Roll Call 99

Idk but I'd assume people who took them in childhood had a more severe illness to start with and may have had more years in psychosis without meds. Both of which would make it impossible to study....

Yea i get that. When i first started taking meds they were cautious and put me on low doses but since my parents had to be involved, and me not understanding what was going on with me, i soon got my meds upped faster and faster. By 17 i was put on 6 or 7 meds. High doses too. Ambien, xanax, zoloft, seroquel and some others. At least 6 total. Was going in and out of hospitals, mainly due to cutting and depression as a teen. But also attempted sui at 13 and 18. At 13 cuz i was being bullied. At 18 cuz i was scared and thought my life was going downhill. I thought i deserved to die. I thought it wasnt gonna be any better. That i was always gonna be bullied and mentally ill.

At 21 (my last time I attempted) cuz i had severe delusions and hallucinations. I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at 21 after going to the hospital for a sui attempt.

My point is, i was on heavy meds and a lot of them. I was young.

Yea thats pretty much me. Had severe mental illness in childhood.

Just got back from the Hospital with my mom. My mom's best friend mom is dying. I didn't know her mom very well but I was there passing out hugs. Chances are shell probably die later tonight or tomorrow.

God. Where the fluck is everyone.

The conversation just came to a halt

I fell asleep on the couch and just woke up. I warned you I was sleepy hahahaha.

But nah, I'm really the kind of person who keeps everything in. When I was a kid I would hit bruises and pick my skin and have a vivid imagination sometimes confusing what is real but I really kept it on the DL so I never got taken to a doctor for anything until a few years ago when I had my big depressive episode and had to admit something was wrong.

I've probably been ****ed up for years and had I been more outgoing I might have been to a doctor years ago and might have more of a med and medical history and insight to show lol.

I got "noticed" by the mental health system when I attempted sui at 13 for being bullied.

I remember cutting myself at 12 and 13, while listening to Linkin Park

Well, I better get to bed. I'm turning a huge downtown Ann Arbor Café on Mainstreet into a yoga and massage place. SP, you might know the place, it's in the same building as Keif Hefner's Karate school right by Mongolian Barbeque. Anyway, we're doing this crazy faux finish on the ceiling that makes it look as though light is breaking from the sky on the ceiling with this gold finish paint we're using among the other types. Ill give you guys an after picture.

There is an interior designer there and god they are so impractical. We're using 5 colors just on one small area and 3 of them are different shades of white. lol Interior designers sure do have balls to say "No you NEED to do this!!!" The way they tell their clients what to do is intimidating from what I've noticed. All my years of renovating I've never seen a male interior designer. I think women like nesting more than men.

Anyone up

I am up
T's quiet everywhere on the internet

Yes tis.

I just spent 30 min trying to find the ball of my lip piercing and putting a new ring in. I lost the ball to a piece of jewelry so now im gonna have to go buy new jewelry while i wear the ugly ones

Fafsa grants won't cover a whole universitys tuition. You'll have to take out loans

Night meds ya know.....

Sounds cool

Didnt sleep last night. I'm going back to the hospital today if my mom's best friends mom is still alive. If not we're headed to my mom's friends house. I can tell this is going to be a long day.

Yeah I was taking classes with a University and FAFSA doesn't cover it all, had to take out loans.

Good to hear from you again bluebird, people were worried about you....

Are you sure you're not mistaking me with someone else? I was just on the other day. Roll call goes so fast though

Nope I'm thinking of you...maybe it is because roll call is so active?

I usually am not on as much as I am the first few days of the month because I run out of data on my phone after that then just use the WiFi at my program or the library

Roll call is super active lol I was on the other day and it was at like 30 pages now its at like 75

I have my first RCIA class tonight. Very nervous, hoping it goes well

Going to have breakfast and try taking my meds in the morning and see what happens~~

See the doctor tomorrow so I should maybe take notes so I come prepared.

Do they make you sleepy? If so I would not take them In the morning.....