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Old Mar 21, 2022, 10:21 AM
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Was gonna do 1 hour in the treadmill but only managed 45 minutes. Will try for an hour tomorrow

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Old Mar 21, 2022, 10:22 AM
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So I’ve gotta see the doctor again today…I was in so much pain last night.
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Old Mar 21, 2022, 10:27 AM
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So I’ve gotta see the doctor again today…I was in so much pain last night.

I really hope you feel better soon

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I have some cleaning to do. Need to go grocery shopping but gonna do it tomorrow instead of today. Wednesday I have an appointment with my psychiatrist.

I made my next dental appointment since they said to schedule two, so I have one on May 6th and one on May 9th. I’ll have more appointments after those.

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Old Mar 21, 2022, 12:30 PM
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If I keep it up I should be out of the overweight bmi zone by August. Then maybe 7 more months after that I’ll reach my goal.

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Old Mar 21, 2022, 01:41 PM
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I feel euphoria

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Old Mar 21, 2022, 01:53 PM
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So went to doc….they said not a uti…probably a kidney stone……supposed to be super painful like childbirth…..suckage……called to get an ultrasound and the hospital said they didn’t do that kind so the dr needed to change it which delays things further. Alternative possibility some sort of ovarian cyst or cancer so I’ve gotta get a gyno appointment but the earliest was next Wednesday like next week not in two days.
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Old Mar 21, 2022, 01:57 PM
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So went to doc….they said not a uti…probably a kidney stone……supposed to be super painful like childbirth…..suckage……called to get an ultrasound and the hospital said they didn’t do that kind so the dr needed to change it which delays things further. Alternative possibility some sort of ovarian cyst or cancer so I’ve gotta get a gyno appointment but the earliest was next Wednesday like next week not in two days.
I hope it's just kidney stones and not anything else. I had some really bad kidney stones as a teen. They hurt so bad to the point of making me physically sick, and they wouldn't come out so I had to get a lithotripsy done (a procedure done under anesthesia) to get them out, then had a stent put in. I hope if you have them they pass quickly

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I told my doctor that I was sui and I hate him so I drank a lot of alcohol

My mom screwed me up. I screwed me up. She's a hypocrite. I've been doing good and trusted. I wish I could be trusted.

I am nothing. But I have memories of being something. And they all cut it out of my body like removing my heart and it's just a bloody mess.
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Old Mar 21, 2022, 02:54 PM
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I told my doctor that I was sui and I hate him so I drank a lot of alcohol

My mom screwed me up. I screwed me up. She's a hypocrite. I've been doing good and trusted. I wish I could be trusted.
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An ex boyfriend of mine from High School and I have been talking for the past several months. He’s stationed in Kansas and also going to Poland soon or something (in the military) anyway, he is going to come here to visit me when he gets back

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I think it might be time to get over my fear of relationships and start dating again. I haven’t been in a relationship since I was 18 years old and now I’m 27.

We dated when we were like 15 or 16 and I don’t think either of us was mature enough or ready for a relationship back then

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Old Mar 21, 2022, 03:24 PM
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I think it might be time to get over my fear of relationships and start dating again. I haven’t been in a relationship since I was 18 years old and now I’m 27.

We dated when we were lol 15 or 16 and I don’t think either of us was mature enough or ready for a relationship back then

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I told my doctor that I was sui and I hate him so I drank a lot of alcohol

My mom screwed me up. I screwed me up. She's a hypocrite. I've been doing good and trusted. I wish I could be trusted.

I am nothing. But I have memories of being something. And they all cut it out of my body like removing my heart and it's just a bloody mess.

Are you ok? Talk to us?

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Hugs….what did you doc say?
He said he knows that if I'm in complete danger of self, I know that I can come in and tell him - And it's true.

Don't worry, am OK.

I just needed a small escape/little more dopamine. I feel better. I've been getting slightly paranoid lately (Could be THC) but I haven't smoked in a few days now.

<3 I hope you'll be OK SP. Hopefully it's just a kidney stone. If not, the thing can still be treated.
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Are you on Disability or have you considered it?
Yeah I've considered it before. Not sure if it's for me. Probably is. Honestly. I mean I have so much trouble when I get really messed up mental-health wise.
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Yeah I've considered it before. Not sure if it's for me. Probably is. Honestly. I mean I have so much trouble when I get really messed up mental-health wise.
I've just "powered through it" in the past. I am starting to wonder if that's a bad strategy.
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Old Mar 21, 2022, 03:56 PM
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Yeah I've considered it before. Not sure if it's for me. Probably is. Honestly. I mean I have so much trouble when I get really messed up mental-health wise.
The reason I asked is that’s the path you’re taking if you quit everything from work to grad school. If things are that severe then you should consider it, that’s what it’s there for. But your thesis doesn’t have a hard timeline so why not take a break or just set two hours a day to work on it or something? For you things seem cyclic to me. Take a break and try again later?
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He said he knows that if I'm in complete danger of self, I know that I can come in and tell him - And it's true.

Don't worry, am OK.

I just needed a small escape/little more dopamine. I feel better. I've been getting slightly paranoid lately (Could be THC) but I haven't smoked in a few days now.

<3 I hope you'll be OK SP. Hopefully it's just a kidney stone. If not, the thing can still be treated.
Ok….glad you’re okayish….we’re always here if talking will help.
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The reason I asked is that’s the path you’re taking if you quit everything from work to grad school. If things are that severe then you should consider it, that’s what it’s there for. But your thesis doesn’t have a hard timeline so why not take a break or just set two hours a day to work on it or something? For you things seem cyclic to me. Take a break and try again later?
That's a good point. I know things are cyclical for me, that's why I didn't take any action towards quitting school. At least in the past year and a half I haven't quit school, which is a good thing. If I could take the whole work thing off the table for now, I think I'd be able to focus on my thesis.

Anyway, that's a full-time job in and of itself. Anyone who says it's not is lying.

I just think there's all this pressure on me to work and go to school and that's really causing me a whole lot of stress.

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That's a good point. I know things are cyclical for me, that's why I didn't take any action towards quitting school. At least in the past year and a half I haven't quit school, which is a good thing. If I could take the whole work thing off the table for now, I think I'd be able to focus on my thesis.

Anyway, that's a full-time job in and of itself. Anyone who says it's not is lying.

I just think there's all this pressure on me to work and go to school and that's really causing me a whole lot of stress.

Anyway, thanks for your post. I do appreciate it.
Also part of it is the meds. Whenever I go down on Klonopin I get SEVERE anxiety.
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I think I'm going to be optimistic from now on. As long as I'm only in a mild-moderate burning hell lol

But no.. It's just my mind. I have a good life. I just need to figure things out.
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That's a good point. I know things are cyclical for me, that's why I didn't take any action towards quitting school. At least in the past year and a half I haven't quit school, which is a good thing. If I could take the whole work thing off the table for now, I think I'd be able to focus on my thesis.

Anyway, that's a full-time job in and of itself. Anyone who says it's not is lying.

I just think there's all this pressure on me to work and go to school and that's really causing me a whole lot of stress.

Anyway, thanks for your post. I do appreciate it.

Oh I didn’t realize you were working again….I basically took off a month to write mine.

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Oh I didn’t realize you were working again….I basically took off a month to write mine.

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