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newtus · May 30, 2017, 11:42 AM

The peer support specialists are only at the clinic 2 days a week and its hard for me to get in to see them when they are only in 2 days.

I hate this

newtus · May 30, 2017, 12:09 PM

Im not feeling good. I feel really bad. I hate this so ****ing much. I want to get out but i have no money. I missed my NA group and theres no groups at my clinic today. I guess because theres no pss in.

ofthevalley · May 30, 2017, 02:40 PM

Hey guys. Having a decent day. Just some anxiety about tonight. I wish I were normal and just enjoyed stuff.

justmeandmyhead · May 30, 2017, 03:29 PM

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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

I've been given leave to go to my brother's final uni show in Brighton tomorrow until Thursday. My Mum will be with me the whole time so I won't be 'unescorted'. It's nice of my Dr to let me go because, if I was still on the ward, it would've been an automatic 'no'. And my brother's really excited I can go to see his final collection (he's a fashion design student)... But I'm kind of dreading it. I'm worrying about changing trains in London, and about all of the people there and in Brighton and at the show. And I'm not looking forward to being around people 24/7 for 3 days. I need a lot of alone time to decompress from being around people. That's why I'm so glad I don't have to share a room in rehab/hospital like you guys were talking about because I would not cope with a roommate AT ALL. So having my mum and brother around 24/7 is going to be hard. I find being around people requires a lot of mental energy and I get exhausted, and having no break from that is going to be really challenging. So I don't really want to go. But my Mum and brother are really excited about it, and I'm lucky that the pdoc is letting me go at all, so I shouldn't complain. And I will get to see the sea whilst I'm there and I really miss the sea living where I currently live. Hopefully it will be ok.

Hope everyone is doing well

*Willow*

I hope you have a good time willow. I know how you feel about being around people 24/7. It's tiring especially with certain people. I like my own space too.
Have fun!

justmeandmyhead · May 30, 2017, 03:33 PM

Had a productive day at work. Now I'm having a few drinks and watching tv. My bf is out and I seem to drink whenever he's out.
I'm not allowed to drive atm because of the dvla. I'm really trying not to let it get me down. I'm worried I'll lose my job though as you need to drive for my job.
Just getting through this week then house viewing at the weekend!
I'm doing so well at work now that I'm on the right dose of meds. I've promised to stick on them for at least a year. I need the stability. I like feeling well.

Blue_Bird · May 30, 2017, 03:44 PM

So the first day back at college went well. The statistics class will be hard. It's like 3 pages of notes for one single problem 0_0 The intro to drawing class went well too, looking forward to learning more. Heading home now to do homework, shower, dinner and sleep

May 30, 2017, 06:57 PM

My roommate got a dog and she keeps it locked up for 10 hours a day in a kennel while she works. Doesn't that seem inhumane?

newtus · May 30, 2017, 07:37 PM

Today turned out better than i thought.

cogladaid · May 30, 2017, 09:00 PM

I don't think I have time to be crazy. So much **** going down and uncertainty I don't have the time. I don't know what to do. Maybe I can just force myself to be normal. Not thinking about it will make it okay.

Blue_Bird · May 31, 2017, 06:36 AM

Good morning! Slept really good last night. Appointment with my doctor later today. She's just checking how I'm doing with the switch from Depakote to Trileptal. I'm ready for the weekend already lol I actually did the math problems for homework and got them right (she gives us the answers on the back but we have to work them out) which is surprising considering I'm normally horrendous at any kind of math. I guess paying attention and taking good notes does help lol

I think I'm going to meet with an adviser today and set up my Fall schedule.

I hope everyone is doing well

What's everyone up to?

I think I'm doing well on trileptal, it was a rough switch but my mood has leveled out the past few days so I guess it just took awhile to adjust.

junkDNA · May 31, 2017, 06:51 AM

My therapist said I am delusional and paranoid

What does HE. KNOW

ofthevalley · May 31, 2017, 07:13 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Good morning! Slept really good last night. Appointment with my doctor later today. She's just checking how I'm doing with the switch from Depakote to Trileptal. I'm ready for the weekend already lol I actually did the math problems for homework and got them right (she gives us the answers on the back but we have to work them out) which is surprising considering I'm normally horrendous at any kind of math. I guess paying attention and taking good notes does help lol

I think I'm going to meet with an adviser today and set up my Fall schedule.

I hope everyone is doing well

What's everyone up to?

I think I'm doing well on trileptal, it was a rough switch but my mood has leveled out the past few days so I guess it just took awhile to adjust.

Glad to hear things are going well.
I don't have anything planned for the day. I just have to run to the town hall later.
Have a good day.

ofthevalley · May 31, 2017, 07:19 AM

Good morning. Hope everyone is having a good day. I wish my paycheck would come in already. It feels like it's been forever since my last one.
Having a decent day so far. Nothing much going on. I went to bed late last night but I'm not feeling tired so I guess that's good. Had a good time with my BFF. It's always good to see her.

Angelique67 · May 31, 2017, 07:30 AM

GM! I hope everyone feels ok so far. I'm trying to decide if I want a little cat nap or if I should get up now. Already had breakfast. If I stay up I can go vape at 9:00.

cogladaid · May 31, 2017, 08:03 AM

Not going to take my meds and see if I can make it without them. Maybe I'm not crazy after all just unfocused.

newtus · May 31, 2017, 08:48 AM

Morning!

I really hope today is good. Not just for me but you all.

Angelique67 · May 31, 2017, 09:00 AM

Had my 9:00 vape. They were 15 minutes late though so it was more like a 10:00 vape. I didn't get my head rush though, so that's disappointing. But I missed the 7

m vape last night because I fell asleep. I'm so tired. Saturn is rx on my ascendant and I'm just exhausted this week so far. Maybe when Saturn crosses it in direct motion I'll be able to go home.

Desoxyn · May 31, 2017, 09:50 AM

I feel really mentally anxious. I wish I had lorazepam back I said no to the PRNs before.

So I'm not going to exercise group..

I want to leave this place. I'll be leaving in 9 hours to catch the plane.

Blue_Bird · May 31, 2017, 10:47 AM

Got registered for the Fall semester, picked College Comp, Human Biology, Intro to Social Work, and Abnormal Pyschology

Blue_Bird · May 31, 2017, 10:52 AM

I watch PBS everyday. I don't care if it's for little kids. I only have a couple of interesting channels one being the Justice channel and one being PBS. I switch back and forth throughout the day from things like Elmo and Thomas and Friends and Arthur to things like Dr. G Medical Examiner and murder stories... lol I only get like 8 channels and most don't come in great but I like the shows I watch.

newtus · May 31, 2017, 11:31 AM

Today sucks. Im already not having a very good day. Nothing major just a bunch of annoyances.

newtus · May 31, 2017, 11:32 AM

My dads work schedule is changing. While i dont like waiting til 9pm for him to get home idk if even care anymore

Gr3tta_0 · May 31, 2017, 12:20 PM

My wife is home from the hospital. We have tons of follow up appointments. She doesn't feel too bad, but her vision is very poor. I really hope that part could be fixable. We have the first appointment at the outpatient dialysis center this afternoon. I really hope they will be helpful. I am very overwhelmed, and the renal diet looks so difficult. I worry about her getting enough to eat.
The weird familiarity thing seems to have gone away for now, which is a relief. I have some increase in other symptoms, but its not too upsetting. I actually got sleep last night for the first time in a week, and that helps.

ofthevalley · May 31, 2017, 12:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Gr3tta_0

My wife is home from the hospital. We have tons of follow up appointments. She doesn't feel too bad, but her vision is very poor. I really hope that part could be fixable. We have the first appointment at the outpatient dialysis center this afternoon. I really hope they will be helpful. I am very overwhelmed, and the renal diet looks so difficult. I worry about her getting enough to eat.
The weird familiarity thing seems to have gone away for now, which is a relief. I have some increase in other symptoms, but its not too upsetting. I actually got sleep last night for the first time in a week, and that helps.

Glad to hear she is home. Hope the outpatient appts are helpful.

ofthevalley · May 31, 2017, 12:55 PM

Waiting for my kids to get home. Can't come fast enough. I'm feeling overwhelmed.

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