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#101
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Yeah, my friend from Church got a job where I work. He lost his job a couple of weeks ago. We lost a person recently so I told him about the opening. I told him I would give him a good recommendation. And my company agreed to pay him what he was making at his other job, plus a dollar raise in three months. Not bad! Plus he will have insurance and stuff. So that's good. He will start on Tuesday!
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#102
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I've always found it easier to get a job where I knew someone that was working there, than I did just like by interviewing or something. But I really haven't had that many jobs in my life. I was with one company for 15 years. Another for 3 and this company for 5.5. So that's the extent of my job history.
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#103
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I want to change my personality ^-;
I know that's not 100% possible ^-; But just to improve myself basically ^-; I won't bother with the self-pity, self-hatred etc... ^-; I will just continue living ... |
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#104
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The more of what you put out.., the more of that you get back..
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#105
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Took yesterday off social media, I don't think I can do a full 2 weeks. I just need to cut back a bit here and there.
My building is having a potluck today so I'm going to that in a few hours I have been spending a lot of time coloring. My anxiety was severe yesterday, felt on the verge of panic multiple times, and the spirits have been bothering me again. But I feel okay so far today. Mustachio snuggled up with me this morning while I played a game
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#106
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Glad to see you back, Blue_Bird! HUG
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#107
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I fear depression is back. I had a bit of reprieve yesterday on my birthday but it seems like it is back today. Sigh. I have aftercare tonight so that is something to look forward to at least.
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#108
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#109
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Thank you Blue_Bird! love you hun
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#110
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GP appointment today at 2. Don't know if I will bring up the whole psych eval thing from last time or not. Definitely need to talk to her about the nausea I am having in the mornings and I need a couple of prescriptions filled.
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#111
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I volunteered for a lunch kitchen prep shift at the local place that does meals for the community for July 18th. I volunteered there once a few years ago as part of a college assignment. I'm nervous but I figure it will be good. It's 2 hours. 11am-1pm. I think I'm gonna try to do that like a few times a month
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#112
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#113
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Thanks SK! I’m nervous but looking forward to it too
![]() Potluck/cookout thing was good, just got back inside from it. I enjoyed the food Oh yeah, I should be able to make my FINAL payment on what I owe my college tomorrow sooo I should be able to get the process started for re-enrolling. If I can’t get in in time for the Fall Semester (starts august 29th and I don’t know how long it will take to straighten things out) then I will be re-enrolled for the spring semester (starts around January) at the latest I hope if all goes well. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#114
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Blue_Bird you are making a lot of positive steps in your life. I am proud of you!
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#115
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Brain fog today. Feeling really bad.
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#116
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HUGS Desoxyn
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#117
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The place I'm volunteering at, I used to use them when I was struggling severely financially a few years ago. When I lived in my last apartment, it took up all my money in bills. At the time after my bills were paid each month I had hardly any money left and couldn't get enough food. So I used to go to their dining hall to eat at their community meals, sometimes lunches, sometimes, dinners, sometimes breakfasts. They serve all 3 every single day. I was very thankful for them because they're very friendly and welcoming and they were sometimes the only way I'd be able to actually eat during the times I ran out of food at home. They do a lot of other stuff for the community as well, clothing, housing, etc Tons of stuff, they're a great place
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#118
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#119
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#120
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I took Dexedrine - The olanzepine will be taken at 5pm (In 3 hours). They are both similar to me.. Mild/smooth, rearranges dopamine..
I overdosed yesterday on rum, phenibut and weed. I lied down, going in and out of consciousness, dizzy.. Then went to sleep - Woke up like how I was. Yesterday morning, I felt the best I could possibly feel.. Music sounded really good, I was in tune with the energies of reality - I wanted an energy drink... My mom said not to drink one (Bad for heart) so I bought a coke.. I felt... like .. idk why - But I drank/smoked the things.. SP.. I think I have autism with psychosis - It's all "Quasi-psychosis" - But I was put on antipsychotics.. Which made me sleep with not much cognitive stimulation - So now the schizophrenia label fits (I don't have any foundation of past skills from neurodegeneration). So if I stop the APs, symptoms happen (Mostly agitation, regret, sui thoughts, anxiety). And the Abilify made me impulsive as all hell. I was on.. 30-40mg a day. Bad ADHD and chemical addiction, mania.. For years. So I have to continue doing what I'm doing - Being as self-aware, improving... I think I'm doing the right things.. |
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#121
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My catecholamines are depleted
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#122
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Coffee.. with olanzepine
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#123
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#124
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Getting a London travel guide since my friend and I are planning a trip there in a few years from now. Just wanted book to look at to get me excited about going, not that I'm not excited, its just reading/looking at physical pictures of the place will get me hyped for the trip and motivated to save my money for it.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#125
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Hey everyone. I've been away. Away with my thoughts or whatever. It's fine. I am better now. I was seeing a really bad T. Telling me all I need is to work on self-esteem and stuff like that. I don't know why I was seeing her. Sometimes it takes failure to get better I suppose. And my pdoc is being silly and not returning calls again. And he leaves town tomorrow. Yikes. I know I can switch to another pdoc which is a good thing. Probably I am going to. I mean at least I have the choice, as I know some people don't. Anyway. Hope to bring at least a little positivity around.
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