Roll Call 152

I'm a bit manic... Bought a ukelele and a guitar yesterday. Still tho, I feel good.

Love ukulele !

I am semi freaking out. Trying to calm my nerves
I woke up w/vicious pain in my left armpit. I didn’t think much of it. Took a shower and shaved. Went to put on deodorant and I almost passed out . Weird. Go to the bathroom and look and I have 3 pretty good sized lumps in my left pit. Check the right and there’s one there too but not painful.
Ignore it....
Brought my daughter to the doc and my put was really hurting.
Ended up going to the stupid walk in because Dr Google is an asshole and told me I had leukemia *smh*
Turns out I have some sort of bacterial skin infection in my pits.
Idk if it’s from cutting myself shaving in the tub at the condo we stayed at or using the life jackets and harnesses...
I just know I feel dirty and disgusting.
I have abx ointment and she told me I can’t shave for 10 days and I shouldn’t sweat...
Umm it’s like 10000000000% humidity but okie no sweating.
Open for pit hair styling suggestions

Sorry you're not feeling well valley, hope it gets better soon I learned a long time ago not to google any symptoms I have because it always basically says I'm dead or dying or should be or have cancer lol

Hi guys. Had T yesterday. Talked a lot about hallucinations and trauma. I dissociated a lot during the session. It was good though I guess. She listened. She received it. She held it. Now if I can release it.

Almost called into work this morning due to migraines (this is day 5 of migraines) but I didn't and it's a good thing too because I needed to reenter some bills and get the paychecks ready to be passed out (pay stubs actually). There was a lot of stuff I needed to do so it's good that I came.

I do it every friggin time and I know better. I went to *some* nursing school for goodness sake. But I do it and then I stress. so stupid

I feel very slow today. I took 10mg of olanzepine yesterday and 50mg Seroquel last night. That's all on top of my Invega injection. I don't feel like doing anything and I'm not thinking much.

Idk if I should get a part time job. I'm thinking of doing some online courses or signing up for a new college course in September.

Not much motivation for me today either. I definitely feel like taking a nap. I can't because I'm at work but I'll probably go to bed early like usual.

Sad, I go to bed earlier now than when I was a kid.

So after 6 days of having a panic attack at around the same time every afternoon I didn't have one today

I just canr for the life of me look pretty.

I came home and my eyeliner was smeared all over my eyes the whole day. My pants were falling off. I wore white socks with black slacks and black shoes. So I looked like michael fckn jackson.

Ugh. Fck. Me.

Waterproof eyeliner and a belt

Braid them I’m sorry you got this, must be hurt and annoying when you move your arms

I’ve been watching how to pack clothes in a bag when traveling

Thank you 12am.

Yes I need different eyeliner. I think the one I used I've had for 10 or more years cuz I stopped wearing makeup after high school. Gawd how embarrassing. I was wondering why people were looking at me funny. I know nothing about makeup as you all can tell.

Af far as a belt, it's hard because my stomach is big. And it immediately cuts off into my waist. Even if I used a belt my pants will fall off. Unless I tightened the belt around my stomach where my belly button is, but then I cant breathe when I sit. And my job is a desk job for the most part.

Idk what to do. I'm trying so so so hard to lose weight and I'm just not losing weight. I have been barely eating for a month now or almost cuz I been too busy to eat. When I do eat I eat one or two things a day. Only have coffee or water too.

I read that u need to be careful if you cut yourself and go in a lake. Open wound in a lake could cause infections.

I’d throw the eyeliner away personally if you have had it for 10 years. It’s not hygienic anymore and it’s even more risky since you put it on a sensitive area like eyes Maybelline has some good waterproof eyeliners that are cheap.

And the belt, maybe only tightened it when you need to move around a lot?

I’m sure you will lose weight by working though. Better eat and sleep schedule also from tiredness.

Get stretch waist pants...you’ll have to order online though I don’t think any stores have them...I don’t mean sweat pants these are jeans or say black pants....

That's what I have. They slide off too.

There are fabric belts you can get, they won't cut into your waist like regular belts

I have a stretchy fabric belt

meehhh

I want this feeling to end

I'm sad because I dont have time to talk to yall anymore.

You'll get into the swing of things and you'll be able to have time soon