Roll Call 191

Cool…I got to swim with the manatees, one surfaced under me and totally scared me though, lol.

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Good Luck with the T today desoxyn….let us know how it goes.

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It's national meatball day. My local ice cream/convenience shop just shared a pic of their meatball subs on Facebook, looks so good. I might get one sometime. I've been craving a meatball sub like crazy. I almost bought some frozen meatballs when I was at the grocery store yesterday, maybe I'll get them next time I go

The frozen meatballs are great for subs all you need is bread cheese and red sauce…..

Thx!

I had a long 13 hour sleep.. Mind foggy - Not sure what to say. I'll wait an hour to see if the Vyvanse/coffee turns any gears.

I'll ask my mom too on what to say.

Awesome, SP!

It's snowing heavily right now

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I got a replacement remote for my TV, so I can play videogames and watch movies on my Xbox One X finally since I can actually control the volume now. I really don't know why I took 3 years to buy a new one. I lost the original remote or accidentally threw it away when I moved to this apartment. Now I can actually hear what I'm playing or watching

Therapist has a sore throat so it's cancelled (COVID is going around - My mom listed 6 people at the top of her head that tested positive at her work). I will try for Monday. My mom said that she might come with me.

I feel cognitively impaired. I was calm, but then I searched again on how to make another Monero (XMR) coin account and it's frustrating lol... Maybe cuz I'm putting so much pressure on myself - It is the Bitcoin of privacy coins.. Cuz with all the **** that's happening with the war etc/Russian financial system, censorship... My mind is full, full of incomplete topics.

I feel like such a loser sometimes.


I'm not saying that so you all will tell me that I am not a loser. It's this darn illness. It messes with you.


I decided long ago that I wouldn't be having children because it wasn't fair to the children to have a Mom that is this unstable. Even though I would love the children more than life itself. But a bunch (like 4) of my cousins have been or are having babies within like 6 months. 5 new babies (two were twins)! I have a baby shower to go to on Saturday. I don't want to go but my Mom can't go alone. It's at night and she doesn't do well driving at night. And she has memory issues. While I am happy for this cousin (and maybe a little jealous because she already has everything) I am unhappy for me and that's so selfish of me and plus I chose this (plus life kind of chose this because I never found the right man to get with to have babies). I'm sad and grieving and feel the loss. I don't know. I just feel like a loser today. It sucks. I want to SH to get rid of the feelings but I know ultimately that won't help. Just sucks. I suck.

Take my hand to get out of that swirling hell! - We will go do something fun!

No but.. You'd be a good mother - Intention matters, to do your best. 100% of people have some inherited genetic horror at some point in their life.

Mental illness doesn't get in the way of things (As long as you're stable for an amount of time). Newtus for example.. We have many things to teach - It's just a different experience.

There is still time.. And if there isn't, that's OK too. Some people just don't find the right partner. There's many bad things happening though rn.. So maybe it could be in your favour to not.

In 1-3 years, the world possibly will be in 100x more decay. It's all decisions.. We all make.. But we are adaptable creatures/organisms.

Thanks, Desoxyn!

((Hugs)) SK!

Phenibut withdrawal. I took 700mg today. Lots of schizophrenia negative symptoms resurfacing. But I'm gonna push through it this time.

If I fail, I'll ask my psychiatrist about pregabalin to help phase it out.

Sorry SK, hope you feel better

Happy about this

Hugs des….sorry you’re forced to wait….

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I'm debating making 3 ingredient peanut butter cookies. If I make them I can't really eat them until tomorrow. It's just I don't know if I want a whole batch of cookies around house tempting me over the next few days, it makes around 25 cookies

Hugs SK….I chose not to have kids too but I just don’t have the temperament or the genetics for it. I know it’s not the same but I know you’ve got kitties that love and rely on you.

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Congrats bluebird!

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I usually freeze baked goods if I don’t want to eat them immediately…a lot of cookies can be frozen in dough balls and then thawed and baked later…might be a good experiment to run with your famous pb cookies.

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Thanks! I just looked this up and it's in the info section on the same recipe

"Can you freeze peanut butter cookies?
You can freeze the baked cookies for up to 3 months. Place them on a baking sheet in the freezer until they are completely frozen. Then transfer them to freezer bags or an airtight container. To reheat the frozen cookies, bake in a 350°F oven for 5 minutes, or until until warmed through.

Or, you can make the peanut butter cookie dough ahead of time, wrap tightly in plastic wrap, and freeze. When ready to bake, allow the dough to thaw in the fridge until you’re ready to form and bake the cookies."

Thanks SP. Yes, I have Amelia and Helen, and Helen is starting to be quite the snuggler at times when I can get her out of her cat condo! She loves that thing! Also, I have my Compassion International kiddos that I sponsor too. One of them, little 7 year old Maxime from Burkina Faso, calls me Mum. That helps. But it's not like I get to hold him in my arms and read to him, and rock him to sleep and watch over him as he grows. I do get to write him letters and I get pictures that he draws back and letters from him too. I have 14 children that I sponsor from 9 countries, so I am blessed that way. I just am not blessed to have my own. Sometimes this mental illness is like a curse!

This sounds like a good idea! I know I am itching to make some Dabo bread soon. I ordered new Pampered Chef pans to bake it in!

Awesome! I don't believe I've ever had Dabo bread

I do want to learn how to bake bread eventually though

I'm considering getting an air fryer soon, those things seem like they can do so much and you can make really good food in them