Roll Call 172

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Need to be in present moment now ommm

You may not know.. But these little things I cognitively do means I'm getting better... from negative symptoms.

It's definitely the exercise and heat. I took zero drugs just meds

My mom isn't drinking and her heart didn't stop on the hike.....

But I have to sleep now cuz work in the morning. I might go for another hike tomorrow.

I want to thank everyone for supporting me today. Feeling better. I decided no secret agents are after me. Was maybe a little bitty bit psychotic. Also now thinking maybe God didn't damn me to hell. Maybe I was just psychotic again.

Hugs.

Did you get some sleep?

Yeah, 4 and a-half hrs straight thru, so great. Made myself do 26 miles on the bike. Sposed to help my depression. Super tired still, but not psychotic any more.

Thanks, Des!!

I’m scared to take the metformin

I love all the cat groups I'm a member of on Facebook, seeing everyone's cats and cat memes makes me so happy

Getting stuff to make crispy buffalo chicken tender wraps at the grocery store.

Listening to music with my new headphones.

I thought i was going to have to buy a new laptop because it slipped off the bed and fell pretty hard. After that it wouldn't charge, but it's just the power block.

My anhedonia is pretty bad today. I really can't seem to feel anything even after 2 beers. I just keep zoming out like a zombie. I can't help it. I did feel a bit pleasant yesterday at lunch.

In good news, I found a migraine headache med that actually works! Excedrine extreme. I ****ed up and had 3 pints at work. Now i know my limit and a cure. I've taken tylenol and that didin't work, and ibuprofen didn't work, but excedrine has tylenol asperine and caffiene. I wonder if it was the asperine...

I few people bought my book!

Got my Chinese food

spent most of my morning pacing because of akathisia, not sure if this is because of the clozaril or geodon

Got off work. Worked for 4.5 hours. I love this job.

Addiction update;

- On 350mg of phenibut (Half of what it was).
- Trying to go 2 weeks without any benzo (On day 3 I took 1/4 (2.5mg) of a diazepam. It's been two days since then.. So basically 5 days without a benzo !)
- I don't think I'm taking any other drugs? Nicotine gum and coffee..
- My last cigarette was on August 6th of 2019.
- Stopped taking Ashwagandha because it makes my OCD symptoms much worse.
- Taking all meds (Invega Sustenna, olanzepine, Vyvanse, zopiclone, atenolol, minocycline).
- Taking vitamin C, D and a fish oil every day.
- Not taking psilocybe microdose cuz dealing with depersonalization every night.
- My mom hasn't drank alcohol in over a week.

My sister ordered me a smart watch with my money. The one I picked has the lighter colored band. And also that planner and a yoga set

Is it an Apple Watch?

I'd love a watch but my job would ruin it. Looks sharp!

I don’t know, I don’t think so though

Still looks pretty darn cool!!!

scared to take meds tonight

Idk if it was the guac add on or what but just had the best nachos bell grande ever......

So he either comes out early and sits near me in the lobby, or comes out late and we see each other from our respective rooms. It isn't a big deal. It's ok.

When I saw him after the three month quarantine his eyes looked wild. Took some time for him to come out of it.

I lost my list of tv channels again. I only watch 31 or 22.

called php after hours number, they're gonna tell the doc about akathisia

He wants me to stop the Geodon, take 100mg of clozaril tonight and 300 tomorrow morning

wait I misunderstood. 100mg tonight to = 300mg.

Take 300mg total tomorrow