Roll Call 182

My username is randomly generated.

I just suck at focusing lately. I just have so much trouble. My exam is next Sunday and I don't feel ready at all. No matter how much coffee, Monster, and diet Coke I drink I can't bring myself to focus on studying.

My mind is too busy.

And I'm annoying the **** out of everyone around me complaining about it. I'm annoying myself.

I like your username.

I love asparagus. So don't waste it!

Eating disorder talk slight...



I feel these meds aren't helping. What's the point of them. They're ruining my brain my thoughts.

Don't worry, I won't stop them. I can't. I'm being monitored to make sure I take them.

I like asparagus as well. I guess the thought of wasting it is not a good one.

I think people are after me. People at work hate me. The drugs are starting to mask it but I know what's real. I'm being forced to take the meds that I know are poison. I hate it. No one understands they call me delusional. My brain is working overtime and I can't focus... That's what's going on.

Bought a slice of pizza from the pizza place down the road.

I also used an ATM successfully. It's been years since I've used one and I forgot how they work, it was a little confusing but I eventually got it.

its me lol

i downloaded tapatalk and signed in and i guess i signed in to a really old account from 2009

Ooh what kind of pizza?

Just a big slice of cheese New York style pizza

The comedian Tom Segura compared sex to the first time a person eats melted cheese. Says sex is that good.

I stay away from food and cooking shows. Cuz who the hell doesn’t get hungry watching them b1tch1s

were gonna have an easter/birthday dinner. Ham, broccoli casserole, deviled eggs, mac and cheese and sourdough rolls!!!!!!!!!!!!! im excited!!!

they discovered that eating cheese activates the same receptors in a human brain that cocaine does lol

I love cooking shows. I find them relaxing. Sometimes scripted shows are just too stressful (especially now when they write in real life events like COVID). I think they're good escapism.

Part of me wishes I never got this promotion. Yeah, more money and less work stress, but I've been a mess since I got it.

****.

I wish I was stable again.

Yum! Tomorrow we're having lamb, and broccolini, and idk what else.

I bought some matcha green tea powder. Gonna try making a matcha latte sometime

I'd make a blog to vent all my thoughts but I worry someone I know will find it and figure out it's me. Sometimes I worry people are going to figure out who I am on here. I think it would hurt my career if people knew.

I mean, people already hate me at work. It would just give them an excuse if they knew what was up with me...

I thought about making a YouTube channel but I don’t know probably not

I feel so downtrodden right now

I haven't really got any studying done. What a waste.

I just made a tiktok

I been using TikTok as a little tiny video diary. Alternative to YouTube. I’m apart of the mental health Tik tok community.