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#301
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#302
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#303
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Abilify can do that……I used to never go out too. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#304
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Treadmill isn’t working. Sucks. Gonna have to wait till Tuesday (Monday’s a holiday) to see if maintenance can check it out and see what’s wrong with it. Guess I’ll just do my weights and resistance bands exercises for the next couple days.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#305
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It’s weird because I’ve been on this dose for a long time. Well over 3 or 4 months. Strange that it would kick in or something now Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#306
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So I had an ultrasound of my abdomen and my gallbladder looks fine, but my liver is fatty and they couldn’t see my pancreas in the scan. I have to have a CT scan anyway at end of August so going to add on abdomen CT to the list for that day. And get sent to a liver doctor soon as well.
And I have an appointment in early August with the gastroenterologist to follow up because it’s been like five years since I was diagnosed with celiac and just want to make sure everything is still good. Until I hear from someone or it’s August I just have to continue on with no alcohol, low fat diet (I’ve discovered fried food, high fat food, and full fat dairy make me feel sick). Lots of black coffee can help liver apparently too. It can be frustrating at times and I’ve had some disordered eating thoughts and feelings resurface but I’m getting there. I know I’m overweight which apparently got me into this mess and need to lose weight. I’ve lost close to 15lbs so far just cutting out fatty foods and alcohol. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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#307
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What is the difference between psychotic depression and schizoaffective disorder?
I discovered that I got diagnosed with both disorders at the age of 20 when I read my medical records in February. I highly doubt these diagnoses were correct, since I was on a lot of medication at the time. My "psychotic" symptoms resolved when I stopped all medications. I believe I had mild delirium caused by the 3 medications I was taking. I suspect this because I stopped all medications and fully recovered that same year. Also at the age of was 26, I was treated for first episode psychosis. That illness was very different than what I experienced previously. How common it is to get a psychiatric diagnosis based on medication side effects?
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Dx: Didgee Disorder |
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#308
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So there’s an immediate response from the med, then there is always the possibility that your brain changes it regulation later….that’s why sometimes you can taper off and things seem fine for a while but not forever.
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#309
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With psychotic depression, on the other hand, the depression and psychosis are simultaneous. That's at least what I've gleaned from being diagnosed with both at some point as well.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#310
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There's extremely loud fireworks going off outside and it's scaring my cats, especially Maybelle
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#311
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Everything seems according to plan.. I feel good. I basically quit phenibut CT yesterday but I take a small amount before sleeping. I had sleep paralysis last night for some reason. It was quite horrifying - but I was safe physically. I had to allow the vicious demon dog to sink its fangs into my feet (It took a couple of tries but I managed to wake up).
I took 2x 15mg Dexedrine today - Somewhat productive (I think I'd prefer 2x 10mg instead but a little extra short term isn't dangerous). I've been much more mindful of my thoughts, feelings and actions lately.. Breaking habits.. At work, I accept that I'm not going to feel like talking every day, that some days are bad and that I'll just have to accept it. No heart palpitations, dissociation, panic attacks, paranoia - So it's good.. I'm grateful for many things and how far I've come. I can't complain compared to how I used to be. I just need to stop freaking out about the end of the world. I've been listening to some podcasts recently when I haven't felt like doing that in a few months.. Happiness = Hearing interesting conversations.. I feel like continuing to read books as well. I have like ~20 people that I pick and choose to learn from + finding more every day... I have to sort out my priorities, goals, dreams and such.. I said to myself that I would start that today but instead I felt like going in blindly again. I started off by making 1-2 goals every day.. I'll still continue to do that because it made a good foundation to rehabilitating myself. My dad came to visit for the day before he goes back to Mexico (He'll be back in a month). My parents weren't fighting, my mom is happier with her job after getting some things sorted out.. Her new lump still has to be checked.. |
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#312
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Created a fundraiser for my birthday on FB to raise money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma society, my mom passed away from Leukemia 6 years ago so it means a lot, I don’t know if anyone will donate but if they do it will be for a good cause. My sister probably will donate, I invited her/sent her a link. I will donate to it next week when I can.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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#313
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I figured out that I need instrumental music going when I study or work. Music with lyrics and singing is just too distracting.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#314
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Does anyone else's brain not allow them to watch TV or movies? I just have this block when it comes to TV shows or movies. It's as if that part of my brain that used to be able to focus on TV or movies has been removed.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#315
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I'm worried about the sting sensation in my heart - I hope it goes away ****!.. its always something. My greatest fear is no stim😭
Yknow that pain that can happen where you can't breathe in and then it goes away? I did that last night - But breathed IN.. then it pains on and off ever since. Apparently you can't feel heart pain because the nerves are at the centre of the chest. For me, it's to my left of my chest. |
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#316
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The sharp heart pain went away after I had a shower.. Hmm..
Good thing my last cigarette was 3 years ago |
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#317
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Saw top gun maverick this morning at 10:30am to reduce the Covid risk…..it was good, straight out of the 80s, bf loved it.
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#318
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I only watch movies if it's with someone else - And I've been alone for decade. Weed helps me to immerse myself into videos but I'm trying the 2x Dexedrine to see if it can replace. Oh no... deja vu.. |
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#319
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I really don’t enjoy tv anymore….and I can’t do anything violent like darker video games and such. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#320
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Yeah I think I just don't like TV. I like books and other things instead. Movies are too much of a time commitment too. Ha.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#321
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#322
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#323
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I don't know if it's from sugar withdrawal or what but I feel very agitated tonight, and emotional for some reason
Maybe it's lack of good sleep. I've only been able to sleep 4-5 hours a night, sometimes less, the past several days.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#324
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I was OK for an hour - Then I started feeling anxious. I'm only taking 1x Dexedrine instead of 2x from now on (I said that yesterday but was feeling better today so I thought it would be okay) + the phenibut withdrawal could be potentiating it. I took olanzepine, atenolol, clonazepam.
Christ I messed up. I just wanted to focus more and read etc.. Can't do that while anxious. |
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#325
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I would love to be pessimistic and that say I'lll never be able to ****ing do anything - Constant panic attack for life and that no one knows what I'm talking about, never will and neither will I.
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