Roll Call 168 =)

Unless you are in a remote area, the dstributor can get you anything by 3 pm the following day, almost always.

I’m not in a remote area but I’m in Canada and the pharmacy only orders on certain days. Usually it takes a couple days to get in from the manufacturer.

My old boss was an MD, head of the department, rumor has it she just sat and did computer work when she was supposed to be observing the fellows. At least she was there but still.

Funny part is the fellows loved it, the other attendings were kind of micro managers.

It’s fine now with Aleve!

Yea I pretty much write as a career too but no day job so far since being let go from the other. Working on my next book which I think will be a bigger hit than my last AND I will put it on pre-order and get it into stores.

I guess I’ll be going to a creative writing workshop in VR soon.

It’s different when you have a steady source of income.....

Cooking now

My Pss and my dad said they are so proud of me for venturing into this VR stuff. Cuz I told them I thought about hosting a mental health club or like a support group in the AltSpaceVR program.

Not well. But I'll be ok. Just have to keep going.

What’s wrong?

I hope you'll sleep well and wake refreshed.

I don't know. It's always a constant endless net of thoughts that I have to sort out. I don't want to care right now.

I'm super impulsive. The thing is though, that the grad program was bad to start out with. It's just hard to justify how/why I did it for a year and a half though. I think I like it to some degree but now they won't let me back in.

Have you tried a PRN AP?

Don’t be fooled by sunk costs...

Just went to a Metallica concert in Spain.

Omg bf would love this thing too...he loves all the metal from like 80s etc.

Ok so I double checked the lab and they got the right one this time.

They ordered a Differential and Total WBC Count

That’s great news falcon

It was live and it was free! Haha! Get him one! Haha we all should get one on pc and meet up in VR. Lol. That’d be cool.

I just told him about it...he says super cool.

Would love to meet you all VR.

I take one 5mg olanzepine and one zopiclone to sleep every night. I've been doing that for a week - That's basically why I'm not any bit psychotic. I'm not dependent on benzos anymore.

I've been self medicating with phenibut for depression for a year. I took 1.1g but still don't feel happy. I'm tolerant to 1g or so a day, then go down to 500mg. I took an extra 600mg right now because I can benefit from a type of hypomania to be myself and use it to my advantage.

I used to be a complete logical atheist - With zero spirituality at all. It's like a form of stupidity. Then I became psychotic where I had magical thinking and then I tripped. It's just a long realization of the matrix. I had no proof of it because I was completely brainwashed by society, school etc.

I'm tired.

I kinda meant have you had the olanzapine tonight, you said something about too many thoughts....the APs keep my thoughts more hmm linear?

If I had enough money, I’d send you all VR headsets. You know I would too.

It’s a nice thought...and it’s always the thought that counts anyway....