Roll Call CIV (104)

Yes, survival does that.

I'm trying out a new med. Forgot what it's called but it's brand spanking new. I'm Still on the Haldol and lower it.

Good luck with your new med

Back from my clinic

I had two photos in the top 12 of the safari central photo contest, I almost won a safari...almost.....

Hi everybody

How are you?

The benefit for me is that it would disorganise my thoughts so I can sort them out before the high wears off and I then feel a bit better.

But It's just way too strong for me and causes really really bad panic attacks to where I know I'm not going to die but a few times I would write "Sorry" on my hand with a pen just in case..

So I just don't smoke it anymore.

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Today was intense in my appt. i lost myself a few times. I cried. I broke down and told my pss that a lot of times i dont leave my house because i fear this small town and being black. I fear ill get stopped by the police and no one will know. Or some racist will hurt me.

The bf’s phone is off today. He forgot to pay his bill.

No but I was talking on the phone with my brother yesterday he said to see blade runners.

Watch the original or else you will be lost when you see the sequel. It's deeply philosophical, meant for the blade runner cult classic fans.

Welcome to roll call.

Do you use street pot, or medical marijuana?

I got juice for my vape in the mail. Its called Alien Piss.

It's good that you let it all out. Crying is one of the best things for that. I can't cry anymore lol only when my serotonin is not good. Not saying yours is it's normal to cry.

Even though that's a legit fear you should try to minimize it in 2-3 of these ways..

Thinking about what would happen and what you would do about some of those things happening and playing it out in your mind.. or..

Trying your best to think about other things.

The most important thing is to try and get out of the house and not stay isolated because of those ******** and make yourself as safe as possible.

You shouldn't let them have that power over you. Remember the fear should be amplified when you are in psychosis.

- Psychologist. Tweaky

Medical.

They make sure the plant is cared for and they whisper to it to make it grow nicely.

I think that's what they do..

Thank you tweaky. I shouldnt let them have that power over me yea. If i isolate because of them itll make it worse.

I was playing Grand Theft Auto 5 all night.

Good game. Nostalgia.

Hehe

Vapemail! Any day can be good if you get a package of vapemail!

Dammit the juice is 0mg. But im pretty sure i ordered at least 6mg.

Call them and make them send you some 6mg.

Gonna have to wait til my other juices come in. I guess they will come tomorrow. I hate the rest of my juices from previous vapemail.

Thing is, i get 11 bottles in a box. Except for 2 i ordered individually couple of days ago from the same company. The 11 bottles i get are random picked from types of flavors that i like. Unless i specify a specific flavor/brand.

I just got a call from my advisor. Turns out i got that SAT thing on the website because they actually still havent recieved my high school transcript. So that’s unfortunate.

Any minute now and ill be talking with my pdoc. I'm nervous, waiting rooms do that to me now. I have absolutely no idea how this will go.