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I have used the great courses for the past 12 years I believe and those courses nearly got me my scholarship, helped with my symposium, they were just amazing. The trick is to find the right professors though.

Bluebird wants to try them I recommend bit torrenting them for free and I can tell you which professors were the best in my opinion.

I've taken philosophy courses, history courses, psychology, science, nutrition, classical literature, and poetry. Not all professors on the great courses are great, but the few that are good, they are amazing.

I suppose i might sign up for an internship for social media management

I'm in a bad place right now... been having flashbacks about my rape and sexual abuse.

details about my abuse trigger warming...

In the psych ward...was diagnosed with psychotic depression and PTSD -_-; Not gonna go into details on here but I'm in really really bad shape.

Got my Fritos from the SW, and if my friend sees them he'll be upset.

I have got to use a bigger tank. The drag is really good at vaporizing juice and even when it's turned off, seems like it's still evaporating.

It's freezing in my room because of the AC being on. Everytime I turn it off they turn it back on again. Because the person in the first bed thinks it's stuffy. If she opened her curtain it would be less stuffy but that's too sensible.

I'm in another grumpy mood. My hair was matted and it was really hard to get the brush through. I'm going to get my hair cut asap. Maybe just a four inch trim.

I hope everyone is ok.

The geodon is working as much as I want it to. I think it's good to keep a couple symptoms so I realize I can't go off the meds. And those flamin' hot dill pickle potato chips are surprisingly good. Fighting some paranoia today, but I will go for a walk

That's great! Glad the geodon is helping

Regarding your ecig: it shouldnt be evaporating. When u vape it a lot it’s probably soaking into the cotton in the coil. When you vape, each time it dries the coil out a little more and you have to let it soak in it again to the cotton. Which is why sometimes when u vape too much at one time you might get a burnt taste cuz the juice needs to soak into the coil.

The temperature thing would be very frustrating

I'm also going to get my hair cut, next month. It's just annoying to deal with long hair especially in the summer

I finally managed to catch up with my sleep

I had a talk with my dad. He said its usually guys especially in the olden days that would pay most of the bills. Bf and i are having financial problems and he doesnt like that hes paying most of the bills right now. But i only get 1000 a month. He gets 1400 or around there. I only have so much money to pay so many bills.

He doesnt understand that. He thinks i still should be paying half n half for all PLUS all my personal bills like my car insurance and credit card in full. Those 2 alone are 240 a month.

Its very hard on us sometimes. Especially since we lack food most of the month too. We stay hungry every day.

Its hard on me. Hard on him. I chose to talk to my dad this time instead of my mom. It was much better. And my dad actually talked to me this time. My mom wouldve just berated me “oh why arent u doing this and that? Work harder, get a job, take care of your health”. Etc! But its not that simple. She doesnt get it worth crap. IM TRYING to goto therapy so i CAN get a job. Im not even concerned about my health right now. I NEED money.

These delivery jobs....im so sick of them. Because i only get 2-3 order a day IF im lucky. Otherwise its usually just 1 order a day most days, at 8-9 dollars. Then i have to stay on call the rest of the day. Its no use. Itd be different if i was in a more populated area im sure tho.

Another thing is, im going to school soon. Bf knows that. He just says “oh its gonna be a whole nother year”. I didnt want to say this but i was thinking well geez, at least one of us needs a degree! And its true. Otherwise we will be doing this for the rest of our lives and getting nowhere.

Bf doesnt think the relationship is going bad tho so thats good but he did says hes not fully happy. Me neither.

This makes sense. Thanks.

Yes! I'd like to get it all shaved off but I'd look terrible. They might not even allow that here.

HUGS Findingreason HUGS

Hi everybody. What's everyone up to? I'm just at work like normal. Just chilling. Got my work done early so now I'm finding things to do, like catching up on PC. Got my walk in this morning. Drove to the walking park. It's much better walking there than around my neighborhood, plus I don't feel as paranoid, and there aren't crazy dogs biting me or trying to bite me. Plus today I went to Starbucks afterward. Haven't had a Starbucks frappuchino in so long. It was good. Nice for a treat. Hope everyone is okay today. HUGS Kit

Xbox has clubs on it. I recently joined 2 girls clubs and made some friends.

Just got home, spent the day with my friend

I'm up to 17,000 steps today

Great job, I'm only at 11,762!

only steps i've had today was up and down stairs to the fridge to my room. lmao.

****. Not a good day. Been busy as hell.
My daughter is sick as a dog so she was home today.
My son got ducking suspended for 2 days. For fighting. he got involved in a senior bullying a sophomore classmate in shop. The other kid said “I know where you live...I’ll shoot those ****ing dogs”. So my kid proceeded to beat his face *sigh*.

Feels good to relax in bed with my kitties after a long day!

YES! The Rise of Skywalker trailer is out! **** yeah. What a way to start the weekend!

I was just wondering today when the next star wars movies was coming out