Roll Call 144

Interesting.....why do you think you’re hyper? Like is it a symptom have you just been inside too much lately?

no idea. i think i'm on too much paxil.

Yep that could do it....it’s fun until it isn’t.....

i know. I'm getting good sleep. i've been sleeping less than what i have been during my haldol and zyprexa days. but i'm getting a good 8 to 10 hours.

Maybe you’re just in a good mood?

mmayyyyybe

this has been going on since they've doubled my antidepressant.

What if it’s just working?

probably. donno. i've not felt this good in like ever. i've been chatty Cathy here lately. it feels good... almost too good.

I think I'm going to stay up all night reading and playing videogames

lol don't recommend it but it's your life. i've had those days.

Hi.

Going to start exercising again, worried about gaining weight with the meds, plus I need to anyway

I haven't done it in a long time, but this is the first time I'm able to focus in quite awhile so I want to take advantage of it.

I've grown to dislike sleep also because I have very vivid and horrible/disturbing dreams every night

I support this decision.

i know the feeling. i have ptsd dreams related to my sexual abuse and rape as a child. i take prazosin for nightmares.

I had a dream last night that i was pregnant. I was in labor for 48 hours and birthed an 8 lb baby boy.

I had a dream I was flying a helicopter with the bad police and shooting at people then I crashed into a bridge and the police caught us. What did I learn from this dream? That the police will always catch me.

Newtus learned from her dream that she is now pregnant.

I took the last of my today and when it wore off, I felt very anxious but managed it .. but I couldn't and took 3 ativan.

So I just have to hope that I don't get any more panic attacks again because I'm out of benzo. I could have also been the coffee, vyvanse and energy drink.

What a horrible feeling it is.. and benzo is a horrible feeling too.. like alcohol... i don't like alcohollll

I just want to relax for godz sakes and I'm failing

I make too much eye contact with people when I panic and I don't know what they're saying

I get this a lot
I talk to my therapist all the time about how if I experience something when I'm alone I have no idea if it's real or not
or even when I'm with others I hear people say things that they might not have said. and you can't exactly ask all the time and still have friends lol

I use my phone to record or check boby to see if he is reacting. but even then it's not foolproof

it's very difficult to accept that I can't distinguish reality from my illness. it's probably the worst aspect for me

I cant sleep

Good morning how is everyone?

Knee is slightly better, but I'm still really bloated and swollen. I finally opened my sneakers up more and now I can get them on my feet. No sign of Lasix yet.

I'm really tired. I think I'll take a nap soon.

How are you Blue_Bird? Did you stay up all night?

Hope you can get a nap

No, I fell asleep about an hour after I took my evening meds and slept through the night till 8 in the morning

Oh and I'm doing really well