[Psychosiad]

Worried I might go to hospital...
I just started my third year at uni, haven't been attending much because I feel all weird in the lectures like the lecturers are talking about me to the rest of the class but I can't tell what they are saying about me because it's all in metaphors I get so confused and scared I just leave

I also think my boyfriend is trying to kill me, so I've been thinking that I should kill myself before he gets the chance to do this. I have made plans.

I went to the doctors today and refused to take my meds because they make me put on weight and my boyfriend is nasty to me about it,

I'm already behind on uni work, haven't been eating, sleeping or looking after myself in any way. The doctor said she is very worried about me and I have to have a meeting with my psychiatrist.

Is there a possibility that my psychiatrist might make me go to hospital?

[TaintedPainter]

If you're thinking you should kill yourself you probably need to... believe me I know it sucks but its probably the best place for you right now. Sorry you're going through this tough time but stay strong. There are meds out there that are weight neutral too so maybe this could be a good chance for a med change. I switched from zyprexa to latuda and lost 15lbs this month. Good luck!

[Nix]

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I had a 6-week hospital stay when I felt people were going to kill me and I wasn't physically taking care of myself. I was very afraid to take meds, and one reason was the weight gain. But I've complied with the meds and believe it or not I've been ablt to even lose 47 lbs. while on them. So maybe you can find a combo that works for you. I hope you are well soon, and as the above poster said, being in the hospital sucks but if you have plans to kill yourself that's probably where you need to be.

[Sometimes psychotic]

There are Meds that cause less weight gain, ask your doc for a change to ability, geodon or latuda......

Please don't kill yourself If your bf makes you feel that bad then get rid of him he doesn't deserve you.
And yes there's a possibility you might go to the hospital, but i would talk to your therapist about it all and your emotions especially if you don't want to go...
(((hugs))))

Don't listen to him ^^^ You do not need to think about hurting yourself. You need to love yourself, please

[Psychosiad]

Originally Posted by TaintedPainter

If you're thinking you should kill yourself you probably need to... believe me I know it sucks but its probably the best place for you right now. Sorry you're going through this tough time but stay strong. There are meds out there that are weight neutral too so maybe this could be a good chance for a med change. I switched from zyprexa to latuda and lost 15lbs this month. Good luck!

Well done for losing weight, I find it so hard!

[Psychosiad]

Originally Posted by phoenix31

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I had a 6-week hospital stay when I felt people were going to kill me and I wasn't physically taking care of myself. I was very afraid to take meds, and one reason was the weight gain. But I've complied with the meds and believe it or not I've been ablt to even lose 47 lbs. while on them. So maybe you can find a combo that works for you. I hope you are well soon, and as the above poster said, being in the hospital sucks but if you have plans to kill yourself that's probably where you need to be.

Well done for losing weight
Thanks for your reply... I really don't want to go I've heard it's awful. I'm going to try my best to get better so I don't have to go.

[Psychosiad]

Originally Posted by DaX11

Please don't kill yourself If your bf makes you feel that bad then get rid of him he doesn't deserve you.
And yes there's a possibility you might go to the hospital, but i would talk to your therapist about it all and your emotions especially if you don't want to go...
(((hugs))))

Thanks for your reply.
I think if I break up with him he will definitely kill me. I broke up with him once and kept waking up every hour in the night in panic attacks.

What????!!! This is abuse First why would he want to kill you or does he always treat you horribly?? If you don't feel safe then call the police. Or do you have anyone you trust who can protect you? I'm so sorry And did he force you to get back together?? And i want to know do you hate him and are afraid? Or do you sort of like him and thats why you haven't gotten help yet?

Im sorry to hear you're struggling but i know what you mean when you say people talking about you in metaphors. It happens to me aswell. As much as I don't want to admit it the medication helps me not to care about it as much and makes it bearable. Suicide is never the answer, no matter how hard it seems you will get through this. I hope things improve for you.

[Psychosiad]

Originally Posted by unsure123

Im sorry to hear you're struggling but i know what you mean when you say people talking about you in metaphors. It happens to me aswell. As much as I don't want to admit it the medication helps me not to care about it as much and makes it bearable. Suicide is never the answer, no matter how hard it seems you will get through this. I hope things improve for you.

Thank you, it's supportive to know that other people go through it too, but I'm sorry you're dealing with it too as I know how horrible it is

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I hope you don't have to go to the hospital but I wanted you to know that if you do it's not really awful. It's not vacation but it's really not that bad. I always feel relieved because I am safe and I haven't felt safe for a long time when I get there.

There are groups and you see a psychiatrist usually daily and depending on the place there are other things to do when you aren't in groups. Some places let you keep your phone or have a computer you can use; others don't.

But if you have to go just know that it doesn't have to be a terrible experience. I was so afraid before I had ever gone and then when I finally did have to go I found out nearly everything I had feared wasn't true at all.

Originally Posted by Psychosiad

Well done for losing weight
Thanks for your reply... I really don't want to go I've heard it's awful. I'm going to try my best to get better so I don't have to go.

[Psychosiad]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I hope you don't have to go to the hospital but I wanted you to know that if you do it's not really awful. It's not vacation but it's really not that bad. I always feel relieved because I am safe and I haven't felt safe for a long time when I get there.

There are groups and you see a psychiatrist usually daily and depending on the place there are other things to do when you aren't in groups. Some places let you keep your phone or have a computer you can use; others don't.

But if you have to go just know that it doesn't have to be a terrible experience. I was so afraid before I had ever gone and then when I finally did have to go I found out nearly everything I had feared wasn't true at all.

I don't think I'll feel safe in hospital if I have to go I hope I do feel safe but I think I'll panic really badly.
My support worker says I am 'relapsing'
Thanks for the information about what it's like... Although the thought of it still brings on strange fears and thoughts.

[ofthevalley]

Originally Posted by Psychosiad

I don't think I'll feel safe in hospital if I have to go I hope I do feel safe but I think I'll panic really badly.

My support worker says I am 'relapsing'

Thanks for the information about what it's like... Although the thought of it still brings on strange fears and thoughts.

I know how scary the thought can be but it's not that bad. If you panic they will be able to help you. They can also get you on a good med regime. Let them know about your fear of weight gain and they can figure something out. I've been 3 times and if it weren't for being away from my kids I wouldn't mind at all. It's a safe place that can do a great service.
Suicide isn't the answer.