Roll Call 168 =)

Erti · Jun 22, 2020, 09:49 PM

I am back from a long day of the Columbus zoo.

cogladaid · Jun 22, 2020, 09:53 PM

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I am back from a long day of the Columbus zoo.

Oooh sounds fun!

Erti · Jun 22, 2020, 09:53 PM

for some reason the kids are still awake while most of us "adults" are asleep.

Sometimes psychotic · Jun 22, 2020, 09:58 PM

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I am back from a long day of the Columbus zoo.

What a great zoo...did you see the polar cub kulu?

Pics?

Erti · Jun 22, 2020, 10:03 PM

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What a great zoo...did you see the polar cub kulu?

Pics?

it is a good zoo. It was a little hot today but I try to keep myself in the shade. We didn't see the polar bears this time. We have a zoo pass for the year so we can go whenever we want. I want to go to the water park that is open with the zoo.

newtus · Jun 22, 2020, 10:10 PM

So apples next update is getting widgets and multitasking like android, FINALLY! That was one of the reasons I went android for a year was the multitasking. Actually the ONLY reason. No reason to switch away from Apple now with iOS 14 coming this fall! Whole bunch of other goodies too!

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2020, 10:20 PM

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I kinda meant have you had the olanzapine tonight, you said something about too many thoughts....the APs keep my thoughts more hmm linear?

I feel like I'm not in tune with antipsychotics right now - Like I'm not aware of their zombie effects.

In the past, I'd knock myself out with 8mg of risperidone due to agitated mania/psychosis (I know now this is very dangerous because of neuroleptic malignant syndrome) which would help for 2-3 days and then I'd do it again.

But then I was prescribed (3mg?) in the hospital in 2017 and I've never felt so terrible. I had zero thoughts and emotions.

I think of the olanzepine like a benzo. I notice that the mind state on how you view the medication or even expectations of the effects can alter how you react.. Such as pain sensitivity, awareness of self, the external environment such as the world, amount of paranoia, etc.. I've built a tolerance because I haven't taken olanzepine in about 6 months until the injection was lowered and I took 7.5-10mg on Christmas of 2019 - It made my psychosis completely go away - I wasn't scared of the comedy on TV and could laugh again.. But I needed to lie down and eventually fell asleep.

Erti · Jun 22, 2020, 10:48 PM

I'm scared of going to sleep. I fear of not waking up.

bpcyclist · Jun 22, 2020, 10:59 PM

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My old boss was an MD, head of the department, rumor has it she just sat and did computer work when she was supposed to be observing the fellows. At least she was there but still.

Funny part is the fellows loved it, the other attendings were kind of micro managers.

Sounds familiar.

bpcyclist · Jun 22, 2020, 11:05 PM

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I am back from a long day of the Columbus zoo.

That is supposed to be an awesome zoo!! Jealous!

bpcyclist · Jun 22, 2020, 11:08 PM

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I'm scared of going to sleep. I fear of not waking up.

Why? Do you get panic attacks?

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2020, 11:09 PM

I'm feeling better that I think I should celebrate and have an introverted party by myself

newtus · Jun 23, 2020, 12:12 AM

I feel sad idk why

bpcyclist · Jun 23, 2020, 12:16 AM

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I feel sad idk why

Sorry, newtus. What about a movie or a show or some other distraction type of thing? Someitmes, I just go to bed early, when I feel like that. Hope you feel better soon!!

newtus · Jun 23, 2020, 12:29 AM

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Sorry, newtus. What about a movie or a show or some other distraction type of thing? Someitmes, I just go to bed early, when I feel like that. Hope you feel better soon!!

Thanks. I have a lot I could do right now. I’m tired and sad, but I can’t sleep.

I goto therapy tomorrow and I just need to be upfront with her about things. She’s been trying to put me down as having DID and it’s just not so. And I’m sure the past 7 or so doctors and 15 or so hospital discharge papers, that diagnosed me as having schizophrenia, would disagree with her, heavily.

I hate when people try to misguide me to another direction than what is actually going on. Cuz yet again this disorder has proved me wrong this past week if I was ever in denial about it for any second.

bpcyclist · Jun 23, 2020, 12:45 AM

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Thanks. I have a lot I could do right now. I’m tired and sad, but I can’t sleep.

I goto therapy tomorrow and I just need to be upfront with her about things. She’s been trying to put me down as having DID and it’s just not so. And I’m sure the past 7 or so doctors and 15 or so hospital discharge papers, that diagnosed me as having schizophrenia, would disagree with her, heavily.

I hate when people try to misguide me to another direction than what is actually going on. Cuz yet again this disorder has proved me wrong this past week if I was ever in denial about it for any second.

Why is she fixated on DID, do you think? Just becuase you dissociate? Plenty of people do that and do not have DID, at least, I think so...

WastingAsparagus · Jun 23, 2020, 12:51 AM

I am happy again. The director of my program is awesome and is letting me back into the program. I am going to finish this degree!

WastingAsparagus · Jun 23, 2020, 12:52 AM

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