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#126
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my heart hurts. These kids are like blood. I love these kids. They call me... they'll say "i want daddy" " i want mommy" " i want Jessica"... I wanna come with you... don't let them take me away. I miss you. I love you.
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#127
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There's literally 10,000 possibilities that I can think about of what I can do with my life.
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![]() bpcyclist, SlumberKitty
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#128
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Go see them.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#129
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A musician couple has come. I gave one my dads guitar and it was amazing.
They're playing outside now and everyone's drinking. I put a benzo under my tongue cuz it makes me anxious and I'm tapering phenibut. I'm just exhausted. I'm still annoyed by my mom - I have to talk to her about things but she's ignoring me and I'm afraid that she will die suddenly. |
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#130
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cant because CPS. We're only allow supervised visits.
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#131
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#132
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#133
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I feel like every time I read or do spiritual stuff on YouTube or wherever, I just start getting all in my head and I cannot escape from negative thoughts. I don't know why this is...
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#134
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Negative thoughts about spirituality?
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#135
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Yeah I guess. It's almost like my brain breaks and I cannot focus on anything else. Like I cannot do anything productive or anything when I have these negative thoughts about spirituality. I guess I still have a lot to discover about myself.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#136
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U become obsessed with spiritual issues? I do.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#137
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Yes, for sure. That definitely happens to me. Now I feel kind of depressed. Well, at least I'm seeing a new pdoc tomorrow. I still cannot decide whether or not to do online therapy or just to see my regular therapist twice a week. I agonize about every decision in my life.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#138
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How about just focusing on the new pdoc fist. One issue at a time.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#139
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No sleep happenin'.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#140
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Hugs bpcyclist.......I got a solid four hours so far but even broken sleep is a bad sign for me.....
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#141
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Up late watching a movie
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#142
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Bad baaaaad things happened tonight. What a ****ing **** show.
I might be moving in with my brother later in time. Things are ok. I'mma take zopiclone and zyprexa and sleep........................................................................................................................................................................... hopefully get more than two zz's |
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#143
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Zero sleep. Albert wants to party and sun up. Oh well.
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When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#144
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Taking the bus to the grocery store later. Then hopefully I'll have enough energy after I get back to walk to the pharmacy and pick up one of my meds. If not I'll just go tomorrow. Just drinking some coffee now.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#145
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Quote:
Hey bluebird do you know any good books set during Halloween ![]()
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#146
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Quote:
Halloween Book Lists
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#147
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I enjoyed the Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman. And the Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#148
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I can't wait until Saturday but I have so much going on on Saturday. Taking Esther to the vet, T appointment, Eye doctor appointment. Plus it's my six month anniversary of my hospitalization and six months of no SH. I'm pretty sure my Dad will do something for that.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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#149
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Got my shopping done. About to get on the bus to go home. Only took me like 15 minutes in the store cause I only had a few items. Used self checkout.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#150
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Quote:
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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