[Typo]

I hear things, I see things that aren't there. I jump from one disillusion to another in a manner of weeks. This has been going on for two years now and it just keeps getting worse and worse. I relized how bad it was when the other night in the shower I curled up in a ball and started crying because I was convinced that someone was waiting on the other side of the shower curtain to kill me. I'm tired all the time because I stay up all night arguing with myself and thinking. I'm so unfocused at school because I'm trying my hardest not to blank out or show any signs that something is wrong. I'm convinced that everyone is out to get me and that my parents can see and hear everything I do to the point I hardly talk to myself in my room becase I am conviced they have microphones in there. My grades are slipping and I don't know how I'll survive in college if things keep progressing the way they do. I can't keep living like this I am so allinated from everyone and afriad of everything. I just want to get better and quite hearing theses damn voices. I just want to be able to tell what is real and what isn't I just don't know where to turn for help or how to let people know I need help. Anyone have any suggestions???

[Kaliphoon]

Try to get your family to help you get a doctor. I needed help because of phones/doctors... Ask someone in your family to come with.

Hopefully they will know a doctor personally that is reasonable. But don't be afraid to switch doctors a few times, but give em a chance.

It will get worse... start to get it fixed.

Until you see a doctor, AVOID jumping into philosophy and religion to see the source or solution... this isn't the time. This isn't something you can "talk" through, its a brain chemistry issue.

[curiousone]

Hi Silversparrow,
Hang in there. You are brave. I know how hard it can be, especially going to school and going through all these symptoms. Have you seen a phychiatrist yet? I think that would be your bet or tell your doctor what you are going through. As for college, I think most colleges help people who have mental issues. Perhaps you could tell a guidance counsellor what you are going through and see if they can do anything to help you out. I hope that helps you in some way.

Your pretty much exactly where I where I am right now, other than I dont go to school right now. Im guessing you werent diagnosed with anything, but you are starting to realize that something is wrong with you. Im the same with that too, I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago bt I know I have psychosis but I just havent been diagnosed yet, because I havent been to a doctor. I try to hide my problems most the time but its not working out too well.

I think you should probably tell your family about some of it and go see a doctor or counselor or something.

[Typo]

Thanks for all the advice..it's helping me build up the courage to tell my parents I need help..it's just really hard for me to admit I have a problem and it's hard for me to realize that I have a problem. I'm so scared that if I tell my parents they'll absoultly freak or just not deal with it like they have in the past with other things. Heck how do you go up to your parents and tell them that you dealing with something like this???

[clskrock]

I agree you should talk to your family. Hopefully they will be understanding. Tell them what you are experiencing. Medications can help with the voices. It has mine. Tell them you need medical help.