careless about keeping your number safe there.

You could try making a whitelist of allowed numbers who might call or text you, and a blacklist of numbers you don't want or recognize.

Sorry if I'm being annoying. I had to do this myself a long while ago to try to block someone who was scaring me.

If they don't get any reaction from you they will move right on to the next number.

I wouldn't care so much if he didn't have my full address. I'm pretty sure it was my sister. She doesn't know my number but she knows my address. It would be her type of thing to do.

I feel very dizzy and nauseated from what they're burning. I don't know what to do. The police don't believe me about anything. If I call the Social Worker, she's only going to want to hospitalize me and won't believe what I'm trying to tell her

I'm very dizzy and nauseated and scared.

opening the windows won't help? I'm sorry you're feeling like that

I do have the windows open, it still doesn't stop some of the poison. They get to stop doing it,and let their own windows clear it out before police would get here.

I have no one here. I can't really take it anymore. My cognitive and respiratory functions are under direct attack. Oh how I wish they weren't here.

Another big burst of poison.

First my mother says I have to find a place by April. Then she says December, and then she compassionately said we can do April. Now she is saying in November. My ****ing grandma is pushing her to live with her as soon as possible at any cost. My grandmother just does not care. My grandmother is doing just fine, she's just lonely in florida in her beautiful home that's all paid. This is frustrating me. All the housing around here is very expensive starting at $650 a month for a 1 bedroom. I can't afford that. Also, because I owe back taxes and student loans, my credit score is not good enough to get an apartment on my own. I can't find any rooms for rent either, which are still expensive at around $450 a month. I'm baffled. Plus, winter is the hardest time for a painter and drywaller. There are no exteriors to do, which is where most of our work takes place. Overworked and underpaid in the hot summers, starving in the winters. I hate my job. I love the people I work with though.

The only comfort from tenvoicesis. Watching Peter rabbit

Morning.

I dry swallowed 4 pills last night and am pretty damn proud of my pill swallowing skills.

There's a huge festival downtown. 300,000 people. Must avoid

I'm still freaked out but I'm less paranoid now after a prn.

This all reminds me of the time I took my top off and got killed by Greg Kinnear!

Those sly basterds! Keep up the good fight angelique, you're winning here! LIFE IS GOOD!

I'm peachy as **** these days!

How are you all? Hope you're all well!

Hey Atypical! I like peaches, and the word ****, the word **** is ****ing ****tedly awesome!

I'm class!

Just another sad and lonely Sunday

I used to be class, now I'm boring, like Ray Lyota , Goodfellas, final scene.