Roll Call 99

Well, I think they make me a little sleepy a couple hours after I take them so it's not great, but I've also noticed the last couple days that after that initial sleepiness my sleep hasn't been that great. I keep waking up and having trouble falling back asleep.

So I'm just trying to see if morning works better for my sleep. I don't have any plans or work to go to where I need to be super awake. Perfect time to test it out. If it makes me too tired during the day I'll go back to taking them at night.

I've only been on them for less than a week.

Should I go to RCIA or Overeaters Anonymous tonight?

Morning. Coffee time.

If ive been getting over 5000 dollar grants from fafsa and the classes at this place are 500 a piece, how can it not cover a full time status (which i wouldnt do but it seems like it would).

There is a tuition you pay before you pay for the individual classes. And because you're out of state it will be higher

The only thing im worried about at this moment is this school requires a high school transcript. Even tho i have enough credits from college they said, they still need it. Im not sure how to do that or get that because i technically graduated HS from a charter school. A small one. The website of this place is bare. Barely anything on it. And its far away. I dont live in my hometown. Even when i was going there for the last month of my senior year i lived with my mom for 2 months.

So idk how in the hell im supposed to get it from them.

Ugh i keep talking to my dad about if he will be disappointed in me going to this school. He said he realizes its a good school and is recognized. But maybe deep down i feel embarrassed that its not in my state. And its not the uni i was going to back in January. My parents were so proud of me when i went to the nearest uni an hour or more away. I just want them to be proud of me. I feel like im doing them a disservice getting my whole bachelors online from out of state.

And when people ask me where i got my bachelors at. I wonder if they will know it was online since the actual school is in arizona.

Im so scared to make this step to this school, because simply put, im embarrassed about the degree being online. And im scared people will know. And im embarrassed as to why i have to do it online. People think online means "easy" and it just doesnt. At all. If it did, i wouldve had 2 degrees by now.

Hm. You mean for random things like building maintenance and such? Because i dont remember paying for some tuition before the individual classes at the in state uni i went to. Other than building maintenance, gym use, etc random fees.

I notice i have a lot of thoughts and deep ones in the morning. Almost as if my brain was holding everything in until the morning and just spews it all out.

I'm not sure what JunkDNA is talking about usually tuition is per credit but I do think you are calculating it wrong...

https://students.asu.edu/tuition/bre...orate_partner=

So for out of state its 510 per hour, I've never seen a class that's less than 3 credit hours at a uni so its probably more like 1500 per class. Fasfa I believe gives you money based on your status, full or part time so that will come in to play as well.

Oh crap thats right. Its per hour. Jesus christ.

Not really sure what to do then because then my fafsa wont pay but for 2 classes maybe... im way to embarrassed to ask my parents for money. Even if i went to the local uni i wouldve had to take out loans tho. But it was different there because it was an extremely well known school in the area and had extremely good reputation.

So not sure what to do

On another note, i think im gonna start my blog back up.

I just got approached by a drug company to be an affiliate. Not completely sure what that means. But in the past ive been approached to be interviewed by well known magazines. Just didnt read the emails in time to agreed to have been.

What should i do?

I'm not sure either----is it one of the meds you take?

Nah. Honestly it may not even be legit. They said its actually a drugstore not a drug, sorry. A drugstore that offers meds at discount.

Geez the more i think about it the more it doesnt seem legit.

But it got me thinking of the time someone said they were from huffpost and wanted to interview me. But i got the email too late. I didnt see it in time.

Maybe i should start writing on my blog again

Im really not sure what to do about school. I cant really afford it and i dont want to take just 1 class at a time. I would like to be at least part time (2 classes at least).

Im not sure what ive gotten myself into

I want to goto school. I just dont know what to do about the cost.

For what it's worth, Germany offers free tuition to even international students. Of course, the logistics of moving to a whole new country would be intense...I can speak from experience X_x

Im really not used to the amount of stress, like ive been dealing with since july. It just piles on top of me. I wish i could talk to someone close to me about it but i feel like they will just say "youre an adult. Life is stressful".

Not even sure why i have this amount of stress...

I remember in my psychological test I did a speech test and it was in the top 1% of speech fluency. I was like wut..

But I don't talk much anyways. I used to talk a lot when I was younger like I had completely no filter.

Then I got told to shut up all the time so I did.

I took 2 gabapentin because im stressed as fluck and getting anxiety. And yes i do get stressed out easy.

Yea. But thank you. I cant move to a new country.

My T won't even talk to me on the phone unless I get clean



I'm gonna try.

Ugh. I'm swamped with work . Some of it I have to figure out too. Using excel...my nemesis along with word.
I have nothing else going until the kids get home.
What's everyone up to?

Personally I love word and excel...

I'm not doing much. Just watching an old movie. Contemplating buying a hoodie somewhere but I don't know where... might venture out later or maybe leave it for tomorrow.

1500 for a 3 hour class? How the hell can someone pay for that? Isn't a class like every day?