Roll Call 156

I completely forgot about the Brooklyn art library thing. It's due before February 2nd i believe.

I've been so busy.

looks like a blizzard outside

I can't really keep up with anyone anymore.

The only 2 people I keep priority is my fiance and my dad. Other than that, I dont really have time for anyone. Wish I did, but it is probably better that I dont. People would get mad with me cuz I called them too much. Even had someone block me from their life and social media because of it. They were petty anyway, and had a lot of issues that they did not even attempt to try to help themselves with.

Anyway.

My break and bakes didn’t break correctly so now I have different sized cookies and will have to wing the cooking time. I’ve never had this issue before....sometimes the simplest things become a pain.

Hopefully you still have time to update us....the change you’ve gone through in the last year has been inspiring....

@newtus I agree with @Sometimes psychotic you are inspiring!

So guess what!!!

I got an event in my location in my fb notifications just now. The art collective here is relaunching their poetry jam night! So ima goto the event and say my poetry!!! Plus their doing live music etc!

Thanks kitty and SP!!!

That sounds fun

I hit my head really hard on the towel hanger thing. That's like the 5th time I hit my head this week. The other day I hit it really hard getting into my case managers car. I hit it on the corner of my cabinet standing up, and I bashed my head into the concrete wall next to my bed super hard when I turned over really fast at night recently. I must be going for like a world record for clumsiness

Be careful bluebird

As per bluebird i have the Xmas music on and Netflix fireplace birch wood edition 😀

I'm about to put mine on and make some tea

Welp, I left my lunchbox at a women's house we're painting. I have 3 empty beer cans in it... So... Yeah, That's not good at all. I have a lot of anxiety because I left it there. I'm very mad with myself right now.

Hopefully they don’t find and open it.....

Work was so stressful for me today. I had a million questions aimed at me a minute in the morning. I was crawling out of my own skin because of it. And once I start my day like that it lasts for the rest of the day. I couldn't eat my lunch in the van so I ate it at the boss' house and there were kids there making crazy sounds jumping all over the place. It just added to my anxiety, and my coworker sits right next to me and ate with his mouth open.

All I could do was put on my head phones and blast the show Breaking Bad on my cell phone using Netflix. It was really hahrd to tune out. He likes to talk at people instead of with people, so it's really frustrating. Plus he is from mexico with a thick accent and I always have to tease out what he has to say. He kept on asing if I saw bad man. I said, no, and he laughed and said, You haven't seen bad man? He wanted to talk about the schizophrenic guy in that movie, He meant BATMAN. And he tells me that the bad man in batman, which I assume is scare crow, that he is schizophrenic.

He thinks im totally insane. If I show a little frustration he thinks im in full on psychosis. Then he tells me not to take my meds. lol right?

Since I can’t make the cake this weekend I’m thinking I’m going to make some white chicken lasagna ...bf loves pasta but can’t eat red sauce or too much red meat....I can just toss most of it in the freezer individually packaged so I can nuke it as needed. Then we can have lasagna and cake if I ever get around to the cake 🍰 I’m afraid I’ll lose motivation as the weeks pass.

I think I left it there.

It wasn't in my car, and it wasn't at my boss's and it wasn't in the van I drove today. So it has to be.

Once I start to feel anxious my memory goes to ****.

That sounds really good. I'm craving baked ziti right now. My sister usually makes that and/or lasagna for Christmas

I rarely tell people about the psychosis anymore they just don’t understand and to be fair I would not have before experiencing it. If anything I mention bipolar but under control with meds.

My short story is going well. It's six, single spaced pages long. It's so nice to take a break and go with the flow.

It's easier for me to start a story than finish it. I think I know how to end it.

It’s been some time since I’ve made lasagna so I’m hoping it works out well because it tends to take forever. Personally I’d prefer the ziti myself, easier and tastier. But I just want to make him something he's missing out on.

I really appreciate short stories more than I used to, they can often have good twists and they’re all action.

Gotta get my poetry ready for the poetry jam! So excited. I wonder if there will be minimal music behind it, like that genre of music called spoken word music. I love the band Listener. They say poems over minimal music, but his ability to put together words into stories is the most amazing thing I've ever heard. They were featured in an emo/hardcore song like 10 years ago.

Have the fiancé video it for you then put it on snap....