Roll call 81

Welcome back.

I noticed you weren't posting in S&P much but last I saw you were still elsewhere on PC. Anyway, yeah... good to have you back.

Hey guys.

Went to a new therapist today, one at my uni. It went well, typical first therapy appointment. Lots of questions and lots of talking.

I'm only stuck at campus for another hour or so, so I'll be going home soon.

Hope everybody is doing okay.

Had a great time with my BFF now I'm just waiting on the kids. I did get up to the mall for my new perfume so that's awesome. Feeling a little on the low side even after having a good time. Depression is such a *****. Hopefully the mood problem will fix itself.

Guess what, everything worked out and I'm starting classes tomorrow! Wooh! Gotta get up early tomorrow.

Has anyone seen the previews for the new show coming out this fall called "pitch" on FOX? It's about a woman who's really good at baseball and she gets signed with a pro team in the MLB. It looks like a good show, I like baseball a lot so I'm really looking forward to it

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Has anyone heard from 12PM lately?

I'm worried about her.

My doctor left the clinic a month ago and no one told me. I was trying to get my meds refilled. Since last week.

I feel like I might vomit.

I'm very scared.

She sent me some really helpful private messages a few days ago. I hadn't noticed she didn't post for a few days.

All I can think about is my pdoc leaving too. I like him a lot and I'm so afraid of being more abandoned.

It's final. My mother is moving in November. I have to find my own place by then. I don't know how I'm going to afford it. I don't know how to feel about this. I can't blame my mother for moving in with her mom, because she can't afford housing, but that leaves me in a difficult situation. I can't be mad at her. However, a main factor she is moving so soon is because her mom is pressing her to move in so that she isn't so lonely during the holidays. I don't know how I'm going to survive this winter. I truly have no idea. If I weren't on an anti depressant now I'd break down and probably kill myself. Good thing I'm on one. I don't know what to do.

My best option is to find a room for rent somewhere closer to my work. That way rent is at a minimal and the utilities are paid for. I just don't know where I can find a place, let alone one that accepts my cat. I can't leave my cat behind. I get her the day I got out of the hospital after my year long psychosis. She's been with my through thick and thin.

But I don't know how I will afford my car payments, rent, medicine, phone bill, and food all at the same time. I can barely make it as it is. Furthermore I paint and drywall for a living. There are no exteriors to paint during the winter making work very scarce. Not to mention snow days.

I don't know what to do.

Maybe look for a roommate situation? That might be cheaper than renting a furnished room. I don't know, though. But it does seem that if enough people were sharing rent, you might not have to pay as much rent at all.

Can you afford between $30 and $35 per month for phone bill? With prepaid phone service you will definitely save money over post paid.

ETA food stamps program. You can buy your groceries then.

I hope you get a good replacement Pdoc. Change is scary

That's exactly what I'm looking for. A room for rent in a place with another person. I have T Mobile as my phone bill. It's already pretty cheap. I do need to find a better car though.

You could start looking for a roommate now, maybe on moving websites. If you have a bad gut feeling about anyone, trust that and move on to the next person. When you finally choose someone, you can do a basic background check on them. Just for the sake of minimising any harmful elements before they start.

I think you will make out OK. I certainly wish you excellent luck too.

hi so i had a bad day. first of all T made fun of me about the truchk and i got sad. he asked me if he made me upset. yeah. he said im sorry i dont mean to make fun of u. sometimes it helps to make light of this stuff to take the power out of the paranoia and delusion. i know he ddidnt do it to be mean but i felt hurt. at least he apologized. and knew that what he said hurt me.

then i go to work. all day my brain is going 100mph with loud thoughts. this and that and this and that and omg omg omg. ok so i get to work and its busy and they say umm we're short a cashier. ok. then this girl falls over n has a seizure o the floor and barfs and stuff and im like freaked out bc it was alarming and unexpected. so i page the manager. she was ok she has epilepsy.

people keeping callin gmy name all the time. sarah...!! sarah!! hey sarah. i tell this 1 cashier to stop. that if he sees me with a customer plz dont say my namae 20 times. he said sorry. i felt really really mad a lot. i told that cashier i aws gonna kill him. it was a joke but not really bc i felt really mad.

then this old dud emarches up to me nd says hey u need to call th eowner of this car to the front or else im gonna call the police bc theres a dog in the car n the windows are rolled up. i said umm i went out there with him and it was a hybrid prius. i said the headlights are on it might be running. he was like IMA CALL HTE POLICE i said all right all right. i go in there and page 'could the owner of the grey prius in the handicap spot plz come to the fron thank you". a lady comes up, immediately...without me saying anyhting..."if ur calling me about the dog the AC is on" i said its not me its this guy im just tryin to keep ppl calm.

ok i dont feel like typing anymore but another thing that happen was that i bleed on my pants at work at leat it was close to time to close the store.

I FEEL SAD

Is anyone still up? We are also missing Tweaky, i notice. I hate when people go missing without any warning.

I wish my friend would talk to me more. I'm very concerned about me getting more lost without anyone to talk to for weeks at a time. I think about things which I'm not sure I could really resist it, the way I always knew it was just a fantasy.

I need messages in my mind often about prison being the consequences. Not about pc or here - just what I wish I could do regarding the criminals downstairs.

Looking for support from people with the same disease. Need someone to talk to

I'm up Angelique.

Sorry I didn't reply sooner but I had stuff to clear out for workmen coming in this morning.

I agree that it's easy to worry when people go AWOL for a bit. Hard to know if it's because they are doing well, or the opposite...

I've no doubt Mr. Tweaky will be giving his thoughtful insights again soon!

Someone mentioned 12PM too, yeah she was here a few days ago but hasn't been around as much for a while. Last I heard she was coping but still having some of the ups & downs.

Hope both are okay anyway & lets not forget Chickenfoot 2.0 who is navigating the fun world of working retail..

Morning. Junk, I hope you have a better day.
I am also missing some people but I guess that's the nature of a forum.
Nothing going on here today. Sending the kids off to school and taking a nap. I'm not feeling very awake this morning. Slept well but I'm just tired.
Have a good day everyone. I hope some of you start posting again. for those struggling.

What do you take for sleep?
I take ambien but it seems to have stopped working. I have been saving my Ativan and taking the 2 I'm prescribed at night to help me sleep. It works but I really need the Ativan when I have anxiety. So I need something new. Any suggestions?

Seroquel helps me sleep. I know it's an atypical anti-psychotic, but many meds are used "off label."

I made it through my first class !!!!!! I'm so excited. About to head home, got 2 more classes today but not until later in the afternoon.

That's wonderful, blue bird!

I take a muscle relaxer (zanaflex either a 2mg or a 4mg depending how close I am to sleep) and a 50mg Vistaril.

Congratulations!

I'm so happy for you.