Roll Call 99

Angelique67 · Sep 11, 2017, 01:38 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I feel much more stable and grounded right now. Im sure taking my haldol this morning helped.

I apologize for getting upset on here.

When did you get upset? I must have missed it?

I'm glad your t appointment went well.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 01:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

I'm okay. Spending time roaming the internet and chatting with friends. Thinking about getting something to eat.

Sounds fun. Dont forget to post it to the "what are you eating?" Thread!

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 01:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

When did you get upset? I must have missed it?

I'm glad your t appointment went well.

I got upset when i thought everyone was ignoring me. I guess people just didnt know what to say. Idk. But i typed a lot. Loial said something first and then everyone starting chiming in.

I just feel bad. I hate getting upset here and i shouldnt have gotten upset. I just felt at some point i was probably rambling cuz i got so passionate.

Angelique67 · Sep 11, 2017, 02:13 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I got upset when i thought everyone was ignoring me. I guess people just didnt know what to say. Idk. But i typed a lot. Loial said something first and then everyone starting chiming in.

I just feel bad. I hate getting upset here and i shouldnt have gotten upset. I just felt at some point i was probably rambling cuz i got so passionate.

Oh, ok. I feel that way too, sometimes.

I was just over the bridge from downtown Manhattan when the two towers were destroyed. The acrid toxic smoke was drifting over and stank when I went outside for cigarettes or something later that night.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

Well, I'm very, very happy for you! I hope all your work goes smoothly.

I'm wondering whether they'll get a move on sending me to another place now that they are closing half of this facility. And whether they're going to send me to a state hospital ("temporarily") because I don't want to go to the place that doesn't allow vaping. I really only just thought of that. Oh my God.

try not to jump to any conclusions. I know it must be hard.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

Oh, ok. I feel that way too, sometimes.

I was just over the bridge from downtown Manhattan when the two towers were destroyed. The acrid toxic smoke was drifting over and stank when I went outside for cigarettes or something later that night.

How scary that must have been! Watching it on tv was bad enough.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 02:21 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

How scary that must have been! Watching it on tv was bad enough.

I remember watching it on tv when i was 11

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:22 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Hows everyone doing?

Good. Just hanging out until it's time to pick up my son.
My husband came home early. My brakes are f'ed up so he came home to fix them so I would have my car tomorrow. Not that I have anywhere to go but with the kids you never know.
Just having burgers for dinner so that's nice and easy. Overall a good afternoon.
How about you?

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:24 PM

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I remember watching it on tv when i was 11

I was working at the bank and a customer came in and told us about the first tower. We brought the tv to the tellers area and watched the second plane hit. It was so frightening. I remember calling my mom and my husband. I thought for sure it was the end of the world.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 02:24 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Good. Just hanging out until it's time to pick up my son.
My husband came home early. My brakes are f'ed up so he came home to fix them so I would have my car tomorrow. Not that I have anywhere to go but with the kids you never know.
Just having burgers for dinner so that's nice and easy. Overall a good afternoon.
How about you?

I feel much better from this morning. Still stressed out a bit but i feel much more grounded and calm. Sorry for getting upset earlier. I just felt like...well honestly i felt like everyone thought i was having an episode or wasnt taking me seriously because at some point i started rambling.

Im about to have some coffee. Then some tea and research these schools.

Angelique67 · Sep 11, 2017, 02:26 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

How scary that must have been! Watching it on tv was bad enough.

It was very surreal. It was definitely a horrible shock. First responders were not using face masks, and maybe some of the news crew. They said the air wasn't poisonous, a lot of disconnected info was coming from the news and everyone was freaking out. I think Rudy Giuliani did a good job though, of trying to pull the city together.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:27 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I feel much better from this morning. Still stressed out a bit but i feel much more grounded and calm. Sorry for getting upset earlier. I just felt like...well honestly i felt like everyone thought i was having an episode or wasnt taking me seriously because at some point i started rambling.

Im about to have some coffee. Then some tea and research these schools.

I understand getting upset. If sucks to pour your heart out and feel ignored.
Good luck with your research. I hope you find something you are happy with.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

It was very surreal. It was definitely a horrible shock. First responders were not using face masks, and maybe some of the news crew. They said the air wasn't poisonous, a lot of disconnected info was coming from the news and everyone was freaking out. I think Rudy Giuliani did a good job though, of trying to pull the city together.

I think Rudy did a hell of a job! That was a time of utter shock and disbelief.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 02:32 PM

I was talking to the new guy this morning about school. I feel like he doesnt get me. Especially last night when he asked me if i could do anything else im passionate with. Of course i could but philosophy holds a presidence in my life far above anything else.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 02:36 PM

This may seem really weird to yall, but i cant tell you how many people i talk to comment on the way i speak. Ive gotten really lazy about speaking and kinda slur my words and they run together.

So i think im gonna practice speaking better. Along with that, gonna start learning new words to use. Not sure if i should read a dictionary or use flashcards.

ofthevalley · Sep 11, 2017, 02:40 PM

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I was talking to the new guy this morning about school. I feel like he doesnt get me. Especially last night when he asked me if i could do anything else im passionate with. Of course i could but philosophy holds a presidence in my life far above anything else.

He's still new. It'll take some time before he knows your passions.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 02:47 PM

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He's still new. It'll take some time before he knows your passions.

You are right. I guess i do him like everyone else, have too high expectations about people.

My therapist told me to quit doing that.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 02:47 PM

My therapist said i am a perfectionist

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 03:24 PM

Gonna be meeting with a different pss tomorrow.

newtus · Sep 11, 2017, 03:30 PM

If i only i took good care of my body as much as i take care of my mind.

Desoxyn · Sep 11, 2017, 03:51 PM

Feeling pretty hypomanic myself to be honest lol

Grrr screw manic, I wanna be HYPERMANIC!!

Nah jkjk

Mods will be high alert for my postingz

None of them will make it through the green light.

Just kidding just kidding..

Need more cigarettes for celebration.