Roll Call 168 =)

Yeah it’s like the old days when we had more people

I've always wanted to learn how to crochet , that's a really nice blanket cogladaid

I don’t even know the difference between crochet and knitting someone told me once but memory issues.....

The basic difference between the two is knitting is with two needles, and crochet is with one hook.



The basic crochet stitch and a basic knitting stitch do look different.

Honestly I’ve come to prefer crocheting. You don’t have to hold onto all the stitches on a hook unlike knitting, and it’s much quicker.

I only know simple stitches of each. I just do it really to keep my hands busy while I’m watching tv. I really started back when I was having trouble idly pulling out my hair and it distracted me and I got... dare I say - hooked

My mom taught me how to knit a few years ago and she tried to teach me crochet and I just couldn’t get it. I paid $10 to take a little two hour class at Michaels and it just clicked.

With COVID and all I don’t think there are many opportunities but I know lots of craft stores and stuff should have cheap little introductory classes to teach you how to do it.

Or buy a crochet kit and watch YouTube! It’s a fun hobby. Yarn can get expensive though.

I hate sleeping.

I wish I didn’t have to sleep.

I hope you feel better and have some happy dreams.

I may have to do that, it seems like a great hobby, I was just looking up kits online

Go for it! Get some practice in and you can get yourself some scarves ready for winter.

If you're manic all the time, you don't. Until the crash.

Oh for sure. I’ve never been manic, but I’ve been hypomanic before. For a while a few years ago I would stay up until like 3am or 4am on the computer reading everything or watch live Kpop shows, then get up at 7am like nothing while also starving myself and over exercising

All sounds so familiar...

Ugh. My ex just sent me a picture of my daughter. Poor thing's eczema is just exPLODING on her body, all over her face. It is awful. Feel so bad for her.

I just want to hunker down and write my novel already. Instead of that, I'm just worrying. I wrote a lot today though.

Oh god I'm so disconnected from society. I'm disconnected from everyone and everything.

Edit: It's all just too much information for me to handle. Everything I see, feel, think - The incoming data of reality is so expected at the same time that it happens.. For me.. For my life.

The cynic philosopher really got to me. He explained that reality is fake and now what do I do? I have to pretend that it isn't. I want to go back to not knowing my perception that it is fake - It's completely real for anyone else and if I was someone else, that's where I want to be - With time and change.

There's such terrible unaware people. And I'm kind of lured my Satan. I'm kind of possessed by Satan.. Maybe.. The cynic philosopher is Satanic.

I can't help myself. I try so hard. I'm just trying to stay stable and afloat, yet I try to go beyond myself - To achieve something extreme. Like mania - And I break down spiralling into hell.

There's so many things that I know and I don't judge anyone - But people are ****ed. There's a vibe of energy everywhere that I can't explain. I'm sure that I'm not hallucinating everything because I get clues of logic that tell me otherwise - Of what is real.. But I'm a mystic by nature. I love disconnecting from reality - Doesn't that partially make me a God? A little bit..

I just need help. I don't know why I suffer so greatly - Hopefully it's normal to suffer this much.. Although it would be great if I could get to a point where I realize - Through coincidence and magic that spontaneously, it's not normal to suffer like this.

Well, procrastination got the better of me.

I quit grad school. I have good reasons for quitting. I made a pros and cons list and ultimately decided that I don't need a grad degree, especially in translation, as I can acquire practical experience through other avenues.

Quitting grad school means sending an email. I sent said email.

I hope you are happy with your decision, Asparagae!!

I'm happy with it.

Haha. Others may not be. But it was really just way too much stress for my already-stressed brain to handle.

Oh and best of all: I can actually read what I want to read now!

Good for you.

Listening to mental health songs. Music helps.

Feeling tired and relaxed. I'll be ok.

I am so sorry, Des. Please don't give up. Things will turn around for you. Maybe a sleep will help. I would lay off the ecstasy for now, given how you feel. It might make things worse. Sometimes, folks get pretty anxious on it.

You are a wondrous spirit, Des, and I really treasure what you bring to all of us here. Keep pushing ahead. This will clear. It always does.

Glad you have Mr. Kitty Cat.

Strength and support!!

Going to the grocery store

I am just waiting for an email for a translation I might do.