Roll call 94?

This is a good point...I often feel invalid because there is no good answer at this time. My mind is an asshole in that it's like "oh hey, they can't figure out what it is! That must me mean it's not real! Let's not take our meds then!" Then after I get to thinking that I don't really belong in support forums like this.

Well, we'll see what happens with my Zyprexa medication...it's been maybe a little over a week since I started it. I guess we shall see what happens.

Good morning/afternoon all. How is everyone doing?

I'm doing okay at the moment. Pondering over where my life will go given how I've been, and feeling powerless to make the changes that need to happen. Enjoying a hard apple cider right now.

@Kori - I'm sorry to hear you are going through these stressful things right now. I'm hoping that things improve soon.

Hey

I feel exhausted. I slept all night but woke up feeling groggy. Coffee now.

Ha my ex dumped me Saturday and then texted me saying he was dumping me. I was like "you already dumped me Saturday?".

Stupid

Good morning, doing well. Got my shot today.

Got a few groups, then eating lunch here. Then after that taking a long walk. Then to the library for a bit. Then home finally. I decided I'm gonna start walking everyday and try to get 10,000 steps today. I have been meaning to do that but I always put it off. The only thing stopping me is me, I will do it now though.

I have been re reading the Harry Potter series for fun. I truly love reading. Its the best.

Got some fresh coffee yesterday. Gevalia dark French roast. Still have some French vanilla dunkin donuts too. Love coffee.

How is everyone?

Just ordered a replacement screen and glass screen protector for my Huawei Honor 7. Finally have enough money to afford replacing it. It's been cracked for about 10 months now.

My emotions are all mixed up right now

Its so quiet here

Hi guys,
Having a nice few days, me and bf are off work. Going to Edinburgh tomorrow for the fringe festival and we're camping. Really looking forward to it.
Things have been off recently. I went to the witchcraft shop in my city and got some candles to help cleanse and hopefully help my problems. I'm hoping being out in nature camping will help too.
Things are off balance. I'm on meds but things just don't feel right. I know people would say to increase the meds but I don't want to. I'm on a decent dose and I don't want the extra side effects. Plus I don't feel like they will help, it's the world that's wrong not me.

I have no one to talk to. I try to talk to my dad but hes always too busy. Then everyone wonders why i go on social media to talk about my feelings. ****ing no one listens to how i fuccking feel. No one in my real life.

Its like theres a void or a hole in my heart

Im going through a lot of depression and anxiety and some psychotic stuff right now. And i have no one to talk to. And its the most awful feeling in the world.

My ex never ever listened to what i had to say. My parents are too busy. My few friends are too busy...

I really hate life right now. I hate mental illness.

@newtus
i don't know how much help I would be but I am listening

@kori

Thank you.

My life is not totally miserable. It has its extremely small good moments.

But the stuff the ex put me through. Not even the break up. The break up didnt effect me as much. Its the stuff he put me through throughout.

All the time i spend alone. My dad works so much im practically living alone. In the backwoods. With extremely little interaction with people. If i want interaction i have to drive half an hour out to even be around people.

I dont have all my meds. Wont have them for awhile.

The fact that i dont have a proper support system to talk to without judgement. I have one pss to talk to regularly and shes judgemental. All the people in group support her. So i cant talk to them. My parents are so busy. My mom doesnt want to listen to what i have to say. She doesnt want to talk to me. My dad is too busy. Plus on top of them never having dealt with mental illness. They dont know.

My friends are not supportive. I rarely seem them. They dont deal with mental illness. They dont even have time to talk. I text them and i dont hear from them for days.

This guy wants to date me, I've known him for over a year. I like him, it's just I kind of want to focus on my stability right now. I think maybe if we could just be friends for a few months and then maybe try it out down the road if we still feel the same. It's weird having someone wanting to date me, I haven't dated in 5 years, it's kinda nice that someone likes me

I think it's a good idea to be friends for a few months and see where it goes. A healthy relationship will help us to be stable imo

How come you don't have all your meds newtus? Can you call your doctor and get them sent to the pharmacy?

I ran out and missed an appt.

Ive already been told that i cannot call in to get meds. I HAVE to see a doctor and hes booked for weeks.

I once had a problem running out of my meds, and went to a CVS Minute Clinic and explained I was about to run out, and the PA there was willing to write me a 3 month script until I was able to see a proper doctor. If you're on Medicaid it may be worth looking into.

Edit: Just remember to bring one of your empty medication bottles of each med you need refilled.

Hi guys. Taking a break from work.
@newtus. I'm sorry you are feeling so bad today. I know it's not the same but I listen to what you have to say. Sometimes social media is all we have.

The devil is trying to talk and do things through me

Man I don't feel good. I threw up and I don't feel any better. I better not be getting sick. I don't have time for that.
How is everyone else doing?

I dont have medicaid actually

I still have no idea what the purpose of this thread is, but I post in it anyway because everyone else does.

I'm ok, just bored and restless. I hope you're not getting a stomach bug. Try Cold-Eeze zinc lozenges, and if it's a virus, it should help some. I hope you feel better soon.