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#526
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#527
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Oh yeah another thing that helped the weight come off was I quit drinking soda. I was drinking 3 or more cans a day everyday and I stopped and switched to water only or black unsweetened coffee without creamer.
So I only have it if I order takeout which is rarely and if I go out to eat which is just as rare for me, so I only have it now a handful of times throughout a whole year. I don't keep it in my house. Or juice, any sweet drinks like that stay out of my house. As you can see I will occasionally have a cup of hot chocolate or bubble tea, or a dalgona coffee, but 98% of the time it's plain water or black unsweetened coffee Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#528
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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#529
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I had a bunch of clothes around in my room for a while that I’ve been procrastinating putting away. I always put it off and just take from the pile when I get dressed.
Anyway my mom encouraged me to put them away today finally. I tried. I broke down crying because I felt so overwhelmed. I couldn’t do it. She had to come help me. We got it done but I just hate when people have to help me with simple tasks sometimes. Yesterday I worked 10.5 hours at work very productive and happy and today I can’t even put my ****ing clothes away it was too much. Sigh. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
![]() Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, downandlonely, Job 30 26, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#530
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My dad is coming to visit again. Very happy about this. I'm grateful that my parents are still alive. Both have survived cancer. I knew that both of them would get cancer (I just knew back then, somehow - "What if they BOTH get it?") - Doesn't help with feeding magical thinking.
They will die soon. And idk what's gonna happen. I might be taken care of - But no one will ever replace the good that they've done for me/to support me. I'll basically have no one. I'd like to talk real with them - And I've been doing that.. I just don't remember much of our conversations. I hope that they are somewhere deep in my mind. When I was walking home from school as a kid, friends would say that I'd kick the same rock the whole way home, stuff like that. I imagined that there was a bunch of people inside of my head, with a steering wheel - Looking through my eyes. And there was a vault in the back of my mind where I'd instruct them to put ideas into - But I forgot the key/password. |
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#531
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Some of that is interest levels….I have zero interest in cleaning….so I don’t but I do fine at work and school. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#532
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Don’t laugh too hard, this is my very poor fast rough sketch of an anime cat. I am so out of practice it’s kind of frustrating. But I at least wanted to make myself sketch something since I’ve been struggling to motivate myself
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty
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![]() Angelique67, cogladaid, downandlonely, Job 30 26, Sometimes psychotic
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#533
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Beautiful bluebird! Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#534
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On the treadmill
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#535
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Did 22 minutes. Some little kids came in and wanted to get on the treadmill so I got off. Might do some more later today when they are off it. We’ll see.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() Angelique67, downandlonely
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#536
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Having a really bad panic attack
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Desoxyn, downandlonely, Job 30 26, SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
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#537
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Today is national ice cream day. My sister dropped off the chocolate peanut butter ice cream for me (half gallon)
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() Angelique67, downandlonely, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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#538
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Have the money to pay off what I owe the college bookstore, took it out of my savings account, so I'm going to pay it off sometime during the week depending on when the bookstore is open. I was hoping to pay it off tomorrow but their hours on the website say they are only open on Fridays this part of the summer, so I might have to wait till Friday
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty
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#539
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Hugs bluebird…. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#540
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I think I'm gonna see my old T. Seemingly she knew what she was doing better than my current one. I don't think my current one knows much about meds. And meds are like 99.99% of the game for me (I think). Anyway, I don't think my psychiatrist knows that much about psychosis either. But that's fine. Whatever. At least I am on the right combination of meds seemingly. I am back up to 15 mg olanzapine. That helps a lot. I think my psychiatrist is concerned about my weight. So I am trying to run like 5 times a week. And I'm gonna start going to this place that is like diet food prepared meals. I guess it's supposed to be good and the food is fairly cheap. It's been really hard for me lately with a T that doesn't really understand what I'm going through. Also I have a test tomorrow to prove my language skills for a translator position at a place. It's a full-time job. I need encouragement, haha.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, Sometimes psychotic
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#541
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In my experience, Abilify doesn't help that much with my actual psychosis. Works more as an AD for me. But obviously different people have different meds work in different ways (I guess.)...
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#542
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My wifi is out so I'm using mobile hotspot. That's how much I needed to get on this site. Hah.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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#543
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Abilfy works great for psychosis for me….like you said different ways Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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#544
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It usually works good for my for psychosis, and my bipolar mood states, mania and depressive episodes. I haven't been fully manic in a long time and that's probably something to be thankful for because I always did stupid stuff whenever I was manic. I kind of miss the mania though, mainly the ideas, planning, energy, excitement. Just not the impulsive recklessness.
I think I just haven't been managing my anxiety well lately. I need to cut caffeine out completely. I hate to do that but I can't tolerate it. My anxiety is bad without it I certainly don't need 3-6 ups of coffee a day on top of it. Increase exercise, exercise more frequently, use meditation since it used to help me a lot. Get reconnected with my faith, which helped ground me and gave me a lot of happiness and comfort when I was more connected and into it. I don't care whether it's real or not. I believe God, I'm Catholic but am kind of lax in how I practice it because there are several things in it I don't agree with but many of the central faith things I do. I believe there's nothing wrong with gay marriage, etc things like that don't bother me. There are other things I disagree with but I love the faith itself and the history. Another thing is I don't think there's anything wrong if anybody believes in anything else.. I just kind of feel like if you're a good person and do what's right then that's fine, believe whatever brings you peace, happiness, etc. So maybe that's why I kind of fell off going to church and stuff because I feel like sort of a fraud.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
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![]() Angelique67, downandlonely
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#545
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Maybelle snuggled up to me tonight, she laid down next to me and rested her head on my arm while I had my arm around her
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty
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![]() Angelique67, downandlonely, Sometimes psychotic
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#546
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() WastingAsparagus
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#547
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So I cancelled my volunteer thing the other day because I felt like I was getting a cold. My throat was really sore, runny nose. And I wanted to give them enough notice in case I got worse, they obviously don't want sick people being around food etc and I'm frustrated because today I feel fine. So I'm going to sign up the volunteer for the week after this week because I have things I need to do this week. I'm going to see if they have a lunch shift thing available anytime soon. I'm just gonna try to do that 3 times over the next month. I really didn't want to cancel but I also didn't want to suddenly cancel on them at the last minute if I got more sick and cause them to be short a volunteer
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() downandlonely, SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
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![]() Angelique67, Sometimes psychotic
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#548
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My friend in the building needs to go to CVS, I need to go there as well, so we're gonna walk there downtown together this morning. Will be nice to socialize for awhile
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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![]() Angelique67, downandlonely, Sometimes psychotic, WastingAsparagus
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#549
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I am still using mobile hotspot. Wow. I wish my wifi were fixed by now. Of course, I just use mobile hotspot in short bursts and I'm not streaming a bunch of videos or anything like that. But I wish my wifi were back...
Some things like wifi are integral to my functioning properly. Ha.
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"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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