Roll call 94?

Hey all. I had a very strange day.

Low undiscernable dialogs pop into my head. They dont bother me really, but its weird. I imagine Im picking other peoples thoughts.

The problem is I have a persistent depression for the last 24 hours and I think this is here to stay for some time.
Im also having a hard time logging and posting so sorry if I dont respond.
I should probably delete this and just roll into bed...
But maybe this gives me a ounce of info energy.

Hope things are better here with you.

I hope you feel better

You're not garbage. Don't forget you're going through a lot of changes right now, good and bad. You've been through a lot and you've still got spit. That counts for a lot.

I took my haldol

That's often the case that Dr's have trouble giving a definitive diagnosis. Diagnosis's can change over time as the doctor learns more even. You might not be able to express your own discoveries. How would you describe the color red to a color blind person? How would you describe an internal restlessness that can't be fixed with standard anxiety meds? We fail to recognize that its akathisia which is a symptom so common with prescribed APs. This is why an attentive doctor and knowledgeable support groups like us are so invaluable. We'll help you through this!

I read the paper and I think you are asking core philosophical questions that still are hotly debate. Hopefully I can finish my comments tomorrow.

I wish I could help... Is there a way you can drown her out with moving music and movies? Hopefully a med cocktail adjustment might help too... But med adjustments typically take at least 2 weeks to take effect. Two weeks = hope!!! Never give that up!!!

Yeah, but what's the other guy look like?

Kori, I think you should take martial arts. Deep down I think this would be best for you. Please consider it.

Anyone up?

My dad says i should make a symptom log book. Should i? Anyone else do this?

I hear mumbling and seeing shadows. I fear law enforcement will put me in jail

we used to make diary cards in DBT
they were basically like symptom logs

I feel physically sick with worry over my dr appt in the morning. I guess i have a plan, but i have so much fear. I dont know if i will ever fall asleep tonight. There are too many angles. Like triangles are attacking me and i feel betrayed because i love geometry and then i realize maybe this makes no sense.
*utter despair* *endless churning*

When i was in dbt i found the diary cards triggering. A blank spreadsheet of "bad" behaviors i felt obligated to fill up.
I hated DBT and thought my therapist was a complete moron.
Now at my job i take referral calls for dbt services and i have to hold my tongue against saying uuuurrrggg

I am s o scared right now.
My wife is asleep but she's here, i could wake her if needed. My pets are here. My biggest dog is along me, and that helps a lot, but i feel so much fear.
I feel theres an amount that would be "normal" fear, then theres like a garbage mountain being shoved by a bulldozer, and ... thats the really scary part...

@kori i tried to msg you in chat but i am havibg trouble navigating the latest upgrade. Don't want you to think i said hi and disappeared.

Hi.... Good morning all.

Kori, some of my voices and alters say the same. I try to calm them down even the ones that are considered psychotic. They dont stop but at least i end up feelimg bettet. I hope it pass soon
Hugs.

Little to no sleep, fun

Saw the doctor yesterday, bloodwork from last time showed a problem with my liver. So he took me off of Metformin and Lipitor and said to wait a month to see if the numbers look better. If they don't, then off to the liver doctor I go.

I hope it turns out ok.

I had some similar problems; had elevated liver function but I had an ultrasound and they found no problems.

I think sometimes meds can elevate numbers even if no real damage is being done.

i have been having problems with chat too
it keeps me signed in even though i closed the window

I hope your liver tests are fine.

I'm sorry you are so scared.
I hope everything goes well at the doctor. I'll be thinking of you.