Roll Call 105

There's this person I'm friends with on Facebook who always has something to complain about and always asks for money from other people in long, whiny Facebook posts, and then they'll post a picture of the new guitar they bought. Then they posted a status about their dying dog.
No lie, if you're going to freaking lie to people and be a lazy drag on society, just stop existing. Please.

Are you going to flip them on eBay lol? I'm glad you're having a good time!!!

Driving thru the watershed

Looks like a gorgeous place to drive.

I95 is a really pretty route in fall. But I don't have a car.

Yeah, the thing is evenote is so functional, that it quite literally annoyed me that I couldnt use it(paid my subscription). The phone app and desktop app are just fantastic, but , ultimately unusable. Always bugged me..

Have to fill my tank at 4. At the 1 pm break, they were talking about my vape and someone made a joke that I didn't hear (!) and everyone cracked up. I should have asked what he said I guess.

Anyway, this coil that I thought was petering out is now performing like a champ! Easy to draw and producing a good amount of vapor. What was I going to say? Oh, there was a very whittled down number of smokers, due to rain. It was nice.

But the new girl has not been out the past two days. I wonder if they sent her home. I really liked her, she had a really pleasant calming effect.

Just watching Grey’s Anatomy.

My Prozac is back to 2 capsules again today. I think these nurses are killing residents, giving the wrong doses to people of the right or wrong meds. This morning, I went back to ask for Motrin. The nurse was one I haven't seen before. No gloves on her hands. She touched her mouth, her face, and her hair, and then touched the Motrin. What could I do? It's just so gross here. Everyday there's a whole new reason to go EEEWWWWW.

T encouraged me to text my former roommate to ask to hang out. so I did when i was sitting with him

we are gonna go to wing night tonight. im picking her up from her work at 6

i braided my hair into pigtails. its getting too long. its down to my waist now

Had my scope. They gave me drugs to nearly knock me out. I felt a little loopy for a while after but all good now. Ate a bunch of good food.

They say that for 24 hours after you can’t drink, drive, operate power tools, or make any major decisions or sign any legal documents lol.

It's so frustrating to think straight. Especially when it's silent. I hear all sorts of voices back and forth, varying genders, ages, roles, and saying random things in nonsensical ways. I occasionally realize it's actually silent, but then hear this jibber jabber overtake it again. Like, my own thoughts only take up a small percentage of the total noise and voices going on. When I'm being productive I generally listen to music to drown the whole world out, but I still find it difficult to think. I wonder if the chatter is still there, but just blown away by loud music into the background. Anyone here relate?

I can sorta relate. Before meds my head was loud all the time. Now that my meds are straight I don't really hear them anymore.

This place has been quiet the past couple days. Usually we go through about 10 pages a day of roll call. My off work ritual of catching up with everyone is getting cut short now. I'm making an Amazon book list of life changing books I've read. I had to work alone today so I got to listen to my Mistborn audio book. It's just great I'm also almost done watching the four seasons of Battlestar Galactica. I might just rewatch the last season though. It's that good. Tweaky recommended Sense 8, I think I'll give that a try before I do rewatch.

When I was on risperidone my head was quiet too. It's just the side effects were overbearing. Now I find a balance with a lower dose of olanzapine. My depression is lightened up, the side effects are reduced, and delusional thinking isn't as frequent as it was. I can't complain, I give some and I gain some. Life is pretty good all things considered.

For me loud music....specifically Dresden dolls would just block the voices, later I Realized singing either aloud or in my head blocked them......

It's like they have schizophrenia but they're all sharing each others feelings, movements, thoughts, languages and environments around the world.

Eventually they start realizing what's happening to them and use it to their advantage but they can't control it at the same time.

It has been quiet...I know I've been busy at work.....like actually working.

singing really helps me too

Yosemite Sam doesn't like me. I'm not sure why that is. No need to make sense out of the senseless.

It's very hard though, being locked up with these people. It's like Life Boat with Tallulah Bankhead - just stuck out to sea in the middle of nowhere, trapped.

I'll have to pay attention next time I sing...I sing a lot to cope with things. But I don't have the opportunity much because people are around all the time and I'm in apartment.

That's why I sing in my head....you just need to focus your thoughts so you can "hear" your own voice but in a singing way......

Ohhh, I did not think of it that way. I will give that a try!

The bf just left

Ima be alone all weekend